Chapter 7.10

After confirming that Lei Siye was Yan Rui, Fan Yuan’s entire person felt better. Though Yan Rui didn’t remember him right now, as long as he was here, Fan Yuan didn’t feel afraid regardless of how hard the path ahead was.

Lei Siye had received the confession from Fan Yuan, and it was only after the surprise and joy had passed that he started recovering to his senses slowly. However, he couldn’t figure it out — the child was clearly resisting him at one moment, but he seemed to be inseparable from him in the very next.

As he deliberated over the reason behind Fan Yuan’s behaviour, it seemed to be because he forced a kiss on him against his will? Don’t tell him that this was the so-called “Love at first kiss”? As if, this was already their second kiss!

Lei Siye found himself unable to think of a reason, and he was too lazy to mull over it either. Anyway, he was very clear on this — the child really liked him. As long as this feeling was genuine, did the reason behind it matter?

As evening came around, Fan Yuan snuck into Lei Siye’s room as per usual, prying apart the blanket and snuggling in. Lei Siye brought him into his embrace and gave him a good round of kisses, then……he turned away and rushed for a cold shower.

When the man came back from his shower, Fan Yuan leaned against his solid chest and gave it a little poke as he whispered, “I’ll be an adult in two months……”

As Fan Yuan spoke, he led Lei Siye’s hand under his clothes and made it stroke his waist back and forth. The skin on this man’s palm was rough and thick, making his body tremble. Meanwhile, Lei Siye’s eyes had long turned red as he tried his best to keep the child from moving. His voice was so thick and hoarse as he said, “Little devil, you’ll only be satisfied when you’ve tortured me to death, huh?”

Fan Yuan laughed wantonly and teased, “Coward, I’m not even stopping you from doing it, it’s that you can’t bear to do it. Don’t tell me I should be blamed for that?”

Lei Siye hugged the boy even tighter and said with a wry smile, “I don’t blame you. I’m just reaping what I sow.”

Was he not reaping what he sowed? He clearly knew that the child was very coquettish, yet he still hoped that the boy would come to provoke him every day. However, when the boy came, he only dared to touch him lightly but no further, as he was afraid that he wouldn’t be able to control himself and do the child to death in bed.

Fan Yuan said, “If you want to do it, I’m not afraid of pain. As long as it’s you, I’m more than willing.”

Lei Siye’s eyes were so soft that tears almost flowed out. His voice was soft, “Grow up faster. Wait till you can bear it, and I’ll do it even if you don’t want to.”

The smile on Fan Yuan’s face stiffened for a moment. He knew that he wouldn’t be able to grow up, as the day of his demise would arrive in a little over a month. Even if the female lead didn’t make a move, he would have to find a chance to send himself to her to die. This was his mission. There was no turning back on the road to death.

His death was a foregone conclusion that could not be changed, but Lei Siye was different. He was the Main God. Although he’d sealed his memory and powers, it was possible that he could wake up at the critical moment between life and death. What Fan Yuan worried about was that if he woke up, would he hinder him from following through with the plot? Anyway in comparison, Fan Yuan felt that a little spoiler would be able to help him avoid danger, and the punishment would also probably be lighter.

Putting on a casual demeanour, Fan Yuan asked, “Are you going to raid Li Yinghe’s base tomorrow?”

Lei Siye nodded and gently patted him on the back, “So don’t seduce me tonight. It will affect my performance tomorrow.”

Fan Yuan smiled as he scolded, “Who’s seducing you? You’re a shameless old roughneck! Just with a little smile from me, you can get hard. Aren’t you the one without principles? ”

Lei Siye nodded, “Yeah, I don’t have principles, but that’s only in front of you.”

The corners of Fan Yuan’s lips curled up as he whispered, “Remember to stay further away from Jiang Meng tomorrow. That woman is very dangerous.”

“You know she’s dangerous, but you still provoke her all the time?” Lei Siye severely slapped his perky butt and warned, “You should stay away from her in the future. Do you hear me?”

Having been hit by someone in that area, Fan Yuan felt hurt and ashamed at the same time. He immediately grabbed Lei Siye’s hand and bit him, but he didn’t exert too much strength this time. After leaving a shallow toothmark, he gave up.

Lei Siye looked at the saliva marks on his hand and compared it to the scar he got previously. He laughed lowly, “When I think about your attitude towards me back then, everything now seems like a dream. Baby, I think this life of mine is worth it.”

Fan Yuan’s expression turned slightly shy and he murmured in a soft voice, “Quickly go to sleep.”

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Before dawn, Fan Yuan quietly returned to his room. He and Lei Siye had been together for over half a month, but it had always been a secret love affair. There was no other way around it. He was still performing a mission, so how could he be reckless? Despite Lei Siye’s dissatisfaction with Fan Yuan’s secretive attitude, the man still went along with him.

As soon as Fan Yuan entered his room, he was pinned to the door. Behind him, Fan Yuan caught a faint breath of alcohol, startling him. He probed carefully, “Feng Ze?”

The other person sneered, “Feng Ze? I thought you only had Lei Siye in your heart, so there’s still a Feng Ze. What about me? Do I even have a tiny place in your heart?”

Fan Yuan went still for a moment, before he pretended to be relaxed and said with a smile, “Brother Han, what are you talking about, why can’t I understand it? I only went to the bathroom……”

“Heh……” Han Lang asked coldly, “You went to the bathroom for the entire night?”

“……When did you come?”

Han Lang pinched his chin and his voice was extremely cold. As he spoke, his breath was filled with the stench of alcohol, “I should be the one asking, when did you leave?”

Fan Yuan’s brows furrowed, “The sky’s about to turn bright, you should go back to your room and have a good rest. You still have a battle to fight today, don’t mess up proper business over such a small matter. How about…how about I explain it to you after you come back.”

Han Lang sneered and rubbed Fan Yuan’s red and swollen lips, the expression in his eyes turning increasingly gloomy, “You really know how to cheat others. Previously, didn’t you say that you wouldn’t like anyone? Why is it that you threw yourself into Lei Siye’s arms in the next instant? What about me is less than him? ”

Usually, Han Lang would never say these words. It could be seen that he was really drunk. Fan Yuan tried his best to placate him, “Let me go first. We can talk properly. In fact, among all of this……there’s a little misunderstanding.”

“Alright, you talk and I’ll listen.”

Fan Yuan noticed a dark light flash over Han Lang’s eyes, and his gaze also contained an undisguised tyranny and madness. It caused him to even doubt whether the man in front of him was Han Lang. This man had always been cold and quiet, but also tender and considerate towards him. Never did ever expect that one day, this man would face him with such a terrible look.

However, Fan Yuan felt that no matter what he said, the man wouldn’t let him go. Could he expect to reason with a drunkard?

Fan Yuan furrowed his brows before his attitude suddenly hardened. He said frankly, “Yes, I like Lei Siye. For a thing like feelings, there is no logic behind it. Even if you insist on me giving an explanation, I have nothing to say. Anyway, I can’t leave him. That’s the fact of the matter.”

Han Lang’s breath got more and more heavy, as if he was trying to suppress a sudden outburst of anger. Fan Yuan could feel that the man’s strength gradually increasing, and his shoulder that was pinned to the wall seemed to be crushed. But the most painful thing was not his shoulder, but his chest. The man’s painful and helpless eyes made him his heart ache.

Han Lang struggled like a trapped animal. He really wanted to tear up this boy who seriously hurt him, but he was afraid that the boy would disappear from his world forever. No one could ever hurt him like this, but he couldn’t bring himself to hurt the boy. All he could do was to press him tightly in his arms and suppress the violent power in his body.

“Why? Why him? Why can’t it be me? Do you know how much I love you……”

Each of his words weeped with blood.

Fan Yuan felt his chest hurt more and more, he didn’t know what was wrong with himself. For a moment, he really wanted to hold this fragile man tightly, so that he would no longer feel pain or sadness.

However, his voice of reason told him that since he couldn’t reciprocate the other party with the feelings he desired, he shouldn’t raise his hopes. A short burst of pain was better than a long one. It was better to end it cleanly and decisively.

He hardened his heart and said calmly, “You are a straight man. To you, I’m just an accident. You still like girls. You will definitely find the right person for you, and this way, it would be better for you.”

Han Lang smiled miserably, his teeth clenched in bitterness, “Xiao Yuan, you’re even more cruel than I thought.”

Fan Yuan didn’t dare to look at him for fear that he would be soft-hearted, but Han Lang lifted his face and made him gaze into his clear eyes. Han Lang said with a wry smile, “I’m afraid I can’t let you go in this life. You’d better be prepared to be entangled with me for a lifetime. As for Lei Siye…….”

He stopped and looked at Fan Yuan, his expression more complicated than ever. After a while, he released Fan Yuan and turned to leave.

It was still dark out, but Fan Yuan couldn’t fall asleep for a long time. He never thought that he was an indecisive person, but this time, he knew that he had become soft-hearted. This feeling was horrible, it made him feel that he was in fact, a promiscuous person.

“Xiao Wu, I might be a scum shou……”

Xiao Wu: “……”

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When Fan Yuan woke up, it was already noon. The three men had long set out. He grabbed some food and headed to the physical training ground. His three great masters had urged him to remember to practice hard, so how dare he not?

As a matter of fact, he could understand all kinds of weapons such as guns and daggers, but the original host’s abilities were mediocre, so he had to pretend to be a bit dim. Additionally, this body’s motor skills were extremely dull, so a shred of any fierce movement was akin to killing him. Fan Yuan could remember some of the movements, but his body wasn’t able to keep up, resulting in the slow progress of his learning.

However, his three teachers had not given up on him. It seemed that it was indeed true love.

After the warming up, Fan Yuan took out the military knife that Feng Ze had given him and wiped it carefully. This knife was special. It couldn’t cut, but only stab as the knife’s body was spirally-shaped, having a total of three blood grooves. It was called the tri-edged military blade.

The typical tri-edged military blade would be installed on a gun, and it would generally not be disassembled. However, this bayonet was modified by Feng Ze to be used as a separate weapon. Due to the design of the blade, it was effortless to insert and pull out. It was the most suitable weapon for people who didn’t have much strength, like Fan Yuan.

Thinking of Feng Ze, Fan Yuan started to have a headache again. Even Han Lang had found out about him and Lei Siye. That guy was as smart as a fox, so must’ve found out about them a long ago. However, though he’d found out, he didn’t do anything. Fan Yuan really didn’t know what he was planning.

Suddenly, he felt a dull pain in his chest. Fan Yuan was startled. His fingers had been scratched by the edge of the military knife. He quickly pressed down on the wound, but the deep red blood kept flowing profusely.

He began to feel uneasy. After thinking about it, he found a bandage and casually dealt with the wound, before he grabbed the tri-edged knife and stole a car from the base. The original host didn’t know how to drive, but he couldn’t really give a damn anymore.

“Xiao Wu, where’s Lei Siye? I mean, where’s Li Yinghe’s base?”

“Ding, Master’s behavior is not only seriously OOC, but also very dangerous. You don’t have the ability to travel alone at present. Please return as soon as possible……”

Fan Yuan coldly interrupted, “Xiao Wu, quickly tell me.”

Xiao Wu was silent for a moment before it said slowly, “Ding, turn left 800 meters ahead……”

As Fan Yuan stepped on the gas pedal heavily, his hands were trembling slightly. The blood from his wound had penetrated the pale-coloured bandage, but he couldn’t feel the pain. There was only one thought in his mind — he had to see Lei Siye quickly. He had to hurry up.

Li Yinghe was a villain in the early stages of the story. In a fight for resources, he had killed members of the main character’s team. In addition to being vicious when he did things, he was insatiably greedy. This time, Han Lang had brought people over to avenge his comrades, as well as wipe Li Yinghe’s base completely.

In the original story, the female lead and Lei Siye would be trapped in a warehouse alongside a Level Five zombie. In the previous life, the female lead had pushed Lei Siye out to buy time, and she ended up surviving all by herself. In this life, the female lead might be planning to sacrifice Lei Siye again to obtain the crystal nucleus of the Level Five zombie.

As long as Lei Siye listened to him and refused to be grouped together with Jiang Meng, that woman would certainly find someone else to be his substitute in death. Thus, there was perhaps nothing to worry about all. His uneasiness was actually frightening him.

He drove extremely fast, but when he turned the corner, he suddenly ran into another car. Fan Yuan quickly turned the steering wheel to avoid danger. However, he ran into the railing by the roadside. The other person wasn’t hurt, but Fan Yuan’s car couldn’t start any longer. The car had originally been abandoned in the garage, if not, it wouldn’t be so easy to steal it. Now, it was basically a piece of scrap.

As Fan Yuan was thinking about exchanging for some props to repair it, his car door was opened with the other person dragging him out. Immediately, Fan Yuan came face-to-face with Feng Ze with a body littered with injuries. It was the first time that Fan Yuan had ever seen this man in such a horrible state that he unknowingly blurted out in question, “Who was able to hurt you like this? Oh yeah, what about Lei Siye? Did you see him?”

Feng Ze didn’t have time to pay attention to his question as he forced the boy into his car, his tone urgent, “Come with me first, otherwise it’ll be too late.”

“What do you mean it’s too late?! I don’t understand……I don’t want to go with you, I want to go to Li Yinghe’s base and find Lei Siye! Let go of me now!”

Feng Ze was expressionless and silent while he decisively pushed the boy into his car. He said coldly, “Jiang Yuan, if you don’t want me to die by Han Lang’s hand as well, please be a bit more obedient.”

Fan Yuan only felt that his mind was in a complete mess. Only a long time after the car had set off, he stammered as he asked, “Why did you say……’as well’?”

Feng Ze was silent for a while, and then parked the car in a hidden corner. He took out a cigarette box from his pocket and threw it to Fan Yuan.

Fan Yuan was blank while he picked up the box and looked at it. The white cardboard box was covered with black blood, and he could hardly see its original colours. However, he saw a small ‘Yuan’ character written on the corner. He had written that himself, so he would never recognise it wrongly.

Lei Siye had said, this cardboard box had his handwriting on it, so he would never lose it even if he died.

So, why was it in someone else’s hands now……

Feng Ze harshly hammered against the window, no longer having his usual scheming appearance. He was furious and defeated, “Han Lang is really not human! There was a Level Five zombie in that warehouse, but he asked me to go in with Old Lei. He clearly wanted to take that chance and kill us both! To think laozi thought of him as a friend! One day, I will pay him back tenfold!”

Fan Yuan had crushed the white cardboard box till it was out-of-shape. It was as if he heard nothing of Feng Ze’s as he glanced back at him and asked doubtfully, “What about Lei Siye? Weren’t you two together?! I got it, did he get hurt so badly that he couldn’t escape? We have to go back and save him. Feng Ze, drive back!”

Feng Ze fell into a moment of silence, then his tone turned severe, “Old Lei said that he was sorry he couldn’t keep his promise. He hopes that you will…live well.”

Fan Yuan let out a chuckle and looked like he was hearing a joke, “What the hell are you talking about? How can he die? What is a Level Five zombie to him? No one in this world can kill him. Quickly drive back……”

Feng Ze grabbed his shoulder, gritted his teeth and asked, “What can make you face reality? Don’t tell me that you’ll only believe it when you see the remnants of his corpse that were bitten into pieces by the zombie?! That man is already dead. No matter how strong a man is, there are obstacles he can’t overcome, and he also can’t escape death. ”

With wide eyes, Fan Yuan stared at him, as if he could not understand the meaning of his words. Feng Ze stretched out his fingers and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, carefully pulling the boy into his arms. His voice was also in pain, “In fact, you already believe it, no? If not, why are you crying?”

Why is he crying…… Did he cry?

It turns out that it’s so difficult to see the one you love leave. How many times did he let Yan Rui bear this pain?

It turns out that he has always been so selfish……

What the f*ck, why are you hitting me with a trainwreck of emotions like this author ;-;