Clearly know this is not a wise approach, but Feng Xuelan still thinks he is right. She wants to try to change some stubborn ideas in her heart and accept the "failure" she may face.
In addition to Chris, Feng Xuelan also thought of the hatred hidden in her heart. What if one day her revenge fails? At least she should leave Zong Mingzhe an explanation to let him understand who she is and why she does those things.
Feng Xuelan felt a little incredible. She stayed alone in the confinement room. Although she was bored, her mood was getting better and better.
In the past, when she was in the organization of tomorrow day, she was also punished, but at that time, her heart was dead. The solidified fear and despair were like being thrown into the deep sea, which could only sink slowly and accumulate at the bottom of her heart, and must not dissipate gradually as now.
The reason, of course, is that she was only alone at that time, and now there are so many people who care about her.
When Qu Shulei's figure appeared in front of Feng Xuelan, Feng Xuelan felt very surprised. She had no contact with this woman and didn't even know each other at all.
"Sister Qu, why are you here?" Feng Xuelan guessed that Chen Huofan must have asked her to come, so he smiled and said, "our company commander didn't send you to teach me a lesson?"
Qu Shulei smiled when he heard the speech. "Your company commander, he locked you here, and he felt very uncomfortable. He talked all day for fear that you would be angry with him and Mingzhe would be angry with him."
Feng Xuelan felt a little guilty and said to Qu Shulei, "I know our company commander's kindness to me. I made a mistake myself. How can I blame him for putting me in detention... In fact, I didn't want to cause him trouble, let alone embarrass him. I couldn't take so much into account at that time."
Qu Shulei looked at fengxuelan and asked, "what happened, can you tell sister Qu?" she knew that fengxuelan was not a person who beat around the Bush, so she didn't ask around the Bush, so she just said directly, "I heard that they said those things in a muddle. I'm really curious."
Feng Xuelan likes Qu Shulei's forthright character.
Anyway, there was nothing to do. The two women sat in the confinement room and said nothing.
All the murders were thrown by the wind and snow. Finally, when it was said that she robbed the motorcycle and went after Chris alone, Qu Shulei couldn't help but stare and take a cold breath.
"So that's why they said you violated discipline?" Qu Shulei asked.
Feng Xuelan smiled bitterly and nodded, "it's more than that... Later, Qin huhao's car caught up and was blocked by a truck. I'm afraid Karen and them took the opportunity to escape, so I accelerated to catch up. The truck driver deliberately pressed Qin huhao's car and didn't let them pass. I was a little angry, so... Took out a gun and pointed at him. He pulled the car to the side of the road..."
Qu Shulei's eyes widened. She looked at Feng Xuelan again and sighed, "my God... Xuelan, I really didn't expect you to be so powerful! Shuyu told me that you won the champion of this year's capture combat competition and defeated Ding Yuxi. But I thought you could fight, but I didn't expect you to be too brave!"
At this time, Qu Shulei understood why Chen Huofan looked at Feng Xuelan differently and why he attached so much importance to her. The little girl in front of me is really unusual!
At ordinary times, if people say so, Feng Xuelan will hold his head up proudly. But now she has made a mistake and can't be proud at all.
In addition to sighing, Qu Shulei also heard it. Feng Xuelan must have some special feelings for Chris's child, otherwise he would never risk so much to save him again and again.
Qu Shulei couldn't help asking, "that child, Chris, tell me more about him."
When she asked, Feng Xuelan thought and whispered, "I just have a feeling of uneasiness about this child."
She sighed and told Qu Shulei what she had never said to anyone in her heart. "This child is only a teenager, but he has to be used like this. Every time I see his eyes, I feel as if I can hear him asking for help."
Chris is a child who is "forced to accept other people's arrangements and can't choose her own destiny". When fengxuelan was still alpha, she knew she saw herself from Chris. "I thought I could protect him and maybe change his fate. Unfortunately, in the end, he died before my eyes."
Helplessness and frustration were revealed from Feng Xuelan's words, which deeply touched Qu Shulei's heart. She also sighed and said to Feng Xuelan, "some things are like this. Once they happen, we can't change. The rest of the pain can only be swallowed by ourselves bit by bit."
Feng Xuelan turned to look at Qu Shulei and knew that she was talking not only about Chris, but also about herself.
"Sister Qu, do you feel bitter now?" Feng Xuelan asked.
Qu Shulei nodded and sighed, "bitter... It's not just bitter. What's more terrible is that the bitterness in her heart can't come out, and she has to pretend to be strong when others comfort." she looked at the wind and snow and said with a bitter smile, "At that time, my child was gone, and the man who thought he could stay together all his life suddenly changed his face... I'm not afraid of your jokes. I wanted to die several times, and even did it... But I didn't die and survived."
Feng Xuelan can see that these words are difficult for Qu Shulei to say.
Zong Mingzhe once said that Qu Shulei is a very proud woman. Feng Xuelan thinks she is very similar to Qu Shulei in some aspects. People like them never want to get sympathy from others. The reason why Qu Shulei came to say these words to her must be to comfort Feng Xuelan through her own business.
Even if the two had no contact before, she would rather open her heart to Feng Xuelan to help Feng Xuelan heal the pain in her heart.
Just listen to Qu Shulei continue, "Chen Huofan confessed to me that he wanted to be with me no matter what I was like. At that time, I told him that my heart died with my children. But Chen Huofan told me that the only obstacle in the world was in people's heart. If my heart really died, that obstacle would have disappeared. A person always hid behind that obstacle, he couldn't get through, but if someone pulled it With one hand, I might be able to stand up and cross this barrier. I thought Chen Huofan was strange and stupid before. But when he said this, I knew that this man knew better than me. "