Su Ruhua gently closed her eyes. Su Ruyu’s gaze was slightly cold when she looked away from Su Ruhua’s face. It was a face that she once so adored and trusted.
To her, the past twenty years flashed past in the blink of an eye, and all the memories of the tragedies of before were so fresh as though they happened yesterday. She could neither smile at Su Ruhua nor treat everything as though they did not happen.
“I’ll give you another five more minutes. If you are not talking, we’ll sever ties with each other for the rest of our lives and part for good.” Su Ruyu, wanting to know exactly what happened between Mo Shitian and her, had to talk tough.
…
“Xiaoyu, I’ll talk.” Su Ruhua slowly opened her eyes. “When I was about to bring you the letter that day, I saw Fu Jin and Mo Shitian fighting it out over you. Fu Jin wanted Mo Shitian to give up on you, but he was unwilling, so they both fought. As they fought, they unintentionally crashed into the wine cellar…”
Su Ruyu paused and looked at Su Ruyu before asking, “Did you know that Mo Shitian’s character completely changes after he drinks wine?”
Su Ruyu shook her head. Mo Shitian did not seem to drink wine, and he said that he did not like the smell of wine. Even if she put the slightest amount of wine in his food, he would not eat it, claiming that he was allergic to wine and couldn’t consume it.
She did not think more about it.
“When they fought in the wine cellar, they knocked over many barrels of wine. I was afraid that something would happen to them and rushed down to find Mo Shitian completely not himself. While he was still as capable a fighter, he seemed to have the IQ of a five-year-old…” Su Ruhua ticked her lips. “He called me…”
She looked at Su Ruyu and paused for a moment. “He called me wifey and would not allow me to leave him. Seeing that something was amiss, Fu Jin stopped fighting. Mo Shitian suddenly hugged me and acted petulant toward me. He became extremely weird. It was as though he had completely changed and become particularly obedient. Fu Jin and I didn’t quite know what was going on, so I had Fu Jin leave lest he fight with Mo Shitian again and then brought Mo Shitian back to the mansion. He seemed to have become a child whose mind was unclear and had to be taught everything. I wanted to go home so that you could check on him, but he just wouldn’t allow me to leave. I wasn’t able to outfight him, and I could not bear to see him crying whenever I left, which explains why I remained behind to look after him. I had no chance to tell you.”
Su Ruyu frowned. How could things turn out that way?
“Are you trying to say that he fell in love with you?” Su Ruyu slowly said with a cold smile on her lips. Mo Shitian who acted like an idiot? That she had never seen…
“Xiaoyu, it’s an inherited disease that Little Jue has too. Once the person comes into contact with alcohol, they return to their infant-hood and develop an immense attraction to the first person they see. Like newborn children who cling to their mothers after birth, I was uncannily the first person he saw. Back then, I experimented on Little Jue many times to confirm that he would either cling to Little Ye or me. Such people, when under the influence of alcohol, will utterly obey men and demonstrate romantic feelings toward women. Back then, I did not know that the person drinking wine after seven days would help them recover their state of mind, and I really did now know how Mo Shitian would transform into such a state.”
“So?”
“I was selfish. I loved Mo Shitian. Although I knew he was not his normal self when he liked me and sought after me, I was greedy for his reliance and affection even if it were feigned, an illusion. It didn’t matter to me…”
Su Ruyu looked away and suddenly coldly smiled.
“Ruyu, I really did not think of sabotaging your relationship. I just thought to myself that since it’s just him and me in the house, I wanted more of those days with him for I really craved those times with him. All I wanted was just a beautiful memory despite it being illusionary. That was all I wanted,” Su Ruhua said. Back then, she really only wanted a beautiful memory and not had Mo Shitian for herself, let alone sabotage his relationship with Ruyu.
“But Fu Jin… He laced our food with an aphrodisiac,” Su Ruhua said. Su Ruyu’s face changed. Aphrodisiac? Her eyes suddenly grew wide. She personally concocted it. When Su Ruhua went to look for Mo Shitian, Fu Jin already had her concoct it, saying that he required it for a mission. Su Ruyu, trusting him, did not doubt him and immediately concocted it for him.
As she personally concocted the aphrodisiac, she knew its efficacy, which would lead to certain death if the affected person did not have sexual intercourse within the hour. However, she had the antidote because she had a habit of formulating the antidote together with the poison.
Fu Jin…
Did he actually manipulate her to deal with Mo Shitian and Su Ruhua?
And… she personally concocted this poison.
What kind of a joke was this?
And what irony was it?
“Since it’s the case, why didn’t you tell me? If you told me, all these would have never happened. Nothing would have happened! You all were set up, and I would have been silly enough to pursue the matter,” Su Ruyu said angrily.
Su Ruhua gritted her teeth and closed her eyes in agonizing pain. After a while, she said, “Ruyu, only Mo Shitian was affected by the aphrodisiac. I was not… I was not…”
Su Ruyu did not know how to respond to Su Ruhua. Should she coldly smile? Or should she smile in irony? Should she take pity on her? Or should she be angry? Everything… Every single thing…
‘Dear elder sister, it’s just half an hour from home to there. If she took Mo Shitian home, she would have a way…’
Who was she? Su Ruyu, the queen of poisons! Not a single poison could faze her, and Su Ruhua knew that since she was young. But…
“Ruyu, I am sorry. My personal agenda got the better of me, and a catastrophic chain of mistakes ensued. I did think of bringing him home, but…” Su Ruhua did not know how to describe the situation then…
Mo Shitian kissing her and caressing her bewitched her.
As a young teenage girl, her hormones were raging and she would not be able to keep her guard up. Besides, the man she loved the most was bewitching her and she knew too well that this man would eventually belong to somebody else. She was always thinking of…
She just never expected herself to become pregnant!
“Ruyu, I’m sorry! It was all my fault, not Shitian’s fault at all. When he woke up, I had tidied up everything, and he could not recall what happened those few days,” Su Ruhua slowly said. After finally sharing the secret she had been keeping for over twenty years, she felt much better.
Back then, and given the situation she was in, she could not bear to tell Ruyu anything considering Ruyu’s child had just ‘died’.
Su Ruyu seemed to laugh, yet seemed to cry while covering her eyes tightly.