Chapter 79 - The Final Decision

>>Adam

The realization of what I had done just wasn’t sitting in. I had completely forgotten about my own bleeding eye and I placed my blood stained hand over my mouth. My heart was beating like crazy while the adrenaline in my blood refused to calm down.

I felt something in my mind crack and break.

I wonder if that was my sanity?

I was feeling so much at the moment I could place it on one thing.

Was it fear?

Loss?

Anguish?

Sorrow?

Misery?

Distress?

Anxiety?

Agony?

What? I had no idea. It felt like I was feeling it all at once.

Suddenly I remembered something and shot my head towards the kids. They weren’t there. My eyes searched frantically for them but I couldn’t spot them.

“I sent them back.” I looked at my mate, “Before it got out of hand they were gone.” She walked to me and I backed away in fear. What I was afraid of, I had no idea. Maybe it was myself. “It’s okay.” She told me and took another step towards me.

“What have I done?” My voice trembled, “W-what have I…” My head spun but she took another step towards me and held my hands, staining her skin red without a care.

“It’s okay. It wasn’t your fault.”

“I-I?” I couldn’t think straight so she hugged me, “I’ll help you.” She comforted me, “I’ll take care of all of it.” She told me, “You don’t need to worry.”

“But…” I said the word even though it was barely audible, even my teeth clattered in fear. I felt my tears swell up but I couldn't cry.

“It’s fine. I’m here.”

I couldn’t think of anything even though I tried. I felt my legs go weak so I staggered, she supported me and helped me sit down.

I looked at dad, it felt like he was staring at me in disgust so I turned my head away.

‘I hated you since that day.’ His words echoed in my mind like crazy. ‘I hate you so much.’

A laugh escaped my lips but I controlled it but it came again and I laughed a little but shook my head again but I couldn’t help it anymore so I started laughing.

My mate gave me one glance and then continued to take care of the body. She dragged dad’s body to the forest and that was the last time I ever saw him.

After I got tired of laughing I felt exhausted. The adrenaline finally faded and my eye began to hurt again. I noticed my left side was filled with blood streaks and soaked the upper side of my shirt.

A little while later I saw some smoke rise from the forest clearing.

I stared at it unamused.

Did she burn his body? I snorted.

Who cares.

I looked inside the house and remembered that he had a guest over.

What happened to him?

When my mate came back she sat by my side and poured something over my eye. It stung very bad but then my eye began to heal. A deep wound like this really shouldn’t but it was. I know injuries heal fast if your mate is by your side but there was something in the liquid she had given me.

“What did you pour on my eyes?” I asked.

“Something.” She answered and I didn’t feel like pursuing any further.

I looked at the house with vacant eyes, “He was meeting someone.”

“I know.” She answered, “I came with the man he was meeting.” She answered and I looked at her, not surprised anymore.

It actually explained what she was doing here. No one comes here otherwise.

I turned my head back and wondered, What now? I took a deep breath when I heard something.

Running.

People running.

I turned my head in the direction of the pack houses and saw the pack members running towards us.

The moment they saw me relief washed over their faces. They came up to me and stopped a few meters away, staring at me with hope filled eyes.

“Adam.” They began.

“Are you abandoning us?” There was fear in their eyes.

“Are you really leaving us?” There was anguish there too.

“Do you hate us that much?” Hate? I wonder? I never thought about it.

“Adam!!” I saw someone make his way to the front. It was suliha, he looked very weak, by his side was Nathan and Chloe, “Adam, you’re really leaving?” Nathan and Chloe were clutching on his pants tightly. A painful- sarcastic smile spread across his face, “ Have you finally decided to throw us away?” His expressions were pained but Suliha was the only person along with kei who never imposed stuff on me like others. He was genuinely just asking a question.

But at the moment I had no answer.

“Are you going to be just like your father Adam?” Someone spoke.

What?

“You’re throwing us away like he did?”

I… I had no answer. Was I really doing that?

“I guess you’re the same then.”

No! How can I be the same as that man? I- I’m not that cruel.

“Guess you would love to see the dead bodies of the remaining kids huh?”

The words stabbed me across the chest and my face scrunched.

I looked at Nathan and Chloe. They were looking at me with eyes full of fear. For the first time, they were scared of me, why?? Because I was abandoning them?

But, I wasn’t abandoning them?

They are important to me, they were always important to me...

I looked at the ground with wide open eyes.

Was I?

Am I just like my father?

I looked at the pack and wondered, “If you wanted me to stay, wouldn't you have treated me better?” I never thought I would say this to them, “Instead of putting so much pressure on me, why did you never say anything to my dad?”

“H-he was the Alpha…” A voice came from within the crowd.

“We can’t point fingers at him.”

“There’s no rule saying you can’t question him.” I spoke, “But no one did. You all were just afraid he would act out and pressured me to do better instead.” My voice didn’t hold any emotion, “I really don’t care anymore.” I stood up to leave when they all stopped me.

Contrary to my expectations where they did something that I never expected.

“Adam.” They begged, “Please, stay.” They all threw themselves on the ground and bowed, “If you leave what will happen to us?” I felt the desperation in their voices.

“Adam don’t abandon us.” Some of them trembled.

“We’re sorry.” I couldn’t believe it. They were apologizing? Were they really that scared? I thought about it as if I didn’t know.

Anyone would be petrified considering our history.

I looked at my mate and then I felt her tap into my mind, asking for permission to come in. I let her mind link me.

‘Alina.’ She said, ‘My name is Alina.’

‘I see.’ I looked back at the pack, their heads still on the ground.

“Adam please.”

“Don’t leave us in the hands of your father.” They begged again.

“My father?” I asked, “He’s dead.”

They all looked up at me in surprise but no one questioned me. They could all clearly see the blood on me but didn’t even try to speak up or make any statement at all. They just bowed their heads again.

“Then you're Alpha now.”

“You now officially have the responsibility.”

“It’s not being forced now, it really is yours Adam.”

Only when they said those words did I realize the situation I was standing in.

It really wasn’t being forced on me now. It was mine, not because of someone else but because of my own actions...

‘Now you’ll never escape’

Dad’s voice resounded in my head and I smirked.

That son of a bitch was right.

I felt like laughing again but didn’t. There was so much pain in my chest I couldn’t manage it.

I looked at the pack again. They all seemed desperate enough to do this.

I looked at Nathan and Chloe, along with them the other small kids were begging me as well. Such tiny figures shivering even though they had no idea what was happening.

This is how cruel fate was.

I snorted.

Talk about high level guilt tripping.

“Fine.” I answered, “The pack is mine now.” All of them raised their heads. Their faces filled with hopes and smiles, “BUT!” I said loudly, “That means no one questions what I do and no one will ever dare try to point a finger at me. Get it?”

They all nodded their heads together so vigorously it looked sort of stupid.

Flapping.

A sudden flap of a bird made me turn my head around and I spotted something unusual.

A raven that did not belong to this world.