459 Send Him Back

Xia Ling already knew about the attitude of the elders in the Pei Family towards civilian girls from her past life. Seeing their lukewarm treatment towards her was not a surprise. Besides, she also did not care. Even if she gave birth to a son, she did not wish for her son to inherit the Pei Family business. What they thought of her did not matter at all.

Pei Ziheng also hoped that she would give birth to a girl as it was better than her giving birth to Li Lei's eldest son even though Li Lei did not know of the existence of his son.

Unfortunately, when Xia Ling went to the hospital for a check, she found out that her child was a boy.

Xia Ling's feelings were complicated.

She originally hoped to give birth to a girl because a girl would not closely resemble her father like a boy. Pei Ziheng would also not be able to tell who her biological father was. However, now that the secret of the baby's identity was exposed, it did not matter if he resembled Li Lei.

Since she was giving birth to a boy, it would be able to remind her of Li Lei more.

Her heart was filled with joy. As she gently stroked her lower abdomen, she let out a satisfied smile.

Pei Ziheng's expression was very dark. He secretly made up his mind that once the child was born, he would immediately send him far away. Pei Ziheng could not tolerate that bastard child who looked like his love rival occupying his woman.

On the way home.

Xia Ling did not know about his thoughts. She raised her head and said to him, "Many baby products at home should be changed. We should remove the dolls and small flowers and buy things for boys."

Pei Ziheng originally wanted to say that he would send the child away once he was born, so what was the point of going through all that trouble. However, once he saw the happy smile on her face, he changed his mind. Why should he say those words and cause another conflict with her? Once her child was born, it would be the same after he sent him away.

Thus, he said, "Let the chauffeur accompany you."

In reality, when he had accompanied her to purchase female baby products in the past, he had already secretly bought a few items for boys. However, those items were only for the heirs of his family. The bastard son in her stomach that was Li Lei's was not worthy of them. Pei Ziheng did not intend to accompany her to purchase items.

Xia Ling understood that he was already giving in a lot by allowing his chauffeur to accompany her.

The next day, accompanied by the chauffeur, she went out and purchased a lot of things to replace all the female items in the baby room. Actually, she did not really know much about what boys liked. She only bought a few toy cars, toy guns, and a furry leopard figurine using Li Lei's hobbies as a reference.

Since he was Li Lei's son, he should probably like them too.

After Pei Ziheng saw those things, his face darkened. He immediately threw the leopard doll out, and even the toy cars and toy guns were not spared as they were all swept into the rubbish bin.

Xia Ling glared at him. "Pei Ziheng, what are you doing?!"

Pei Ziheng said, "Xia Ling, I know what you're thinking. However, don't even think about getting things that will remind you of that man. I will prepare toys for your son. These aren't allowed."

Xia Ling fell silent.

Sure enough, Pei Ziheng prepared toys for the child. With one look, she could tell that he did not put in the effort at all. There were cheap building blocks and planes made of strange materials that had a pungent odor.

Xia Ling refused to accept them. "These toys aren't environmentally friend and will harm the baby."

Pei Ziheng sneered. "After you send him away, and he joins someone else's family, he won't be living in such comfortable house like this one. He should adapt to the life of civilians earlier."

Xia Ling sighed in her heart.

She remembered her agreement with Pei Ziheng, and her heart sank. "Do you think we could…"

"No way." Pei Ziheng immediately interrupted her.

"I beg you." She said softly.

Pei Ziheng coldly looked at her. "Abort it or send it away. You can only choose one."

Xia Ling face turned pale, and she sank into hopelessness.

She treasured every minute and second of her unborn child even more as if the time they had together was heaven's way of showing mercy to them. She was consumed with thoughts and gradually became thinner.

Nanny Zhou was very worried and said, "Madam, you can't continue being like this. Your child won't be able to tolerate it much longer. You must become healthier and stronger." Although she knew that madam's child was not Mister's, he was still a life, and her maternal side could not bear to watch madam and her child grow weaker with every passing day.

Xia Ling also felt that she could not continue this way. She was too depressed. Thus, to change her mood, she went to Imperial Entertainment sometimes to look for Feng Kun.

Feng Kun asked her what was wrong, so she told him about her current situation. She bleakly asked, "Will I never have the chance to see my child grow up? What will he become in the future? What sort of family will Pei Ziheng send him to?"

Feng Kun sighed and thought about it for a long time. "Xiao Ling, although you can't stop Pei Ziheng from sending the child away, can you let him send the child back to Li Lei? That way, it's better than sending him to a random family?"

Send the child back to Li Lei?

Xia Ling's eyes shined brightly. That was a good idea. Li Lei was so gentle. He would definitely be a good father. However, this joy only lasted for a short moment before her expression darkened again. "I can't let Li Lei know about the existence of this child. Only by cutting off all ties with Li Lei will he be able to forget me, marry someone else, and lead a peaceful life."

Feng Kun sighed in his heart. This girl who was so arrogant in her past life was actually willing to make such a huge sacrifice now. She would rather bear all the pain in silence and let the person she loved be happy.

This sort of growth was the result of enduring a lot of pain in her life.

He was a bit sad, but it was not good to continue persuading her. After all, this situation was too personal, and everyone had their way to deal with it. Even if he gave her a suggestion as a friend, there was no way to make the decision for her.

Feng Kun lightly patted Xia Ling's shoulder. "Think about it well. No matter what your final decision is, I will always stand on your side."

"Thank you, Ah Kun." Xia Ling lightly said.

She returned to the villa and spent many days thinking about her conversation with Feng Kun, but she was still hesitant to make a decision. Should she send her child back to Li Lei? If Li Lei knew that the child was his, how would he react? Would it trigger the butterfly effect and cause him to "save" her again?

After excessive thinking, her fetus felt somewhat unsteady again.

She already had several experiences of almost getting an abortion so now, Xia Ling was very carefully. She quickly forced herself to stop thinking about these problems and focused on taking care of her fetus. She spent more effort than ordinary pregnant women to protect her child. This child had experienced so much hardship, and it was very difficult for her to keep him alive.