Chapter 87 - The Solution To Forgiveness: From A Mother To Her Son: A Blessing

>>Yohan

“I’m so sorry.” Mom came closer to me, her trembling hands reached my knees while I sat on the grass in despair.

“It’s because she accepted that she's going to die?” I looked back at her with eyes full of tears, “What kind of a curse did you even-” I almost choked on my saliva as I tried talking while trying to hold my tears, “What even-?!” I couldn’t form the words as my vision blurred due to the unshed liquid.

“I’m so sorry Yohan.” She reached out for my hands and held them softly. I noticed her hands were very thin and pale and more than that they were trembling like crazy. I looked at her, I couldn’t take it anymore and tears fell down my cheeks. I noticed hers had already wet her face, “I have no other words.” Her voice was shaking, “But to ask for forgiveness. It was all my fault.” I could sense the guilt and sorrow laminating her voice, “I was wrong.” Her green eyes that were just like mine wouldn’t stop spilling and same was the case with me. My tears could no longer be held back either, “I’m sorry son.” She whispered the words.

I knew she had been paying for it all these years. For her crime, her actions, her punishment was given to her the moment she performed the act but still I couldn’t find the words to tell her it was okay.

Because it wasn’t okay.

Nothing was okay.

Everything was going to hell!

I no longer even had any words left in my brain to speak or to say anything at all. All that was going through my mind was that there was nothing left .

“What’s the point-” I gulped as I let my cheeks be stained with tears, “-Of an apology.” I sniffled, “If it can’t be fixed?”

I looked at my mother who stared back at me with so much pain, so much culpability, so much sorrow, I just couldn’t say anything further.

I wanted to blame her. Maybe even shout at her, criticize her for what she gave me. The Curse that literally took everything away from me.

But, I couldn’t

I couldn’t because I knew she never wanted to harm me.

I knew, the years of loneliness she spent tortured her everyday.

And I knew blaming her wasn’t going to change anything.

So I just sat there, letting myself drown in misery.

“Yohan.” Mother smiled at me, a very feeble smile but one that was also confident. “The curse can not be cured because I didn’t define any cure but-” She stood up, “I can do something else.”

“...” I looked at her with no interest.

“A final farewell.” She started, “I’ll give you a blessing. With all that’s left of me I’ll give you the best blessing.”

A blessing? That is what fae are good at though.

“What?” I spoke but my voice was so small even I couldn’t properly hear it.

“I’ll make it easy for her to go and bless you with another meeting. The curse does state you won’t be together in this life. When she’s gone, the curse ends.” She put her finger on Maya’s forehead and suddenly all the pain on her face disappeared, “ A meeting where you’ll be together for eternity. Love will bloom forever and happiness will never fade.” She smiled, “If you take off that earring, You’ll retain all your abilities as a fae prince- or well, a king since I’ll be gone.” Suddenly, I noticed something, her body began to fade, “Your life expectancy will increase too.” I saw the skin crumble, her fingertips began to turn to dust.

“What’s happening to you?” I stood up. There was a strange sensation of fear persisting inside me as I kept my eyes on her.

“My time has come, I was already weak because of the curse.”

“The curse?” Right! A taboo always works both ways! So that means she must have been suffering all these years because of that too.

That point didn’t cross my mind. That was another pain mixed with all the others.

I felt bad.

I just thought about myself. My pain. When the truth is, everyone involved in this particular incident has been through hell.

“Yes. But now the pain will finally go away.” She smiled, “I just want to ask for one thing.” Her smile was so sad it was breaking my heart just seeing it. I had never known a mother’s love and I won’t be getting to know it either but still the feeling I was feeling at the moment.

This feeling of sadness because I see her sad.

This must be a bond between a mother and a child. Right?

“What is it?” I asked.

“Forgive your mother.” Tears fell down her face once again as she said those words, “Forgive me Yohan, my son, my love.” Her voice shook as she spoke, her arms began to dust away and so did her body.

Looking at it made me panic.

She was going away. She was leaving even before we got to know each other properly and she was doing this for me.

For the blessing she was bestowing upon me.

“Mom!” I called out to her and perhaps this was the first time I had called her that.

Hearing the word made her smile, this smile wasn't sad. It was genuine, like she was really happy to have finally heard that.

I ran to her and held her disappearing body in my arms. “I forgive you.’ I whispered as I hugged her but there wasn’t much to feel, more than half of her was gone.

“Thank you Yohan.” I heard her soothing voice in my ear, it made my heart tremble, “I love you my son.”

The feeling in my embrace felt too light and then, it was gone.

I opened my eyes just to find her no longer there, left with nothing to even hold on to.

Even though I barely knew her, a tear slid down my cheeks without my knowledge. I didn’t even know why it came out. I wasn’t feeling sad or anything, or was I wrong?

I looked at the flickering light that was fading at it spread across the forest. Her light.

I couldn’t explain it, there was just this unexplainable thing in my chest that bugged me. It was just that she had left me with an empty feeling.

Perhaps, just maybe, this was the influence of a mother?

Her short presence was strong enough for me to leave such a big impact.