Chapter 115 - Will It Be Possible?

Long Ying sighed. "And our business makes it hard for us to not have any enemies at all. Also, the decision regarding the tradition of this lied in my brother's hand. If he had another child and the child inherit the silver eyes, I'll have to fulfill my duty to groom him as the next Dragon Clan's successor."

The decision about this matter didn't lie in his hand and Long Ying knew that he just had to help out should it really necessary. Whether it shall continue or not would be his brother's decision and not his.

"Oh."

An Luo and San Xia were both tensed up. When they heard Yu Yan talked about tradition, they thought about Long Family and felt a bit angrier. To think that they even allowed Madam to know about these disgusting matters. If only it was possible, they didn't wish for Yu Yan to know about these things yet.

They were worried about her reaction. They didn't know the exact details but there were several people who knew that should there be another child with silver eyes, he would be sent to Dragon Clan for training. As for how harsh the training was, it was something those who had stayed with Long Ying from the very beginning understood very well.

"Do you not want me to continue it, Yan'er?"

"Can you?"

Long Ying didn't answer. It was clear that he was not in the position to refuse. He might be the leader of Dragon Clan, but behind him was still the Long Family who was waiting for him to mess thing sup and then cleaned him up.

He didn't have enough power to resist what his father wanted him to do.

Yu Yan then tugged Long Ying's hand. "Have you ever thought whether you would want to let it happen to your own son or not?"

Towards that question, Long Ying was stunned and unable to answer. Yes, he could say for sure if it was just raising another person's child that he could keep his heart cold. But if the one in question is his son, could he still bear to let it happen?

The treatment he got from the moment he was still a little brat until he grew up flashed within his eyes. Long Ying could clearly tell that it was not something that normal human would dare to give to other people. 

It was cruel.

"Long Ying?"

"I… don't know."

Up until now, Long Ying had never even thought of building a family on his own. The concept of family and happiness always felt so distant from him as he was already content with being happy near Yu Yan. It was only now that he realized that it was possible for him to have a family on his own.

Yu Yan looked at Long Ying then asked another question, "Do you want a child, Long Ying?"

Long Ying closed his eyes for a moment then looked back at his wife. He knew that she liked children, it was already painfully clear when he saw how Yu Yan looked at his nephew just now. However, the question she gave to him was not one that he could answer so easily.

Staying silent for some time, Long Ying finally answered after a while.

"I don't know, Yan'er."

"I see."

Yu Yan released her grip on Long Ying's clothes and then turned around. She did think of building a family with Long Ying. After all, the thought of having children with him sounded so wonderful.

But looking at how cold and distant the Long Family was, added with the fact that her own family was like that, Yu Yan felt a bit worried. What if she couldn't give him children a proper family and instead made them hurt?

Would she end up creating another Long Ying or her?

She didn't want it.

The couple was silent as there were myriad of questions and doubts in their hearts they couldn't answer. They couldn't even speak it out as they were not sure what kind of question it would be.

When they reached home, they were still unusually quiet. On their bedroom, Long Ying simply pulled Yu Yan to his embrace and stayed silent, not doing anything. He didn't know what to say and only wanted to stay close to her. For some reason, showing his family to her had become a really big burden.

Yu Yan also quietly cuddled closer to Long Ying. Her head rested on his chest as she listened to his heartbeat. She wanted to ask more but felt that she needed some time to think by herself first.

The night was quiet.

Even the servants knew that there was something wrong with their Masters and tried not to make any noise.

An Lin poked his brother. "Bro, what happened with Boss?"

"They have some debate."

"They're quarrelling? But I thought that the two of them always shout to each other when they fight." An Lin blinked his eyes. He still could remember that in the past, Long Ying and Yu Yan did quarrel a lot because the two teenagers had different views. They would shout and then argue until they were tired before laughing together again because it was so silly.

An Luo pursed his lips. If the two of them could shout about this matter, it would instead be weird. "This time is different."

"How different?"

"It's not something a child like you could even think."

"I'm not a child!"

San Xia watched these two with disdain. Even when the Boss was in deep thought, they were still quarreling like children. How immature. 

However, she didn't bother with their quarrel and instead looked in the direction of the couple's room. When she first married An Luo, they also had some quarrel regarding their children because the two of them had different things they wanted for their children.

But having a child a concept that was still strange even for the two of them. There was no definite answer and it was something the couple had to answer by themselves by having proper conversation.

The others couldn't meddle in this problem this time.

"Let's just wait for tomorrow. They'll talk about it when they're ready." San Xia kicked her husband to stop him from beating up An Lin.

An Luo looked at his wife with a wronged expression. "Why did you stop me? I still want to teach my brother a lesson."

"You already turn my face this way and you still want to beat me up?"

"You deserve it!" An Luo looked at his younger brother with a sneer.

San Xia rolled her eyes. "He did deserve it, but you two better not make any noise or you'll be sent to Island A because of disturbing Boss in the middle of the night."

The warning shut the two men for good.

On the side, Lan Huo merely watched everything and rolled his eyes. These bunch of useless members. They should just think for a better way to cheer up their Boss and helped him to answer the question that plagued him rather than quarreling in this place like an idiot.

…

The morning felt awkward. Yu Yan saw Long Ying's face the moment she opened her eyes. She still could remember last night's conversation and also their silent pondering. 

"Good morning, Ying."

"Morning, Yan'er." Long Ying leaned in and kissed Yu Yan's forehead. He slowly got up. "You can ask for leave from work first. Tell Liang that you're not feeling well to work today."

"Okay."

Yu Yan took her phone from the table beside her while Long Ying headed to the bathroom. The first message she saw was from Feng Mian.

Feng Mian: Yan'er, there's no work in the company today. Do you want to come to my house?

Yu Yan: Are you sure there's no work in the company or it's just for you?

Feng Mian: *sticking tongue emoji* Well, for me. But I can ask Liang to ask for leave for you.

Yu Yan: Sure, I'll come to your house.

After she had finished texted Feng Mian, Yu Yan jumped off the bed. She stretched her body and waited until Long Ying finished his business in the bathroom.

"Ying, I'm going to visit Mian'er today. Are you going to work?" Yu Yan asked.

Long Ying nodded. There was no break in the underworld because the people there would not care about holiday or anything like that. They would do their business at any day that was profitable for them.

"Take care."

"Have fun with Feng Mian." Long Ying pulled Yu Yan to his embrace and thought for a moment. He would have some time to think when he was working today and keeping a thought to himself for too long would only make it harder to talk later. "We'll talk again tonight."

Yu Yan's eyelids flashed as she nodded. "Okay. I'll wait for you later."

"Mhm."

The couple then went on doing their own things while still thinking about the matter last night.