Chapter 3304

Then Lin Hai drove back to the East China Sea. How much he expected when he came, how much he lost when he left, because all his hopes had been completely lost.

Instead of going back to the company or Xu Yawen's house, he drove directly to the university town to find song Yuting.

He made a phone call to song Yuting, who promised him to come out at once. He stopped at this time. Finally, he took out his mobile phone, found the email Xu Yawen left him, and started to read it slowly.

"Lin Hai, when you received this email, I had already left. I was not in Donghai, Xizhou or Wushan, any of the places we talked about. I've been walking for a few days, so now I'm in a place you don't know. "

"You don't have to look for me, don't want to persuade me to go back, you must be very clear, if I will go back, then I won't choose to leave now. I know that I may cause you a great blow and injury, but I think our current state, continue to develop, the final result will be more damage

"I know your feelings for me. Maybe I will never meet a person as good as you or me in my life. I also know that missing someone may be a permanent regret. However, I have never been able to overcome myself. This is my own problem. Any girl who meets a man like you may always be happy, but for me, on the contrary, I only fear that I will lose her anytime and anywhere. "

"This idea is ridiculous to anyone, including myself, who doubts whether it is right or wrong. But I once lost everything overnight and had nothing. Therefore, I can't experience another loss, even if I never get it, which is less painful than getting it and then losing it. You will think that it's ridiculous and cruel for me to do this now, but it's much less than the loss and pain when we can't bear to talk about separation after many years of marriage. "

"What's more, there are too many inappropriates between us. No matter in character or in all aspects, you have been tolerating me all the time, and I have to make changes for you a lot of times. In the long run, no one can support me. Besides, I am a very pessimistic person. You can see that. I also admire the character like Wang Yu. I'm not afraid of anything and I don't worry about it. I'm very bold and cheerful. I can be so brave when I face love. "

"If I had the same character as her, maybe we wouldn't have come to where we are today. But it's doomed that I will never be like her, so I think, in fact, you and she may be the most suitable, especially there are so many past between you. No matter what happened when you were a child or how you get along with each other now, it's so natural. In fact, if you didn't have the accident when you were a child, you should be together now, We should love each other very much. And I was just an unexpected episode. I think it's enough to have a relationship with you. "

"My idea is still very simple. I still hope I can be quiet by myself. In the past, when I was with you and at Eagle Security, I was very happy and gained a lot, but I was always confused, as if I couldn't find the direction. No matter what I wanted, I always felt that I couldn't understand myself. I don't want to live such a life forever. I don't want to be confused and miserable all the time. "

"Moreover, for me, love is never the most important thing. I know it may be cruel to say so, and you may blame me for being cold-blooded, but the fact is that in my mind, there are many things that should be in front of love. Once I made the wrong choice, but to choose again, I may still give up love in order to show

"But you are different. You always put your feelings first, which means that once you face a choice in the future, my choice will definitely hurt you and disappoint you. Therefore, you should be with people who understand you better and cherish you and your feelings more. In this way, you will be happier, and I will bless you forever. "

"Thank you for everything you have given me. The memories are really wonderful, so I don't want to destroy them. I also thank you for spending time with me when I was the most difficult and nowhere."

"But I'm sorry, Lin Hai. The more so, the better choice I can make for you and me. I'm sorry to have wasted so much time and feelings, so I hope you can forget me and find your true feelings again. Goodbye. "

After reading this long letter, Lin Hai felt that his strength was hollowed out, as if he had gone a long way. When he arrived, he was told that he had gone in the wrong direction from the beginning, and all his efforts were in vain.

He and Xu Yawen get along for a short time, but for him, has paid all the sincerity, but in the end in exchange for a total negation.

He is not a person who has not experienced setbacks and blows, let alone can not stand the blow, but his emotional problems are different from all other problems, which does not mean that efforts lead to results.

"Why do you think we can't be together for a long time? What problems can't be solved slowly, but now that we've just started, you don't want to go on..." Lin Hai said to himself with a bitter smile.

Perhaps there is only one answer: Xu Yawen really does not have so much feelings for him, so she is not willing to pay more trust and efforts, because she is willing to spend her time and experience on the person who is really right in the future.

But even so, can't you say it to your face and walk away happily, so afraid of what he says, even if she says goodbye, he won't agree?

Lin Hai had no other feelings except helplessness and pain.

Song Yuting quickly came to his car, panting, opened the door and looked at him with red eyes: "what's the matter with all this? What happened? "

She opened her mouth, and her voice choked unconsciously.

She and Xu Yawen's feelings are there, and she herself depends on Xu Yawen. I'm afraid she never thought that one day Xu Yawen would leave in this way in her life.

Lin Hai sighed, took out his mobile phone and showed her the e-mail: "if I knew what was going on, it would not happen. It would not be like this."

He asked song Yuting to look at the e-mail by herself and said slowly, "after you made that phone call, she sent an e-mail to the company personnel and offered to leave. Then she explained to other colleagues, and I also received the e-mail. Only then can I know the situation."

"Maybe I'm not good enough for her, making her feel unhappy and even miserable, so she wants to get rid of all this and choose to leave."