Chapter 5：My ups and downs as a baby.

After a short while, we returned into our house. I didn't notice it on the way out, but this house is really only big enough to fit in the 3 of us. It was sparkly clean and scent of fresh field flowers was tickling my nose. The house had two rooms, well at least that's what I think ( haven't seen any other rooms). The big one near the entrance was probably a kitchen and had a small table in the middle of the room. Next to it, I saw small, cute cushions and on the table was a knitting and embroidery kit. So my mom can do those kind of things. Well as expected from the Angel.

The other room was а bedroom. It had two big beds and a small cruddle. Mom put me inside the cradle and started to sing a beautiful song. No, I don't want to fall asleep! I want to listen to her pure voice! But the more I struggle to stay awake , the heavier my eyelids became. In the end I gave in an fall into deep slumber. I hate this weak body.

"What is it? Did you get hungry?"

She lifted me up and started to feed me.

"Its okay. Take your time, he~he, no one's going to take it away from you."

The second I started to eat, I realised just how hungry I was. Well I didn't eat a thing since coming into this world. After my stomach finally felt full, so I let go of Mother. She smiled, laid me on her shoulder and patted my back. Is she trying to make me burp? Well she succeeded. I did burp, but I also accidentally puked some of the milk out. Sorry ,mom. I'll try harder next time.

After my hunger was satisfied, I felt really drowsy. Mother put me back in the cradle and I dozed of almost immediately.

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It's been around 4-5 days since my birth and I discovered that being a baby is not all that bad. I get to sleep and eat much as I want and my loving parents are always there to help me. But than again, nothing can be all good. Right now, I found a few things displeasing

1. I can not stay awake for long duration. Every time I wake up, it would only last from few minutes to half-an-hour and than I would fall asleep.

2. I can not tolerate my hunger. Even if I'm just a little hungry, it turns into torture and I start to cry. In those 5 days , I woke up almost every night. Mom, I'd like to let you rest, but my tummy won't.

3. Even if I Want to see or go somewhere, I can't convey it to my parents. All that comes out of my mouth is a meaningless sounds that make my parents smile. I had conflicted feelings about that. I was glad to see them happy; on the other hand, I felt sad because I could not get my message through.

4. My daily needs are really uncontrollable. I pooped and peed my sheets time and time again, and my mother had to clean it up afterwards.

But, I noticed that I don't feel all that embarrassed. When I ate or made my sheets durty, I would feel guilty, a little, but not embarrassed. Could it be that my mentality started to slowly adapt to my body? I don't know, but I definitely know that I'm thankful for this.