Chapter 57 - Makai - Emotions Coming To A Boil

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Makai

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Whatever it was that Ocean was thinking he was clearly annoyed by it. I had planned to push the idea of Ocean and I being together during dinner. I was planning on being a little over the top and flirtatious with him, but not in a bad way. However, Jonah had presented me with a pretty good opportunity instead.

I didn't need to push the idea of us being together if I could push him on with jealousy. I mean, it was clear that Ocean reacted to me the same way that I reacted to him. I think the problem here was that he had never thought about being with a guy before. It's possible he still doesn't know that he's gay. Or he can think of himself as bisexual if he wants. I really don't care how he looks at it, as long as he admits that we belong with each other.

There is just too much going on with us to ignore it. I wanted to be with him so bad it was unlike anyone I had ever thought about before. Not that I had been with a lot of people but I hadn't exactly been exclusive either. I was a man who believed in the freedom to express love, whether it was with a woman or another man. 

Did Ocean think that I didn't want him or something? Was that the reason behind his hesitation? I had thought the reason was because he couldn't imagine himself with me, but maybe I was wrong. Did I maybe fuck up by flirting back with Jonah? Dammit. This was complicated.

"Sir?" I heard a voice call out to me as I watched Ocean walking away from me. He was no more than a dozen steps away from me so far, I could catch up to him easily. "Sir, your car." The valet called out to me again, getting my attention as he held the door open for me.

"Thank you." I smiled at the man and slid in behind the wheel.

I figured the best thing that I could do now would be to offer him a ride home and try to get him to get back into the car. So, like a creepy stalker in a white van, I followed him down the street at a slow and steady pace until I was right next to him.

"Ocean?" I called out to him. "Come on Ocean, get in the car."

"Go away." He didn't look at me, he just started to walk faster and ignored me as best as he could.

"Let me drive you home at least. Come on." He was still ignoring me and wouldn't even look at me.

I noticed that there was a small grouping of parking spaces coming up that angled toward where he was walking. I sped up a little and parked in the one that was closest to him. I then got out and waited for him to walk nearer to me. I was going to apologize for what had happened tonight. I didn't want to cause issues like this. I just wanted to make him realize his feelings for me.

I was standing directly in his path as he walked along the sidewalk. For a moment, I thought he was going to dart to the other side of the street or something to avoid me, he was watching me unhappily with every step that he took. Damn, I had really messed up this time.

Thankfully, he didn't try to avoid me. No, instead it looked like he was going to try and push right through me. I was going to try to talk to him again, I just hoped he would listen.

"Look, Ocean, I'm sorry." I had just started to apologize to him, but he didn't seem to want that.

With a grunt of frustration, he grabbed my shirt and dragged me into the alley that was beside us. Did he want to fight me or something? What was up with this? What was he doing?

I didn't try to stop him. I was too shocked and taken by surprise to try and stop him from pulling me into the alleyway. The next thing that I knew I felt my back slam into the wall of the building just past the edge of the street lights.

"Ocean, what-?" I don't even remember what I was about to ask. The thought went completely out of my mind in the next second. While I was in the middle of asking him whatever it had been he pressed his mouth to mine.

Eager, hot, hungry, and greedy. Those are the words that I would have used to describe the kiss that Ocean was currently pressing against my lips. His tongue slid into my opened mouth and devoured me. His mouth worked magic that I never thought was possible before right now.

He had been holding onto my shirt still, both hands fisted into the fabric so that he could hold me in place, or so he could stop his hands from roaming over my body. I didn't have a distraction like that, there was nothing to stop my hands from exploring him.

I felt the burning itch of my palms as the desperate desire to touch him ached through me. I had felt his naked flesh under me once and I wanted to feel it again. Without thinking about it I slid my hands to his waist and up under his shirt.

My fingers danced across his back and skirted up to his shoulder blades but it wasn't enough. They felt perfectly sculpted and muscled under my fingers, but it wasn't something that I could grab a hold of. I needed something that I could hold and squeeze.

Now, and he pressed his chest even closer to me, deepening the kiss, I slid my hands down his back. I was no longer feeling skin against my palm, but I let my hands curve around his ass and gripped him tightly. I squeezed and luxuriated in the firm yet supple feel of him under his clothes. I wanted to feel that part of him fully naked. I wanted to hold all of him in my arms, unhindered by these barriers.

Just as reason flew from my mind, and I reached for his waistband, determined to strip him right then and there, he came to his senses. He pulled his mouth away, but left his chest pressed against mine. His hands, which at some point had moved, were now pressed against the brick wall on either side of my arms.

We were both panting heavily while staring at each other, frozen in the moment that we had been in. My fingers were on the button of his jeans. His bulge was pressed against mine in a sort of sword fight that I didn't want to lose the feel of in all honesty. And there was a confused look of desire in Ocean's eyes that told me everything that I needed to know.

"O..Ocean?" I panted through his name as I tried to break through the lust that was filling my head.

"M..M..Makai?" I don't know if he stuttered for the same reason that I did, or if it was his usual stutter when he was nervous around me.

"What are we going to do here?" I asked him, trying to determine our next move. That was when he finally realized what position we were in.

Ocean jumped away from me and cleared his throat quickly. I watched as he fixed his clothes, nervous and uneasy. He didn't seem to want to look at me for a minute.

"What was that for?" I asked him. "Don't get me wrong, I am glad that you did it, but why did you?"

"I..I d..d..don't know." He turned bright red and stuttered for a second before he turned to look at me with anger filled eyes. "B..b..but you kept toying with me. You were just playing with me. You were trying to lead me on. I don't know what you're playing at, but you're using me for something. You flirted with me. You kissed me. You told me that you wanted to be with me. It was all a lie. None of it was-."

That was when I cut him off. I reversed our position as I pushed him against the building opposite me and held him in place as I kissed him just as fiercely as he had just kissed me. I explored his mouth with my tongue and stole his moaning gasp as if it were the sweetest dessert in the world. When I pressed myself against him, my still firm erection pressing against his still equally firm dick, he moaned obscenely as if someone was playing with him.

God, I wanted to play with him. I wanted to strip him down and do things to him that I couldn't do in an alley like this. I needed to stop myself. I needed to do this right and not scare him off.

With every scrap of self control I could muster, I pulled my lips from his, but I couldn't pull myself away completely. Instead of leaving him entirely, I pressed my forehead against his, panting as I felt the thrumming heat of his body.

"Does that feel like I was playing with you, Ocean?" I turned my head just a little then, leaning my mouth closer to his ear until my lips practically brushed against the lobe as I spoke. "Does this look like I was toying with you? Huh? No, it doesn't. I have been fighting myself for control since the day I first saw you. And if I didn't have the last shreds of that control, I would do something right here that I really shouldn't."

I pulled away from him just a little. I could tell that there was a heat in my eyes that was very intense. I didn't know what he thought of it since I was too far gone at the moment to think clearly.

"Just know this, Ocean, I want you. I thought I had been making that clear, but I guess I fucked up tonight."

"Yeah, you did, when you flirted and tried to pick someone else up right in front of me." He glared at me, clearly hurt.

"I only did that to make you jealous. I wanted you to accept that I like you, and you like me."

"I don't-."

"Don't you?" I cut him off. "Don't you like me? Why else would you respond to me the way that you do? Why else would our bodies seem so perfect for each other?" I was still panting, my lust and need almost too much for me, but they were also being overshadowed by my anger. He was still denying it, even after what he had done.

"But we're both-."

"What? Guys?" I cut him off again, not letting him finish his protest. "That doesn't seem to matter now does it? I want you, Ocean. And if you want me, then I will be overjoyed. If you can't seem to accept it, then I guess we're doomed to fail." I finally pulled away from him, my body settling down at last. Even my hard on was gone. "Come on, let me drive you home." I waited for him to start walking, afraid that if I left first he wouldn't follow me.

It took a moment, but after staring at me in a daze, Ocean stepped away from the wall and walked back toward my car. I didn't have to drag him to the car, I didn't have to open the door for him. He went willingly this time.