>>Maya
At breakfast Yohan told me that Ruda would be coming over for dinner and I asked if I could call Nena over too. I felt like having a small get together with my beloved people. He agreed and we decided to have a small pizza party at dinner.
I was expecting him to talk about me and what I was hiding but he didn’t and quietly went to work.
I guess that works for me.
I still have no idea what to tell him or how to tell him.
As he left I dropped my fork on the shelf and looked at the barely eaten pancakes.
I’ve lost so much appetite. It’s hard to eat.
I took a deep breath and picked up the fork again.
Still, I have to try. I’ve lost weight so fast that even Yohan noticed it. I licked my lips in worry.
The anxiety in my chest grew and I blankly stared at the wall while I felt like crying.
Fate really is cruel. As time is nearing it’s getting depressing.
I smiled sarcastically as a tear slipped down my cheek.
I didn’t get the time to cry properly because I suddenly felt sick and had to run to the bathroom.
I barely made it to the sink when I felt the convulsions in my stomach and puked.
Gladly it wasn’t much this time but it made me dizzy.
Tears slipped down my face as I raised my head and looked at the mirror.
Streaks of blood were flowing down my mouth and some spots had tainted my Pj’s as well.
I looked down at the sink that was prettily stained with the blood I vomited out.
I turned on the water tap to wash the sink and then looked at the mirror again only to notice my nose was bleeding.
I sighed.
I wonder how much time I have left?
***
Quincy dropped Nena over and told me he would come and get her around midnight. He was meeting someone in the area so after he was done he’d take her back.
Yohan and Ruda came home around 6 pm and I’m guessing Yohan picked Ruda up from his dorm.
They both had a rather serious expression on and I felt like it was best not to ask them what was wrong because they both seemed rather scary and at that moment I was glad Nena was over too.
I got to spend some really nice time with her and Ruda, especially because Ruda loved playing with kids too.
Yohan was trying to win Nena over because apparently their last encounter didn’t go so well and he was trying to make up for that.
We decided to order the pizza around 8 pm and played a board game while we waited for it.
Forty minutes later I decided to get the plates and glasses from the kitchen since I knew Nena would eat in the lounge and eventually we’ll all do that.
Ruda followed me to the kitchen. I knew he wanted to say something to me because he’s been wanting to speak about something as soon as he arrived. Not just him actually, Yohan too. They both exchanged glances countless times and tried to talk about something but didn’t catch the timing.
“Maya?” He grabbed the plates while I placed the glasses in the tray.
“Hmmm?”
It was a cold night and the thought of hot cheezy pizza in a room full of people I loved was delightful. I could picture it all too well. It made me feel a bit better.
After a while I noticed that Ruda was speaking but I couldn’t make out his words.
Was he on mute?
Wait? How’s that possible?
The background was spinning too.
Am I dreaming?
Ruda’s expression suddenly turned to worry. His eyes went wide and the color on his face started getting paler while the world around began to spin more.
I noticed something was trickling down my nose but just then my mind suddenly went blank.
The last thing I heard was the glasses falling to the floor and shattering while Ruda yelled my name and ran over.