Chapter 446

"Why didn't you tell me that when you left?"

Zhu Xinrui stood there, shaking his body: "you always do this. No matter when, you have to follow your temperament. Do you really love me? Ji Yan, ask yourself, do you love me or just take me as your possession? "

Ji Yan's tongue tip was filled with a burst of bloody gas. He licked the root of his tongue, but tasted a bitterness in the rust.

He looked at Zhu Xinrui and said nothing for a long time.

Zhu Xinrui has a very sad smile again. She looks at Ji Yan with determination.

"If you love me a little, I don't think we can get to this point now."

Ji Yan wriggled her lips and seemed to want to say something, but Zhu Xinrui didn't give him this opportunity. She crossed her hands behind her and tiptoed in front of Ji Yan.

"When you left, did you think about what would happen to me in China alone? The day you left, we made an appointment to see the meteors, and then? "

"I waited on the roof all night alone, and no one came."

Ji Yan's face suddenly changed. He grabbed Zhu Xinrui's shoulder.

"I... I left because the situation was too urgent. If I told you, those people would track you down..."

Zhu Xinrui looked straight into his eyes: "you have to say that you are to protect me, don't you?"

With that, she didn't wait for Ji Yan to answer, so she smiled.

"But you didn't take me with you, did you? After weighing the pros and cons, you still didn't choose me. How do you know I won't face it with you? "

"I've never been your first choice. Do you know what love is? Love is doting, a blatant preference, the first choice and the only. The so-called love is just possessiveness... "

Ji Yan's eyes were also a little confused. He pressed Zhu Xinrui's shoulder with both hands: "No."

Zhu Xinrui's face was a little pale, and her eyes were all sour. The past accumulated in her chest one by one, making her speak hot and sour.

"Why not? If you want to love me, how can you talk to me like nothing the next day after every quarrel, and skip my tears and grievances and sadness all night..."

"If you love me, why don't you think from my point of view? If you can stand from my point of view, you will feel my feeling, know how sad I am, and you will know how painful I am when I listen to other people's suggestions and choose you without hesitation."

She crossed Ji Yan and walked to Shangguan Kai behind him.

"Do you know why I chose him?"

"When I eat, he will know that I don't like carrots, so he will patiently help me pick them out, instead of forcing me to eat."

"I don't want to go on like this with you, Ji Yan..."

Zhu Xinrui looked back at him and looked at him very severely.

"I really hate you now. I don't have anything else. I hate the smell of smoke on you, your behavior and your overbearing. In short, I hate everything about you..."

"So, if you really think you love me, let me go. Over the years, I've given up too many things for you. My life is still three years, which can be used to delay you?"

Ji Yan seemed to have broken the whole body's reflection arc. He stood blankly.

My mind only echoed the words thrown by Zhu Xinrui.

He remembered that it was before that Zhu Xinrui said he liked the mint smell of tobacco. He changed from a person who didn't like smoking to a person who couldn't leave his hand.

Zhu Xinrui also boasted that his hair was smooth and long hair would look good, so he stubbornly kept his hair longer, just to make Zhu Xinrui like it.

Why, now everything has become something Zhu Xinrui hates?

Ji Yan is like loose sand on the plate. His words are full of words, but they can't condense into a sentence. He can only subconsciously pull Zhu Xinrui's sleeve.

He opened his mouth. In a hurry, he blurted out that it was a sentence.

"Sorry."

Zhu Xinrui was stunned. She had never heard Ji Yan apologize. Today, she suddenly heard it. Unexpectedly, she heard something fresh from this remark.

After Ji Yan's first sentence was spoken, the rest was almost self-taught and spoke out smoothly.

"Sorry, I had a bad temper before. Can I change it later? It was never my intention to make you feel wronged. "

Ji Yan nervously pursed his lips: "I'm not possessive to you."

He wanted to say that it was love, but he was loving Zhu Xinrui in his own way. The original departure was not to weigh the pros and cons, but to prevent Zhu Xinrui from being hurt.

He knew that Zhu Xinrui would be willing to face it with him, but he didn't want to take risks. He just wanted to protect people in his own hands and didn't want her to take some risks.

Zhu Xinrui listened to Ji Yan's quiet words over there. For a moment, she felt that it didn't look like Ji Yan could speak. After returning, she felt a little ridiculous.

Sorry, three words, who can't say? When a three-year-old goes to kindergarten, the first thing the teacher teaches is these three words. Even if no one teaches, it should always be heard from others.

Who wouldn't say an apology?

How many times before she thought that Ji Yan could coax her by softening her lower body, but Ji Yan never said.

Now it seems that it's not that I don't say it, but whether I'm willing to say it or not.

Ji Yan didn't wait for her answer. He grabbed her sleeve hand and tightened it again.

Zhu Xinrui lowered her head slightly, blinked and swallowed the damp heat in her eyes. Half a second later, she slowly raised her hand.

Resolutely and without hesitation, he pulled his sleeve out of Ji Yan's hand.

"Now, I don't think it's meaningful to love or not. What's the use of love or not when my aunt's pain is vomiting and diarrhea, and I happen to have a fever and dizziness in the new season?"

"Forget it, Ji Yan..."

Ji Yan's face seemed to be stepped on for a moment, and he was still struggling: "I'm sorry, I..."

He began to understand. During the time he left Zhu Xinrui, all the lost years were like broken mirrors. He could not make up for all the grievances and pain Zhu Xinrui suffered during this time, and it was useless to apologize.

Zhu Xinrui stood motionless in front of him and responded to changes with the same face. The expression on her face was tired and quiet. It seemed that Ji Yan had broken her mouth, and her decision would not be shaken for half a minute.