Su Qing didn't speak any more. She cried in his arms.
She hugged him and leaned on him as if he would disappear from her eyes as soon as she let go.
"Su Qing, listen to me, do listen to me, OK?" Xu Qinghua constantly said in her ear that the tense look is heartbreaking.
Before that, he didn't worry or be afraid, but when he saw her crying like that, he knew that he didn't succeed.
She doesn't belong to him yet. She will leave at any time.
This idea made him lose his temper.
Always confident and determined, he began to feel uneasy.
"Su Qing!" He cried nervously.
"Don't talk, just hold me like this, OK?" Su Qing asked in a dumb voice.
When Xu Qinghua heard this, his brows slightly stretched out and he hugged her.
Su Qing didn't speak. She closed her eyes and leaned against his arms.
Neither of them spoke, just hugged each other.
I don't know how long it took until there was a knock on the door outside. "Qingqing, the meal is ready. Let's go out with Xiao Xu to have dinner."
Su Qing just pulled back from the infinite fantasy, "I know!" She answered.
Listening to the sound of going downstairs outside, Su Qing looked at Xu Qinghua, "let's go out and have a meal together!"
She didn't cry any more. It seemed that she had calmed down a lot. But the more she did, the more worried Xu Qinghua was.
"Su Qing..." He's not going to talk.
"Don't say anything, don't say hello?" Su Qing looked at him and asked.
At this time, what else can Xu Qinghua say, except nodding.
"Let's go!" Su Qing, take a deep breath.
Xu Qinghua wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say when he saw her.
The door opened and the two went out together.
On the other side of the table, Su's mother warmly entertained them.
"Xiao Xu, come on, sit down and eat!"
Xu Qinghua took a look at Su Qing and nodded with a smile, "OK, thank you, aunt!"
"Don't mention it. If you have nothing to do, you often come to eat at home!"
"Yes, I will!" Xu Qinghua nods with a smile and looks at Su Qing with a little worry.
Su's mother looks at Su Qing, but her daughter can't see what's going on.
"Qingqing, you eat too!"
"Thank you, mom!" Su Qing spoke in a low voice.
Su's mother sat down and took a look at Xu Qinghua. She thought they were just fighting, but she didn't care much.
A meal, Su Qing did not show very sad, as usual.
Su's mother can't see anything, but Xu Qinghua is very worried, because when a person is sad, she can pretend that nothing has happened. Either she has a strong heart, or she has other ideas.
Obviously, Su Qing is the latter.
After a meal, Xu Qinghua ate like chewing wax. After that, Su Qing sent him away.
Outside, as night fell, the dim street lights were already on.
At the door, looking at Su Qing, Xu Qinghua said, "Su Qing..."
Watching him step forward, Su Qing can't help but step back. It's like avoiding a plague,
watching her keep a distance, Xu Qinghua can't help frowning.
"Su Qing, you have to give me a chance to explain, don't you?" He asked.
Su Qing raised her eyes and looked at him, "Xu Qinghua, do you have any dreams?"
Xu Qinghua frowned, thin lips tight pursed, after a long time opening, "why do you ask?"
"Answer me!"
"Yes!" He said.
"What?"
"I wanted to be a doctor since I was a child, but now it has come true!"
Hearing this, Su Qing smiles with tears in her eyes, "has it really come true?"
Xu Qinghua instantly understood why Su Qing was like this now. He stepped forward and grabbed her hand. "Did my mother say anything to you?"
Su Qing didn't deny it, but she didn't admit it. She looked up at him and said, "nothing. No matter what your mother says, she is for you! "
Xu Qinghua's eyes are deep," Su Qing, no matter what she says, don't listen, OK? No matter what my dream is, it doesn't matter. What matters is you... "
Su Qing's hand, pull away from his hand.
Her move made Xu Qinghua frown.
Su Qing felt that her throat was swollen. She tried to hold back her tears. "But I don't think so!" She said.
Xu Qinghua did not speak, just looked at him.
"Actually, I'm very selfish. I always feel that I can enjoy the love you give me at will, but after such a thing happened today, I suddenly realized that Xu Qinghua, this is not what I want!"
"Because of my mother?""It has nothing to do with her, it's because of me!" Su Qing said.
She adjusted her breathing, then looked at him, "it's because of me, because I can't pretend like this anymore!"
"Pretend what?"
"I can't pretend to love you I can't be so selfish, enjoying your love and lying to you! " She said.
Xu Qinghua looked at her, eyes slightly narrowed, eyes increasingly deep.
He didn't say anything, but with such eyes, Su Qing almost collapsed. She held back her tears. "Xu Qinghua, don't do so many things for me. It's not worth it. Really, I can't continue to enjoy your kindness to me with peace of mind Thank you very much for being with me when I was most sad, and for saving my father The only thing I can do for you now is to let you go! "
Finish saying, Su Qing also don't know where come of courage, lift Mou to see him one eye.
Just one eye, Su Qing immediately don't open the line of sight, and then look down, she's afraid that she can't hold it and fall into his arms.
"Good bye and all the best to you!" With that, Su Qing turned to go back.
But at the moment when she turned around, Xu Qinghua suddenly came forward and grasped her hand.
He didn't say anything. He just held on like that.
Su Qing's tears fell down directly. Like a broken bead, she didn't dare to look back and said in a low voice, "I know it's hard for me to be accepted. I'm already very guilty, so please don't embarrass me!"
Xu Qinghua looked at her, the deep eyes seemed to be able to see her face through the endless darkness.
Finally, Xu Qinghua slowly let go.
At the moment he let go, Su Qing turned her head and strode back.
One more minute and one more second, she could not guarantee whether she would overturn what she had just said.
Xu Qinghua, sorry!
I'm really sorry!
Her heart in clamor, heart is like suffocation, but she can't so selfish tie him in his side.
Thinking of losing this person in her future life, Su Qing suddenly feels that her whole life is meaningless.
She felt that future life should be like walking dead. At least, she won't have any more joys and sorrows.