This period of time for me is life is not like death, not only to worry about her husband, but also in front of relatives pretend nothing. Life is so bleak, I can only know the recent situation of Huo Qingchuan through the occasional mention of my parents.
The news is the same. He never wakes up.
Day after day, I finally got out of the hospital.
Back to Huo's house, the familiar home seemed empty and strange because of the lack of someone.
"Young granny, you are back." Housekeeper Li met me at the door. The smart old man, who was over 50 years old, looked a little haggard.
I smile back at him, "well, I'm back."
Walking into Keding, I heard the sound of pounding on the ground. Yanyan ran down from the upstairs in a hurry. When she saw me, she yelled "Mom," and then jumped into my arms.
My daughter's little body trembled slightly, holding my arm with some strength.
"Mom, where have you been?" Burying my face in my arms, my daughter asked with some grievances.
The child didn't care where I went. She just missed her mother for too long. I didn't answer her question. I just patted my daughter on the back to appease her.
After a while, my daughter's mood gradually calmed down, she also let me go.
Sparing my body and looking back, she seemed to be looking for something. My heart sank.
"Mom, Dad, didn't dad come back with you?" Sure enough, the child's eyes can speak, and she can guess what she thinks through her clear eyes.
When I mentioned Huo Qingchuan, my heart began to grow heavy again. But how can I tell this heavy news to my daughter who is not aware of it?
"My grandfather and grandmother told Yanyan that my father would come back with my mother. My mother is back. What about my father?" Can't see Huo Qingchuan's Yan Yan didn't give up, she raised her face to see me.
I look at my parents not far away. They are heavy when they hear Yan Yan's words.
I understand their mind, so squat down, holding Yan Yan's shoulder, try to show a gentle and loving expression, "Yan Yan, my father has something to do, and will not come back for a while, after a period of time, my father came back to see Yan Yan."
"After a while, what time is it, one day, two days?" Yan Yan asked naively.
Even I don't know how long it will take to see Huo Qingchuan, so I can't answer the child's question at all.
It's just that children's attention is best diverted.
"When it's time, dad will be back. You have to be good, you know?" I patted the top of my daughter's head, "in the past few days when mom and dad are away, has Yan Yan been obedient and taken good care of her younger brother?"
Referring to her younger brother, Yan Yan's attention was really diverted. She nodded like a little adult, "yes, Yan Yan is very obedient, and her younger brother is also very obedient."
I smile, "that Yan Yan takes mother to see younger brother good?"
"Good!" My daughter happily accepted that she had forgotten the question just now. She took one of my fingers and ran upstairs.
Push open the door of son's room, our mother and daughter two walked past.
On his son's little bed, there is still a doll made by Yan Yan himself. Now he is sleeping peacefully and sweetly, looking at it, he is still very cute.
See the younger brother in sleep, Yan Yan very consciously put light feet, for fear of disturbing the younger brother's dream.
I went to the bed, bent down, gently stroked my son's soft cheek, soft touch passed through the fingertips, unexpectedly let people feel inexplicable warmth.
May be to feel my touch, my son's eyelashes gently vibrated a few times, and hit a few small mouth.
Yan Yan is waiting by my side, looking at the interaction between my brother and me, sensible people don't disturb us.
My heart suddenly a burst of pain, always feel sorry for the two children. I'm sorry that I'm the only one to go home, but I can't even tell them about their father.
"Mom, why are you crying?" When I didn't know, a tear came out and was seen by my daughter standing by.
I quickly wipe away tears, pretending to be OK, "OK, mom is OK, mom is happy to see you and my brother."
"Do you cry when you are happy?" The daughter askew small head, naive asked.
I nodded and wiped the tears off my face. "Well, sometimes, people are not necessarily happy to laugh, but also cry."
My daughter seems to be digesting my words.
I straightened up, "you are still young, these things will be known when you grow up. Let's go down and let my brother sleep well."
My daughter nodded wisely and walked out of the bedroom with me.
There is no Huo Qingchuan on the dinner table. It's still empty and frightening. Even if I'm recovering from a serious illness, I don't have much appetite. Forced up the spirit to let her go back to the room to sleep, I also absent-minded back to the bedroom.
If just flustered, then alone in front of a person's bedroom, the rest will only be lost.
I went to the rocking chair in front of the window, curled up, looked at the darkness outside, and forced myself to think nothing. But the more I remind myself not to think too much, too many thoughts rush into my mind.
Huo Qingchuan, how are you now?
When he was upset, there was a knock at the door.
"Little night, did you go to bed?" It's my mother's voice.
I got up from the rocking chair to open the door for my mother.
"Mom, I haven't slept yet. What's the matter?" With that experience, I try not to let my parents see my weakness. I don't want them to be sad with me.
Mother nodded a little, I see she seems to have other things, let her into the room.
"You haven't come back for many days. How about it? Is it cold?" In the past, I drew the curtain for me. My mother asked me with concern.
"I'm not cold because the heating is on at home." I answered truthfully.
"Why do I think the temperature here is lower than ours?" Mother is not satisfied with the appearance, "is it because it is the first floor?"
The old people just like to talk, but care is messy.
"Mom, I'm really not cold," I walked over and gently nestled in my mother's body, "I'm ok, you don't have to worry about me."
It's better to know a daughter than a mother, but it's not my daughter who knows her mother? She is worried that I can't think of it by myself, so she came to see me.
Listening to me, my mother sighed, put my hand between her two hands, patted me gently, and looked at me with a worried look.
"I'm really OK," I said with a wry smile, "really."
"If you say you're OK, you're OK!" Mother said, "I'm always worried, so I have to come and have a look."
"It's still mom," I said frankly. "It's nice to have a mom."
"Your father is also very concerned about you, but the old man doesn't know how to talk, so I came down to see you." When I mentioned my father, my mother had a little sense of happiness on her face.
At that moment, I thought, if I can accompany Huo Qingchuan to the age of my parents, how wonderful it would be.
"Well, dad is the best." I said.
"Girl," my mother looked at me heartily, "if you feel uncomfortable, you will tell my mother, we are mother and daughter, what can't be said, don't stand alone, you know?"
I bit my lips and finally bowed my head in front of the warmest person in the world.
My mother was a little worried when she saw me like this, so she had more strength to hold my hand.
I was silent for a moment, gently hugged the mother's waist, "Mom, you sleep with me today."
The sudden act of coquetry made my mother have no reaction for a moment. When she came back, she patted me on the back in tears and laughter. "How old are you? Do you have to let me sleep with you?"
"Don't you mean to tell you everything?" I pretended to be aggrieved and complained to my mother.
"Well, well, my little ancestor," my mother looked at me helplessly, "what you say is what you say, my life. I worry about you little ancestors all day long."
I knew that my mother was distressed, so I took her hand and came to the bed.
I really haven't slept with my mother for a long time. The unique sense of stability calmed my restless heart.
"Mom, won't dad have a problem if you don't go back?" It suddenly occurred to me.
"Do you think everyone is like you?" The mother said, "your father doesn't care if I go back or not."
"Did dad ask you to come down with me?" I leaned over to my mother and asked softly.
"You say," my mother threw the question to me again, "don't look at your father. He cares about you very much."
"I know," in the dark bedroom, all sounds will be very clear, including my whisper, "you have always been very concerned about me, are all for my good."
"Not only us," said the mother, "but also FOK's son-in-law."
I thought my mother would not mention Huo Qingchuan for fear of my sadness. Unexpectedly, she took the initiative to say it.
My heart can't help tightening again, trying to keep my breath as steady as before.
"Little night, now it's our mother and daughter. You don't have to pretend. If you want to cry, you can cry. Mother is here." She said to me.
Mother's voice always has a mysterious power, can gently let people put down the burden of heart, become unprepared.
I gently sobbed, these days of anxiety and uneasiness are crying out.
Mother stretched out her hand, let me closer to her, gently patted my back, with the most gentle way to comfort me.
After crying, my mood gradually calmed down.
"Ma." Just now, I made a decision.
"Yes?" Mother's voice came from near.
"I have decided that I will go to T City, see Huo Qingchuan, take care of him and guard him." Although the voice is still crying, but I really made up my mind.
Mother was silent for a moment, "since it's your decision, we won't stop you."
"No matter what will happen to him in the future, I also want to be with him, otherwise I will regret it." I said.
"Child, we will support you. Don't worry. There are me and your father here. You can go." My mother said to me. For mobile users, please browse and read. A better reading experience comes from.