Chapter 102 - Even If I Don’t Remember

>> Maya

I’ve been here for five days and got to meet many mystical beings that lived in the forest.

They came to visit me one by one and seemed a bit nervous at first but I guess none of them had any idea how nervous I was.

This all was very new to me and very very forgein.

It was a concept that only existed in movies and novels. It was supposed to stay there but then this happened.

Something so unexpected.

Something-

The sliding window opened and Yohan entered the terrace where I was sitting on a chair in the open while reading a book.

-Right out of a fairy tail.

The moment Yohan looked at me and our eyes met he gave me a warm smile. My heart skipped a beat.

“You were reading?” He walked over.

“Ah- Yes.” I looked at the book in my hands, “Just some basic information about this world.” I looked back at him again, “I got a little nervous after meeting the people here and wanted some space.”

Yohan bent down a bit, “Are you okay?” He looked at my face trying to examine my health.

“I’m fine.” I smiled back

“Maya.” He called my name, “If you feel any burden at all, be sure to tell me.” A gentle breeze flew by, making my hair flutter with them. Some strands made their way onto my face. I was about to tuck them away when Yohan’s hand reached my face. He softly took the locks and brushed them away. The tips of his finger brushing against my cheeks. Gently, he tucked my hair behind my ear and I gulped. He looked at me again and I averted my gaze, “Okay?”

He asked for confirmation about his question.

I cleared my throat and gave hima short glance, “I will.” Then I looked down at the book, “This is really interesting.”

“Do you need any help?” He crouched down on one knee and extended his hand for me, “I can help with anything you want to understand.”

He’s so sweet. At every little level he’s concerned about me.

I stared at his hand and then hesitantly took it. He softly closed his fingers around me and I ended up smiling even though I didn’t want to show my internal feelings.

“Aren’t you busy though?” I asked.

“For you, I can always take out time.” He smiled at me, “Besides a king may seem like a very big title but ruling Fae people isn’t hard.”

I stared at him, my hand that he was holding felt a little hot.

He didn’t tell me what our relationship was in the past but I can tell it was very very special. I know we weren’t family because if we were I wouldn’t be a simple human. Moreover I’m someone he waited for a century.

My only conclusion is that we might be lovers.

I lowered my gaze and pulled out my hand from his and sighed internally.

Were we though?

“Is something wrong?” He brought his face closer, “Are you tired?”

I gulped, “Y-yea. A little bit.”

He stood up and took the book from me, “How about resting a bit? I think you’ve studied enough for today.”

“I’m fine. I want to stay here a bit longer.”

“Are you sure you don’t want to lay down?” I nodded, “Anything you need?” I shook my head, “Well then, I’ll take my leave. We’ll meet at dinner?” I smiled and nodded.

He smiled back and then left.

As soon as he was out of sight I took a breath of relief.

Wow.

I put my hand over my chest and felt my pounding heart. Lately, whenever he touches me I feel so giddy.

I put my hand on my cheek from where he brushed away my hair and felt them. They were slightly warm.

I feel like such a fool.

I really want answers because if I don’t get them I’ll feel so insecure.

I don’t know why but I like it so much whenever he gets worried for me.

He was even worried when the fae started meeting me.

I like the feeling of being a priority and of such a handsome man at that. Let me add that he’s also a king too.

I slumped against my chair.

Yesterday I skipped lunch because I felt a little homesick. Yohan got so worried he stayed with me in my room until dinner time. His worry only washed away when I ate.

I smiled.

Was my past self in love with him?

Hmmm

I don’t know about that but even if I don’t remember what we had in the past I can feel myself coming to like him.

How can I not?

When there is a gem like Yohan.

A man who’s extremely good looking. Has a palace, not to mention that it’s in a gigantic tree.

Plus, he’s so sweet yet with the right amount. I’ve noticed that he gets concerned for me but also never fails to give me the space I need.

Just like now, when I said I wanted to stay here for a bit, he let me and left even though I didn’t ask him too.

I took a deep breath.

But, I’m worried.

What if our past relationship was not of lovers?

What would I do with these feelings then?