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"No, I just feel uncomfortable, ever since Feng saved me seven years ago, he has given a lot for me, in order to go to Taiwan to save me, he would have taken over 'The Dark Night'. If it wasn't for me, he could have chosen a normal life, I owe him too much, and under the situation where he clearly knows that he likes me, I really can't just focus on my own happiness, all these years, if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be able to leave the Dark Night, there are rules and regulations, if I were to become a killer for a day, if I had to leave, I would have to cripple myself."

Zhuo Wei Ting felt a sharp pain in his chest, could it be that Yan'Er wanted to continue ignoring him? Was it really like Wen Qing said, Yan'er felt that she owed Gao Jianfeng? Would they really have to wait until Gao Jianfeng found his true love and was blessed before they could be together?

Zi Yan cried even louder. If it weren't for the fact that she read the information on Feng in the Killing technique, she wouldn't have known about this. But now that she knew, she couldn't pretend she didn't know.

After hearing Zi Yan's words, Zhuo WeiTing didn't know what else to say. A man could give up everything for a woman, and this kind of love wasn't something that every man could achieve.

For Gao Jianfeng to do so much for Yan'er, it only showed that all these years, he had loved Yan'er no less than he did. For such a man, besides gratitude, there was also admiration.

He had used his life's worth of pain in exchange for Yan'er and Xiao Xian's safety. He was grateful to him.

However, he really wasn't willing to use his happiness in exchange for Yan'er. But as matters stood, it was up to Yan'er to make the choice.

"Yan'er, you must believe that in this world, good people will definitely be rewarded. Feng …" He will meet the true love of his life, and have his happiness. "

Zhuo WeiTing tightly embraced Zi Yan, as if he was afraid of losing her, and said this with a heavy heart.

"I hope that he will meet his true love one day and be happy the next. But before that, I really can't be selfish and only care about myself. A-Ting, do you understand?"

As Zi Yan listened to Zhuo WeiTing's calm heartbeat, she felt conflicted. She was unwilling to let Zhuo WeiTing go, but she also didn't want to betray her own promise.

She also knew that if she did this to A-Ting, it would be unfair. After all, he had waited for her for seven years. However, if she only cared about her own happiness and ignored Feng's pain, she would feel even more sorry for her own conscience.

"Yan'er, I understand, but do you know, love and gratitude are different? You are just gratitude to Ah Feng right? Yan'er, tell you that I am the only one who loves you, right? "

In the darkness, Zhuo Wei Ting touched Zi Yan's face and asked softly. He wanted to know the answer, he was afraid of the feeling of being suspended in the air.

"A-Ting, I love you, but I can't ignore A-Feng's feelings. If he can't forgive me, if he can't be happy, then I can't selfishly choose my own happiness. I'm sorry, I know I can't and I don't have the qualifications to ask you for anything, but, if one day you meet that …"

"You're not allowed to continue."

There was a hint of anger in Zhuo Weitang's voice.

If Zi Yan couldn't walk out of this fog, he was willing to wait, but he didn't want to listen to what she said.

He had waited for seven years, and even if he had to wait any longer, he was willing. At least Yan Er was by his side, at least her heart was with him.

After that night, everything seemed to have returned to the past, but at the same time, it seemed a little different.

Zi Yan and Zhuo Weitang met several times a week and spent every weekend together. Although she knew it was a betrayal, she couldn't control herself.

Every time Zhuo WeiTing came to look for her, she would forget her own persistence.

On weekends, Zhuo would come to stay with him, sometimes with his son, and the family would go for a walk and a picnic, as if they were no different from the others.

But every weekend, Zi Yan felt a sense of guilt.

The longer it went on, the more guilty she became. At the end of the first semester, she felt like she was going to suffocate.

She felt like she was about to collapse, so she went for the kill, hoping that she could get a dose of medicine for her.

But she was unlucky. Martisha had gone back to India, and even the dragon had been sent on a mission. At this moment, only Piggy, who didn't know anything about love, was left in the killing zone.

"Zi Yan, you haven't been here for a long time, why are you thinking of us today?"

As soon as Little Pig saw Zi Yan, he smiled.

"Piggy, is Mattia here?"

Zi Yan was not very good at polite words, and directly asked Madisha the moment she entered.

"Oh, you came to look for her. How sad. I thought you were thinking of me."

As Little Pig spoke, he pouted and spoke with a wronged expression.

"Little pig, stop messing around, looking at Zi Yan like this, there must be something up. Zi Yan, what's the matter, tell us, maybe we can help without Madisha."

The one who spoke was Jack, he was a genuine American, and a cowboy. He didn't interact much with Zi Yan, but he could see the worry on her face.

"It's nothing. I just think I'm sick and I want to see her."

Zi Yan covered up, she did not want her betrayal to be made public.

"Zi Yan, you came too. How is it? Seeing Director Zhuo so happy recently, when are you planning to get married again?"

The one who spoke was Ann who was hugging her lovely wife. She and Feng was like a baby; they were basically stuck together.

Looking at An An and Feng, Zi Yan felt a little envious. If not for the unforeseen event seven years ago, perhaps she and A Ting would be like them today.

"An, Feng, I'm a bit confused. Can you help me?"

An An was very surprised by Zi Yan's pleading eyes, after all, he was a man, from a psychological perspective, Zi Yan should be looking for a woman, just like Madisha.

"Sure, wife, I think you might be able to give more advice to Zi Yan."

An An An said as she hugged her wife. Although Zi Yan was open and upright, it was not good for a man to speak alone with his wife.

Zi Yan pointed it out, looking expectantly at Feng. Feng always spoke little, and from an age point of view, Feng Yan was younger than her, but her mind was more mature.

Niu and Little Pig shrugged their shoulders, watching Zi Yan and An Xin go upstairs. They finally understood what was going on.

It turned out to be a question of affection. However, since when did An An's' scoundrel 'become a love expert?

"Zi Yan, did something happen between you and Zhuo Wei Ting?"

An An poured juice for her wife and Zi Yan separately, and then sat opposite them.

"No, every time I'm with A-Ting, I feel extremely guilty. I feel like I've hurt Feng, and the longer I stay together with him, the more guilty I feel, and the harder it is for me to breathe. This guilt feels like it's tearing me apart."

Ziyan picked up the juice and took a sip, trying to suppress her nervousness.

"Sister Yan, then who do you love? A Ting or A Feng? "

Feng looked at Zi Yan who was in a dilemma.

"A Ting, but A Feng …"

"It's enough as long as you know that you love A-Ting. Love is a selfish thing, and you can't have a third person in the world of love. If you continue like this, it'll only lead to three people suffering."

Feng Yan said in shock.

Actually, love is very simple, she doesn't understand why Zi Yan has to make things so complicated, she can be with whoever she loves, why think about whether or not she loves you, this is not what she cares about.

It was impossible. She had to consider everyone who loved her. If that was the case, then there wouldn't be many people in this world who could marry each other.

"That's right, Zi Yan. Although my wife said it a little more simply, love is like this. You know, the people around you are the people you treasure the most, the rest is just a passing cloud. Be good to yourself and to him who is beside you. You have to believe that God will arrange happiness for everyone and he will find happiness for everyone, but time is not up yet. You can't have this mentality anymore and you have to get out of your confusion or everyone will suffer together with you. "

An An took over his wife's words to advise Zi Yan.

"Why did you get married?"

Zi Yan looked at An An and Feng. From what she knew, An An and Feng's age difference was similar to his and Zhuo Wei Ting's. They had known each other before, so why was Feng willing to marry An so early?

An An and Feng looked at Zi Yan in astonishment. The couple looked at each other and smiled, allowing Feng to answer.

"Because of love, loving someone makes you want to be with them for the rest of your life. Haven't you thought about that?"

"Seven years ago, I thought so, but now, I feel that marriage doesn't guarantee anything. If both sides don't trust each other, then marriage is only a formality, and cannot bind their hearts together. On the contrary, as long as their hearts are together, even if there is no marriage, as long as there is love, no one can be separated from each other."

Zi Yan looked doubtfully at An An and Feng.

As far as she was concerned, marriage was just a formality, like a treaty. She remembered that when they were first married, Zhuo Weiting had given her an agreement to sign.

Perhaps it was because of this that she felt such a shadow in her heart. Coupled with the matter with Feng, she no longer cared so much about marriage.

"You have your opinion on this, and most importantly, your other half agrees."

What Zi Yan said also made sense, but normal people would want a marriage, maybe most people were too vulgar, of course, if Zhuo Weiting could accept it, then Zi Yan could choose however she wanted, I'm afraid that Zhuo WeiTing would not accept it.

Arriving at the killing point, Zi Yan did not find the answer, but instead became even more depressed.

She had told Zhuo Weitang that he did not object, but neither did he agree.

She felt that her current lifestyle was very good. She didn't have to be together every day, as they all had their own spaces and wouldn't interfere with each other.

However, she didn't dare to call Feng. Sometimes she wanted to ask him if he was doing well, but she also didn't dare to ask.

While Zi Yan was at a loss, An An became a good person and called Zhuo WeiTing.

Zhuo Weitang remained silent, but after hanging up, he immediately went to find Zi Yan.

If Yan'Er really decided to do that, other than cooperating with him, he did not know what else he could do. He could not point his gun at Gao Jianfeng and ask him to quickly find a woman to marry.

"Yan'er, where are you right now? Let's have lunch together."

Zhuo Wei Ting called Yan'er, and he wanted to have a good talk with her. Although his thoughts were different from Zi Yan's, he was afraid that such happiness would disappear.

"I'm shopping."

Zi Yan took a look at the street and decided to follow the example of other women, shopping to calm her restless heart.

"I'll accompany you."

Zhuo Weitang didn't use a questioning tone to reply, it was only a short three words, but it made Zi Yan feel very warm.

"Alright."

Zi Yan reported her location, strolling around while waiting for Zhuo WeiTing to arrive.

Zhuo Weitang's speed was very fast, it only took him 20 minutes to arrive there. After he parked his car, he quickly found Zi Yan.

"Yan'er, you came late, did you not buy anything?"

Zhuo Weitang looked at Zi Yan's empty hands and stretched out his hands naturally with his ten fingers locked together. "Hahahaha!" "Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!