Chapter 80 - What Did You Think Of Me?

"Yan'er."

"Yes?"

"Who are you to me?"

Yu Yan was surprised by the question and looked at Long Ying, who was also staring back at her. She immediately answered, "I'm your wife and you're my husband."

"That's true." Long Ying nodded. "You're indeed my legal wife but we didn't get married under normal circumstances. Do you really want me or will you regret this afterwards, Yan'er?"

"I…"

"Also, do you see me as Long Ying of the present or Long Ying the student who's your only friend in High School?"

This time, Yu Yan couldn't answer. She had to admit that whenever she was talking to Long Ying, the image of when he was in high school often popped in her mind. It had become subconscious habit for her to compare the current Long Ying to the one in her memory.

Long Ying leaned closer until all his eyes could see is the face of the woman whom he loved in front of him. 

"We've known each other when we're in High School but time has passed and the previously annoying brat is no longer the same as before. When Yu Family is down, will you stay by my side or will you leave? I'm not exactly the man who can give you safety but once you're mine, I'll never let you go. I don't want to just have a blissful memory of a one-night stand. But would you stay by my side forever, Yan'er?"

Looking at the little woman's lost expression, Long Ying could only muster bitterly. "You can give me an answer later, Yan'er."

Yu Yan was still thinking while Long Ying entered the bath to have a cold bath. She didn't really think that much when she talked to him just now. When they signed that marriage form, there was not a single talk whether they would continue their relationship further or it would just become a temporary one.

Was their relationship purely contract or it was something more?

She could see that Long Ying genuinely wanted her, but he didn't want to push her into his world without having confirmation first. His self control was really good and certainly he didn't want her to regret it afterwards.

'But who did she really see?'

The current Long Ying or the High School Long Ying?

The two of them were certainly the same person but at the same time, they were also different. The High School Long Ying was much more immature and childish while the current Long Ying was much more mature and calm. He was also no longer the brat who would say anything that crossed his mind whenever he wanted.

She had also changed. From the pure girl who didn't know anything much about the world to the current her who had experienced multiple setback. She had to learn the cruel reality of the world and the fact that people will not put what they were thinking on their face most of the time. They had to put on a mask and learn how to survive this way.

'Why didn't I confess back then?'

At that time, Yu Yan was worried to pull Long Ying into her muddy family and that he would be implicated. And with her low position in the family, she didn't wish to drag him down.

But now that she met him again, he had changed. He was no longer an ordinary high school student but he was a person who could lead a lot of men in the underworld and dominate it. Many people had to bow down when they were looking at him.

Comparing their status, she was nothing.

But she wanted to be able to support him.

Lying on the bed, Yu Yan could faintly sense Long Ying's masculine smell from the bedsheet. It gave her sense of comfort and safety. She wanted to tell him that she didn't want their relationship to be purely business.

She wanted to be the one to support him.

When Long Ying walked out of the bathroom, he saw his little woman was already sleeping. She didn't even bother using the blanket and he silently tug the blanket to cover her body. Her sleeping face looked so defenseless that Long Ying felt a bit loss.

'I must be crazy to not just accept her.'

When he talked to Yu Yan, he could clearly sense that her gaze often bypassed him, as if she was looking at someone else. He knew that she was simply comparing the current him and his younger self. There were many of his action that remained the same even after he had grown up.

But even though he knew that, he still didn't feel that good thinking that she was not looking at him properly and instead looking at his past self.

But that was why he also couldn't bear to force her to be with him.

Could she get close to him again realizing that he had changed and no longer the same person she knew long ago. He felt a bit afraid thinking about that.

'If those people hear that the Dragon Clan Head is afraid of this, they'll surely laugh out loudly.'

Pushing Yu Yan's bangs out of the way, Long Ying bent down and kissed his wife's head. He wanted to give her happiness more than anything else.

…

The next morning, Yu Yan woke up in time and found herself in Long Ying's arms. Her mind blanked a bit as she could not remember when she fell asleep last night.

"Awake? Time for morning training," Long Ying reluctantly let Yu Yan go and turned his body around to wash up. Usually, he would wake up directly and head over to have his morning training. But with Yu Yan in his arms, he didn't feel like waking up and instead wished that he could stay in that position for as long as possible.

How strange.

"Long Ying."

"Yes?" Long Ying looked at Yu Yan.

Yu Yan stared back at Long Ying. Her heart skipped a bit at his husky and hoarse voice in the morning.. "I don't want the marriage to end even after I destroyed Yu Family."