Chapter 19 - How To Handle Things That Still Scare You

> Maya

I should never have sat on his lap.

I should never have let him be so gentle with me.

I should never have agreed to this or stared into his eyes like that!!

I know he felt weird because of me and that’s why he decided to look away and buried his face in my neck but the thing is, that’s even worse!

Our bodies are even closer now.

“You shouldn’t stare so intensely.”He said the words softly right next to my neck. I get it, it’s strange having someone stare so intensely into your eyes. But his words sent shivers down my whole body. My skin stood up as it came in contact with his warm breath, “What if it sends the wrong idea?” I bit my own lips as his lips were so close to my neck they brushed over my skin when he talked.

I had no idea what was wrong with me and I had no intention of feeling like this but I started feeling it down there.

I stiffened as soon as I realized I was turned on

Oh God forgive me! I can’t believe my body is doing this!

“I-I should get going.” I started to get up when Yohan held my waist in place and growled as he moved his face back.

Growled?

I couldn’t see his face for a few moments since he was looking down but I had to get off him as fast as I could, “Yohan- I-I have to-need to go to my room! I have unfinished desir-work! I have unfinished work.”

Wow. I can’t even speak right.

What am I so panicked about? It’s not like he can tell I’m turned on. I’m a girl.

Relax.

I took a deep breath as I closed my eyes but when I opened them I flinched badly.

Yohan was looking at me with his eyes filled with desire and I don’t know why but I think they were glowing a bit but I couldn’t really tell. All the lights were on, maybe it was just the reflection.

“Maya.” He drew his face closer, “I want to kiss you.” He brought his lips closer to mine as his grip got slightly stronger.

So close.

He got so near, I could feel that his lips were a centimeter away, “Right here.” He said and I felt his breath on my lips which pointed out where he meant.

I drew my legs closer. The situation was taking a turn for the worse.

I avoided looking at him, “Uhm well”

“No?” I glanced at him. He still had his eyes on me as he waited for permission.

That sort of made me melt a little.

I squirmed a bit.

“It’s not that I don’t want to kiss you I just-” I don’t even have an excuse, “I just-” He planted his lips next to mine and moved his hand from my waist to behind my head and kept the other one behind my back to balance me.

I felt my whole body tingle as he moved his tongue in and gave me a kiss that made me feel weak in the gut. I felt sparks in my body while Yohan showed no sign of stopping.

At that exact moment I realized another thing.

My body was deciding that it would go further and started preparing for it, so I started feeling even funnier down there.

“NO!” I pushed him back with all my force that I recovered for a split second and back away. Not wasting any second I got up from his lap too since he no longer had his grip on me.

We both exchanged a glance while we tried to catch our breaths. Then I ran away without a second thought.

I ran straight to my room and shut the door behind me and slid down next to it.

‘What in the devilish hell??’ I clenched my shirt over my chest. While my heart refused to calm down my thoughts were completely clouded and were focused on how the events were turning back there.

Blood rushed to my cheeks and I could feel the heat in them.

My God!

What if I had given in?

A very explicit video began to run in my mind and I had to slap myself back to reality.

I need to take another cold shower to calm myself but I can’t go down again. Not like this and now how I ran away.

I must have seemed really weird. I don’t know how weird but I’m sure it was very awkward!

Deep breaths!

I started calming myself in other ways.

Deep breaths…

I inhaled and exhaled in balance.

Think fluffy thoughts.

Think of the teletubbies of your childhood. Wait. Why teletubbies? No wait, anything is fine at this moment.

I gulped and crawled into my bed.

Fluffy thoughts.

I thought about my childhood cartoons and calmed down while a smile appeared on my face.

Ah~

My childhood~

When I was so carefree.

I relaxed on the bed and closed my eyes remembering the times when I just used to sit in front of the TV watching cartoons all day during my vacations.

Best time of my life.

My parents would often nag at me. I giggled remembering the scenes.

Lost in the good times I somehow fell asleep and dreamt.

There was this beautiful image of my parents nagging at me, my mom holding that slipper in her hand to threaten me for not eating my veggies while my dad protected me. It seemed like a priceless dream. Something people like me would give anything to get back but all of the sudden it was replaced by the most horrifying image.

The memory of that day.

The image of them lying on the soft cold bed of snow as the white underneath them turned red.

Terrified I shot my eyes open and sat up.

Immediately I grabbed my phone and dialed Quincy’s number.

He picked up immediately.

“Quincy! Where is Nena!???” I shouted without any wait.

“Sleeping.” His reply was as calm as ever.

“Oh… She’s safe…” That was when I remembered that I was back to reality and the dream had finished.

“... She is perfectly fine.”

“Oh, good…” I gulped, “I have a request. Can you switch to video call and let me see her?”

“...” He didn’t reply but I heard him move. I heard the door open, I heard the footsteps in the silence, I heard the door creak open and light switch on. Then the call converted and I saw Nena sleeping like a baby in her bed. Drool running down her chin as she breathed softly with no care in the world.

I calmed down even more and laid back down on the bed.

After a few minutes of looking at her I felt better.

“You can end it now.” I said but I got no reply, “Quincy?” The video call kept streaming and I smiled.

He really left it there for me…

I took a deep breath and half closed my eyes so that I could still see Nena.

The night continued and at one point I fell asleep again.

This time I didn’t dream.

***

>Roro (The lizardman)

I was busy working in the fields like usual. It was part of my daily life when suddenly I saw a raven fly above. It was as black as the night sky and it had its eyes on me.

For some reason I got a bad feeling. I looked around but since I was the only one working late, there was no one else left in the field.

The raven changed her direction and flew towards me changing her form as she landed on the ground. Normally I would never have been able to tell but glowing green eyes like hers with such long black hair that reached the ground and shone so brightly, it can only be one person.

One of the Queens of the forest.

She approached me with a fierce look, “You.” She held my face in her right hand and I could feel the powerful magic she had on standby. Power that could destroy, “You recently met a white wolf in the human world, didn’t you?”

Her tone was threatening me to not even try to lie.