Chapter 244: Inner Demon: Depression vs Twilight Official: Lan (1)

"Y-you can't die," 

"Why," 

"C-cause you can't! If you do, I'll be sad!" The little girl shouts, stomping in place. 

"Then you're useless," I respond before slamming the door in the little girl's face. 

"Wait! Don't go! Hold on; I'll get help!" The little girl shouts while I could hear slowly dimming footsteps running away from my house, leftover by my parent's inheritance. 

Tup Tup Tup 

I walked through the house's dark hall before reaching the kitchen, where I grabbed the sharpest knife I could find and pressed it against my neck. 

My hands began to shake, and I spaced out for a bit, and I only came back once I heard a banging on my door. 

I sigh once before placing the knife on the kitchen counter and walking up to my front door without opening it. 

"**** Are you in there?!" I hear a woman's voice say as she bangs on the door. 

Huh? Who is she talking to? And what was that first part? 

"Hello?" 

"Ah, thank god… Sweetie, open the door. I know you're having a hard time, so how about you stay at our house?" 

Opening the door, I saw the same little girl from before with her mother, but for some reason, my mind was cloudy, so all I could ask was, 

"Who are you?" 

"It's me, ******'s mom," The woman asks with a worried expression. 

Huh? I don't understand? I'm assuming she's this little girl's mom… but I still don't know who they are. It just feels like everything goes quiet when they say a name… 

And as if somebody was listening to my thoughts, everything went completely quiet, even when the two humans in front of me began to shout and shake my body in worry. 

I just tilted my head in confusion as a ringing sound began to vibrate through my head. 

The woman in front of me began to leak tears as I just stared ahead of me, only to be met by two glowing eyes. One had an X, and one had a Diamond. They blinked a dim yellow and gray color every few seconds. 

Tup 

The woman hugged me while crying and giving me a warm smile while the little girl next to me continued to cry. 

Huh? Why are they crying? 

"So that's why I was created," I hear a woman's voice, suddenly causing me to jolt my head up as I could hear nothing but her voice now. 

"Who are you?" I ask the woman with pale white skin, lined to the brim with white and black tattoos, weird, unique eyes with an X and Diamond... and to finish it off, she had beautiful silky long black hair. 

"You don't remember? Think harder…" 

Why does she look familiar? 

Suddenly, I began to remember who I was and my second life and how I was just about to die after getting all my limbs removed from my body. 

"These people… they look familiar…." I mutter while staring at the two humans who just retreated from their hug. 

The mother held out her hand, but I didn't know what she wanted, so I just tilted my head in confusion while staring at my clone behind her. 

"How have you been?" I ask my inner demon who sat in my driveway. 

"Seems you're back, and your past self was pretty interesting… You didn't want to kill yourself but wanted someone else to kill you because you're scared of the pain, I assume," The inner demon replies. 

"Which one are you?" 

"Isn't clear from what you just experienced?" 

"Hmmmmm… Depression right? But I didn't feel like I was on the brink of depression before you showed me this," 

"Oh, you were on track to depression, I'm pretty sure… But, doesn't that little girl right there look familiar?" My inner demon says, pointing at the little girl who took my hand and dragged me out of my house. 

"Familiar?" I mutter before glancing at the girl, but suddenly, her face disappeared… there were no facial features, no matter how much I tried to focus my eyes. 

"I don't remember," I respond. 

"Of course you don't remember… but how about this, if you let me take over your body, I'll kill the mage in front of you, and you'll be able to remember who that little girl is," My inner demon suggests as she climbs on top of the woman's car as we all get it in it. 

"Ah, this crushing feeling in my heart is nostalgic… I guess I was going down the path of depression… But I could've easily turned everything around..." I mutter to myself without thinking much of what my inner demon suggested. 

"So, do you have an answer?" My inner demon asks as she phases through the ceiling of the car and stares directly at me. 

"Hmmmmm… Nah, I can do it myself. I'll instantly use [Forbidden Magic: Hermes] and then fly over to-" 

"Have you forgotten? He already knows how to counter everything… That is the difference between yourself, a weakling, and a genius. You have only lived off of my powers, so how about you try and return the favor once," My inner demon says, crawling onto my lap while pressing her hands against my cheeks. 

"I just said to piss off, didn't I?" 

"Tsk…" 

The inner demon clicks her tongue before grabbing my throat and pressing me into the seat of the car, causing my airway to be instantly cut off. 

"More," I mutter subconsciously as if another being resided within me. 

"More," I muttered again while reaching out my hands like a child trying to grab stars. 

"S-so close," I muttered one last time before losing consciousness. 

… 

(Inner Demon: Depression POV) 

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This stupid bitch just won't let up… Plus, her terrible memories are overwhelming even with the few mental barriers I had set on myself with the last of my power. 

Just how much did this bitch suffer in her previous life... 

Letting go of the little boy's face in front of me, I then grabbed onto his throat and pressed him into the seat, immediately getting a few satisfying choking noises that were like music to my ears. 

But contradictory to the boy's suffering, he reached out his hand as if he was trying to grab the stars, and a smile streaked across his face. 

Oh, her previous personality or just the boy's real mind is coming out… Did she already give up? 

As soon as the idea of the woman giving up came across my mind, I pressed even harder and gripped the boy's throat harder as he began to mutter words.

On the other hand, the little girl and woman driving the car were sitting down as if nothing was happening. 

"S-so close," The boy mutters before being knocked unconscious. 

"Finally," I mutter before hearing a message from the system. 

[Host has lost connection with the body] 

[Grand Mind Magic has allowed access to the host's body] 

[Seal has been temporarily lifted]

[Main Objective: Save the host while sustaining as little damage as possible]

[Set Reward: You will have more access to the host's mind, allowing you to converse with the host if wanted] 

"Thank god I made this system before dying; otherwise, I'd just be rotting in that fucking room," I mutter before feeling my mind go blank, and then once I felt like myself again, I saw that I was in Arpious's body. 

She was currently gripping her head with two newly regenerated arms while crying profusely as what I assumed to be Lan was staring at her blankly with disappointment.

Everyone around her looked at her in confusion, but as soon as I took over, the tears stopped, and I summoned the massive scythe Arpious was granted. 

… 

(Arpious POV) 

An out-of-body experience, I would call it. 

I was currently watching myself slowly stand up with newly regenerated limbs, probably from Ichimei, while wiping away the tears that were flowing from my eyes. 

"This weapon is pretty good," My body mutters by itself before dodging the invisible swipe of Lan's hand, causing his jaw to drop in shock. 

"Oh, you've changed-" 

Before Lan could even finish his statement, my inner demon swung my scythe, causing it to rip straight through his baggy clothes as he just barely managed to dodge the almost invisible swing. 

'You aren't using Hermes, right… Hermes isn't meant to slow down time but accelerate yourself to the point it looks like time has slowed down. This means Hermes can be applied to only specific parts of your body if you focus enough,' My voice rings through my head. 

I see... This guy… or woman… I can't tell which one it is as it seems my inner demons borrow my appearance, but they also talk as if they are a separate person, so… 

SHING 

My inner demon swings my scythe again but with much less power as she managed to fake out Lan before slicing my resummoned katana down into Lan's shoulder. 

"AH! SHIT!" Lan shouts before grabbing my blade and ripping it out of his shoulder before taking a few flash steps back. 

"Weak," My inner demon mutters before shaking her head side to side as if she was disappointed in me and not Lan, who began to sweat profusely.