Chapter 48 - Ocean - Another Awkward Night Part 3

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Ocean

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"I..I..I..-" I was stuttering and couldn't talk after the kiss, which was just fine since I didn't know what to say anyway.

"I would say that was better than last time." I heard Makai whisper as he leaned forward and spoke right into my ear. I felt his lips brush against the soft sensitive skin of my ear and it made me shiver.

"W..w..w..w..well I..I..I..I..-"

"Haha, you're so nervous right now, Ocean." He laughed and the purr in his voice and the thrum of his laughter rumbled right into me. "Am I the only guy that you have ever kissed?"

"Y..y..y..y..y..yes." At least I finished the word but I was incapable of anything else.

"And to think, you were the one who kissed me first." Another one of his laughs that I felt move straight from his chest and into mine. This felt so weird. "I am happy to be the first guy that you've kissed. And I am going to guess that Britt the bitch was the first girl that you kissed, am I right?"

How the hell does he know that? How does he know so much about me? And what happened to that nice and polite Makai that everyone has been boasting about. And the one that has been here ever since yesterday. This is a completely different person from the one that I have seen so far.

"Am I right?" I felt him nuzzle his cheek against me then as he encouraged me to answer him. Everything that he was doing made me feel like he was telling me that I was a girl and he was trying to seduce me. It was exactly what you would see a guy do in a movie. It was shit that I might have done, you know, if I had the opportunity.

"N..n..no." I stuttered again.

"Liar." He laughed, calling me. "Don't worry, you're not all that experienced but you're still pretty good at it. Do you want me to kiss you again?" I heard myself scream inside of my head.

'YES! YES! YES!' But I was not going to answer him that way, I was a guy and I wasn't going to let him do this to me.

"N..n..no." I tried to be firm but I stuttered again.

"That didn't sound too convincing." He had turned his face toward me and spoke with his lips pressed right up against my jaw. "Don't worry, Ocean, I will be happy to kiss you again. I have wanted to kiss you every single day since that night on the beach. I have dreamt about it, I have masturbated to it. I have wanted you so bad."

At that I felt him grind his hips against me, his firmness pressing against mine. I was not prepared for that. I had not expected it at all. He was telling me he had been thinking all the same things that I had been thinking. Doing all the same things that I had been doing. I should be asking him what it all meant. I should be trying to figure this all out. Instead, I let my fear take over and pushed him off of me the moment he pressed his dick against mine.

"Don't." My anger had flared so I hadn't stuttered on that one word.

Makai was now kneeling at the foot of the bed, crouching above my shins with a perplexed look on his face. I had raised myself up onto my elbows and was glaring at him while I panted, angrily.

"Ocean?" He was confused and didn't seem to understand why I had pushed him away from me. I felt bad for having clearly hurt his feelings but I didn't know how to process what was going on.

I looked Makai over from his face all the way down, over his bare chest and down to the massive bulge in between his thighs. That was when I felt a wave of fear wash over me. I didn't know how to respond. I didn't want to respond negatively. I didn't want to hate Makai, but I didn't know how to accept him. I had never done this. I didn't think I was gay. I didn't know if I was capable of this.

I didn't say a word after that. I just got up and left the bed. I couldn't leave the room since I was half dressed with a massive hard on, but I couldn't look at Makai right now. I just needed to be alone for a little bit. My only option was to hide in the bathroom.

I ran into the only escape that I had and locked the door. I heard Makai chasing after me, calling my name.

"Ocean?" He sounded so hurt, almost like I had just told him that I never wanted to see him ever again. "Ocean" he called out to me again as he knocked on the door.

I heard Makai knock feverishly as he tried to get in, there was even a sort of desperation in the way that he was knocking.

"Ocean, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Please, open the door." Makai sounded like he was scared that he had messed up big time.

"I'm sorry Makai. I just need to be alone for a minute." I could hear the panic in my voice.

"Ocean, I'm sorry. Please forgive, Ocean, please." I swear I could hear tears in the way that he was begging me.

I ignored him as best as I could. I needed to get my body under control. Everything that had just happened had shocked me. I had not expected any of it. I hadn't expected Makai to straddle me or talk so seductively to me. I hadn't expected him to kiss me or to grind his erection against mine. Which, by the way, was an erection that he had given me.

This was all so strange to me. I was confused. Way more confused than I have ever been in my entire life. I had never thought about a guy like this ever before. Not until Makai showed up.

Then, he shows up and now all of a sudden I am fantasizing about kissing him and I am masturbating to the thought of him. And I am not just fantasizing about the kisses, according to Makai, I have actually kissed him twice now. And the first kiss had been initiated by me.

Why? Why had I done that? How could I have done that? What made me do that? I can't imagine what made me do that. What had even possessed me to do that?

And now, I was hiding from him in the bathroom like a scared little kid, or some girl. I was so pathetic. But dammit, there was another reason I was hiding. I needed to take care of my body. That had been the hottest kiss of my life and I could feel so much blood throbbing into my groin that I thought I was going to burst. I needed to take care of it. And I had fresh material to draw on too.

I had the feel of Makai's lips, his tongue, his hands on my face, his chest pressed against mine, and even his lust hardened groin grinding against mine.

"Oh God!" I groaned as I untied the pants that I was wearing and pushed them down. I don't know if Makai was still outside the door. If he was then he was about to hear me masturbate to thoughts of him. Yeah, like that wouldn't be embarrassing at all.

I tried my best to muffle the sounds again just like I had done yesterday. With my fist stuffed in my mouth I stroked myself over and over again, my hips thrusting in time with my hand because I just couldn't control myself.

It took a while to calm the desire in my body. By the time that I left the bathroom it was well after midnight. I crept to the main room and planned to sleep in the chair but was surprised to see Makai in it. He was there the same as I had been, with just a pillow. I covered him like he had done for me and then went to sleep in the bed. I was nervous but confident that he wouldn't try anything without my permission. At least, I hoped he wouldn't.