Chapter 10：Emotion: Jealousy (Part 2)

Jack said "Hye! Amy. Won't you listen to my story?"

I said "Wait! What's the time now?"

His mom replied "Jack what's your problem! It's midnight. Let me sleep, Jack."

I asked "Why won't you sleep? It's too dark."

Jack replied "No, look! It's raining outside. You go sleep!! I'll feel the rain by myself."

I said "Wait! C'mon speak up. I'll listen to you."

"Remember I told you about the jealousy feeling I had."

"Yeah, but why?"

"It's was the first time I felt that. And now I'll tell you the second time when I feel jealous."

"I don't understand you, you have feelings for her but why you didn't tell her at that very moment and you never showed her how it hurt you when she talked about her crushes and all."

"I don't know but when she come up with that topic she smiles, and that make me to be strong and control myself."

"I really didn't get that"

"Okay okay let's continue my chapter Jealousy part 2."

"Excited...!!"

Once I was painting a portrait (obviously of her), suddenly Salang came said "I want to asked something." "Yes, please!" I said.

"Oh no no, forget it, bye."

I hold her hand and gently asked "What's wrong? Can I help you, anyway?"

"No, forget it, forget it. I shall leave, bye see you!"

She left. I didn't get was she was about to but I leave her and get back to my work.

(Salang I'll gift this painting to you. One day I might stand behind you in this painting. Waiting for that day.)

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"Oh wait wait wait! I have a question, why did you leave her? She wanted to ask something right! Why you left her alone? You should follow her right!" I asked to Jack.

"I was busy in painting so..." Jack replied.

"You are so mean!!" I said angrily.

"Whatever, it's gone. And I can't change it, it's really meaningless to say something now." He replied.

I sighed.

He then politely said "Let's continue our story."

"Okay!"

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When I was about to leave the class, she again came to me and asked the same question.

"Yes, you can. What's the matter? Can I help you?"

"Yeah, you are only one who can help me with this."

"C'mon speak up."

"See I want you to help me choosing a gift for someone."

"For whom, can you tell me?"

"It's actually my childhood friend and his birthday is near and I don't know what boys like. So I need your help."

(Again, is he your crush?)

"He is not my crush, childhood friends."

I smiled. (Thank God)

"Actually, he proposed me when I was 14."

(What the...! Why? Why? Bad luck in my fate.)

"Can you help me?"

(I don't want to but..) "See every single person is different, what I like may not liked by him. So it's really difficult."

"At least you can tell me some idea."

(Why should I be a part of present making for the one I hate?)

"Please Jack, help me!"

"First tell me something about him."

"His name is Meso, he is very intelligent and very talented, he is not like other boys of his age. My mother used to tell me that he is very understanding as a son. Helping nature, kindness is the key power of Meso."

(Meso, Meso, Durek, Durek.. Aaah!)

"That's enough!" I yelled. "Why don't you give him a set of encyclopedia!"

"Oh no! He has a pack of all kind of books." (Okay then give him a bottle of poison.)

"Jack.. Jack.. some more ideas."

"Goggles?"

"No, he won't use it!' (Whatever!)

"Then what about a remote control car?"

"Please don't joke now, concentrate!"

"Statues?"

"Yeah... But... No no! Statues don't fit!" (I don't care.)

"Okay last but a great idea, you give him a..."

"Yes!"

"A..."

"Yes!"

"A..."

"Stop it, now say it!"

"A bottle of poison."

"Okay fine. I'll leave." She stood up and turn around.

I hold her hand and said "Sorry sorry! We can't give remote control car or plane, no books, no goggles, no cups, no statues, no poison...~She look at me angrily~ sorry won't say it again. Hmm.. why don't you give him a hat?"

"Oh yeah! How I forgot that he loves collecting hats! It's great idea. Thank you for your help, Jack." (Like name like meaningless hobby.)

Jealousy an emotion where someone feel both angry and unhappy at the same time coz his/her loved one care more of others. It's what exactly I feel know. Heartbroken, sad, angry etc etc.

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"Why didn't you told your feelings to her at that time?" I asked to Jack "She might have felt the same."

"I had no courage. At that time I had no courage to tell her how I feel and what I want. Because I was confused too!" Jack said.

"Oh, rain stopped!" I said.

"Oh yeah, I'll go to sleep as so you should, good morning." He said and went to sleep.

As for me, I also went to my bed and thought that Jack seems to be very sad, what had happened to them. I really want to know. Let's go back to my dreams.