Chapter 61 - Thank You!

Golden rays of sunlight come flooding in the room. Sun light up Samantha's face before she turned around on the bed and opened her eyes and looked at the clock which is on her bedside table, saw the time was six in the morning!

"Ohh... We slept so early yesterday!" Samantha said to herself and looked at the other side and didn't find Alexi on the bed and got up and sat on the bed.

"She woke up early today?" Samantha asked herself and got up from the bed and made her bed.

After making her bed she went to the restroom, got under the shower and the warm water helped her to relax her body and made her think about yesterday.

"Am I going to be a... Wife?" Samantha asked as a tear fall down from her eye and her heart started beating fastly.

"Can I... Fulfill his... Needs as a wife?" Samantha asked as another tear fall down from her eye.

"Will I... Be a good wife?"

"What if... I can't?" 

"Will he... Leave me?" 

"What if... I tell him... Everything?" 

"Will he... Understand me?" 

"No. That just brings... More problems for me. And everything will... Mess up." 

"But, How can I... Keep this a secret from him?"

"Not telling him anything and marrying him is cheating?" 

"If I don't tell him and marry him now and if he got to know it after marriage then it will mess up more and maybe... He will leave me too and I can't... Bare it if he... Leaves me." Samantha asked herself.

"You broke my heart but still I remember you. I still remember your voice. I still remember your smile, laugh. I can't stop forgetting you. Why? Every time, I look at my self in the mirror I remember you. Why? Why can't I just forget you? Why do you always make me remember you and try to steal a part of me, and you make it impossible for me to put myself together again? You already took enough from me and made me like this and still what do you want?" Samantha shouted as her eyes glimmered with watery tears and she dropped down on her knees.

Samantha's tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down her face. 

It's the only tears that keep her soul alive in her pain. The tears make her remember her past but those only tears give her strength to move forward but she couldn't erase her past from her brain and it's the only tears which keep her strong every day until the day comes when the searing pain is distant enough to forget it and erase it from her brain!

"Sam, you are inside?" Cassandra asked.

"Umm... Yeah, Mom." Samantha said.

"Ok, shower quickly and come downstairs. We have something to talk to you." Cassandra replied.

"Yeah, mom." Samantha said and Cassandra walked out of the bedroom.

Samantha showered and grabbed the fluffy robe and wore it and walked out of the restroom to her walk-in-closet.

Samantha took out a blue and white solid woven cotton midi dress which has a round neck and wore it. She dried the hair with a towel and left them down on her shoulder to dry themselves and walked out of the room to downstairs.

Samantha was stepping down the stairs when her eyes widened looking at the people sitting in the living room.

"There she is!" Lucy said with a bright smile and Samantha looked at her Mom.

"Come." Cassandra said Samantha and she nodded and walked downstairs.

"Hello, Samantha." Robert said with a smile.

"Umm... He... Hello." Samantha replied with a small smile and looked at Johnson and saw him already staring back at her and averted her eyes from him.

Lucy walked towards Samantha and hugged her tightly.

"Thank you. Thank you so much." Lucy said and Samantha frowned.

"Umm... Why, Aunt Lucy?" Samantha asked and Lucy chuckled.

"For accepting the proposal." Lucy said and Samantha nodded with a small smile.

"Sam?" Someone called and Samantha turned back and saw Noah at the doorstep.

"Ohhh..." Samantha said and Noah walked inside and greeted Cassandra and Liam.

"I need to talk to you. Now." Noah said sternly and Johnson didn't like that at all.

"Noah, we can talk later. We have guests..." Noah cut off Samantha in mid-sentence by holding her hand.

"Excuse us for a few minutes, please?" Noah asked Liam and he nodded.

Noah took out Samantha to the backyard and as soon as they both are out of everyone's eyes, Noah hugged Samantha tightly.

"Hey, what happened to you?" Samantha asked.

"You attempted Suicide again?" Noah asked as he took her face in his palms.

"Umm..." Samantha stuttered.

"Just leave it, please. We have guests here and who said to you that and what about your work in London?" Samantha asked.

"Just don't divert the topic, Sam. You should answer me why you attempted it!" Noah said seriously.

"Look, Noah. I know, Andrew told you. He can't and will not keep any secret from you and as soon as you got to know about it you came here, right?" Samantha asked and Noah signed.

"Sam, look. I am not here to talk this all... I want you to tell me..." Samantha cut off Noah in mid-sentence and said which widened his eyes.

"I am getting married." Samantha said and Noah's eyes widened.

"What?" Noah shouted.

"Yes. To... Johnson Davis." Samantha said.

"What?" Noah again asked.

"Yes. That's why Davis and Anderson are here." Samantha said and Noah let out a chuckle.

"Samantha, you serious?" Noah asked.

"Yes." Samantha replied without meeting his eyes.

"And you accepted?" Noah asked.

"Yes." Samantha replied.

"You... You sure?" Noah asked.

"Yes, Noah. I should move on too... I can't just be in the past." Samantha said.

"He accepted?" Noah asked and Samantha nodded and he hugged Samantha tightly.

"Thank you. Thank you so much. Finally, you are going to be happy." Noah said with a big smile.

"But, I don't know should I tell him... About my past or not?" Samantha asked and Noah gave a smile to her.

"Look, Sam. I have met him a few times in some gatherings. He is a good guy and understands you and tell him when you are comfortable with him!" Noah said and Samantha nodded and he kissed her forehead.

"SIL!" Someone called and Samantha and Noah turned to the voice and saw Martin starting at them both!