Chapter 104 - My Mate, My Eternal Love: I Will Always Love You

>> Maya

The heaviness in my head faded away.

The pain in my body eased a lot.

The darkness that felt strange began to feel familiar as a light appeared out of nowhere.

....

I started gaining consciousness.

Slowly, I opened my eyes and let the blurriness in my vision get blinked away.

I turned my head and saw Yohan sitting by my side on the bed. I looked above and noticed his hand was on my head, a slight cool blue mist was wrapped around it.

Was he using magic to calm down my body temperature?

How long has he been doing this?

My eyes shifted to look at him again, he was sitting facing the opposite direction, as if he was purposely avoiding looking at me.

Has he been here ever since I fainted?

He looks a bit tired.

I wanted to speak but my throat felt a bit dry so I gulped down some saliva.

“Yohan?” I whispered out his name but he heard it, I could tell from his reaction since he flinched but he didn’t turn to look at me immediately. Instead he slowly and hesitantly turned his face around to see me.

“Yes?” His voice was as sweet and soothing as ever.

“What happened?” I asked.

“You had a fever.” He answered.

“A fever? I’ve never fainted from a fever before?”

He gave me a pained smile, “You fainted because of fatigue.” He sighed, “And that’s what caused the fever.”

“Oh…”

“The doctor said that might be because you’re homesick.”

“...” I didn’t give him a reply to that because I couldn’t deny it. I was a little homesick but not like the homesick where I want to go back. The real thing is, it was hard adjusting to this place. I’m not saying that this place is bad.

It’s just new. Very new and completely alien to me. Not to forget I ended up here very suddenly, without my consent and without any good-byes. I can not deny I was stressed about it.

“Were you here all along?” I asked while trying to change the subject. He nodded and I smiled. That’s so sweet of him, “Are you using some type of spell?”

He nodded his head again, “It’s to ease the pain and calm down your fever.” He examined my face, “How do you feel?”

“Good. A lot better.” I answered.

“Are you sure? You still seem a little tired.”

I sighed internally, then placed both my hands on his hand that was resting on my forehead, “I’m fine.” I grabbed his hand with both of mine and removed it from my head. I brought it to my lap as I sat up, “I’m really fine. Like really really.” I smiled, “On the other hand, it seems like you’re the one who doesn’t look so good.” I kept one of hands on top of his, while it was on my lap and with the other I reached for his cheek, “Your complexion doesn’t look so good.” His eyes followed my hand as if it landed on his cheek.

“...” He didn’t answer me immediately. He thought about what to say and when he finally came to a conclusion he took a deep breath and looked straight at me, “When you fainted out of the blue.” He shook his head softly, “I got so scared.” He gulped, “I thought I was going to lose you again.” He bit his lower lip in frustration, “Just the thought of it scared the hell out of me.” His language got a little informal. He usually never speaks like this, “And then, when I found out you were fatigued I got so upset.”

“Why?”

“You’re homesick… Aren’t you?”

“...” I pursed my lips together and then nodded, “A little.”

“I-” He paused as soon as he started, “I actually lied before.”

My eyes grew a bit wide at his confession, “Lied? About what?”

He looked down in shame, “That you can’t leave the magic realm…” He paused, “You can, you can go back.” He began to scratch his thumb nails in nervousness, “I just didn’t want to let you go…” He closed his eyes, “I’m sorry, I didn’t think you’d get so homesick like this and get sick.” He glanced at me, “I’m sorry, it seems I was only thinking about myself.”

“Yohan?” I think I should just ask him about it. It seems like the perfect opportunity and I feel like he will answer my question truthfully because after all this, I can’t help it. I need the answer.

“Yes?” He kept staring at his feet.

“In our past life.” He got a bit surprised as I started, “We were a couple, weren’t we?” He turned his head towards me, “We were in love?” I looked into his eyes to search for answers, “Weren’t we?”

He stared back at me then slowly nodded, “Yes. You were my mate.” He spoke in a low voice, “My one and only eternal love.” He paused for a second, “You still are.” I felt my heart skip a beat. In the silence of the room I felt my cheeks get warm and the sound of my heart get louder. His gaze travelled to the window and he looked at something distant, “That is why I was afraid. I thought that maybe if you went back, you might never return.”

“You won’t forcefully bring me back?” I joked.

“I could never.” He smiled a rather sad smile, “I would never do anything that you would hate.” His gaze turned to me, “Even if the world turns upside down, if there’s one thing I don’t want, it’s you hating me.” I looked at him with a blank mind. How can this man be so good to me? Hearing his words made me melt and even though we were sitting next to each other, I wanted to be nearer. I don’t know what it was but I could feel my soul wanting him even more after his confession.

“I’m not exactly home sick, I lived alone anyway.” I spoke. I should clarify things too, “I got fatigued not because I do not want to stay here. I’m just worried about the people I left behind. Once, just once, I want to tell them goodbye. A proper one, so that they are at ease and so am I.” I cleared my throat, “And uh-” I looked down to avoid looking directly at his face, “I want to come back.” I scratched my right cheek with my index finger, “To you.” I glanced at him. He seemed somewhat surprised but I decided I should just say it all now since he did too, “ I want to come back, because even if I don’t remember anything and even I don’t have a single memory of the past or even if I don’t remember anything in the future either, I don’t think it would matter.” He looked at me quietly, his expressions showed he was silently processing everything I was telling him, “It wouldn’t matter because no matter how many times we part and how many times we meet again.” My cheeks flushed a little because of what I was about to say, “It seems that I would fall in love with you every time, over and over again, like I have now.”

“What…?” He whispered out the words and I avoided his gaze, “Maya.” He placed his hands on my cheeks and made me look at him, “You- You really mean that?”

Looking at him directly made my cheeks flush even more but looking directly into his eyes made me realize he really, desperately and seriously wanted a straight and honest answer.

I gulped and nodded, “I do.” I pursed my lips, “I know it’s only been a few days but even so, I couldn’t help but fall for you.” I smiled shyly, “After all, there was no way I couldn’t feel the love you gave me. I know you said you didn’t want to let me go for yourself because you were afraid but everywhere else you thought of me first.” My heart started pounding in my chest, “I felt the attraction since we first met. It was as if it was in my blood, running through every single drop, like I was blood bound to you.”

He listened to all of my confession with a dumb-founded expression, then after I finsihed, for a moment he stayed absolutely still but then right the next moment his expressions got brighter and a wide smile spread across his face.

“Oh Maya.” He called out my name so sweetly and joined his forehead with mine in relief, “You have no idea how much relief and happiness your words have given me.” His forest green eyes glimmered with a shine of joy, “I love you so much.” He confessed, “I can never bear losing you again.”

I placed my hands on top of his while his hands were still on my cheeks, “I won’t leave.” I whispered, “How can I? When my soul, my body, my blood, everything seems to call for you.”

I smiled at him with a blush on my face and he smiled back with a flustered and relieved expression.

***

I opened my eyes again and noticed that it was still dark.

I looked at my side and noticed Yohan sleeping on the bed next to me.

I ended up smiling while looking at him. I guess he fell asleep while still casting the spell on me.

After our confessions I felt tired again and Yohan said it was best to sleep more so I laid back down and he began to cast the cooling spell on me. I guess it had a relaxing element to it too because I fell asleep pretty fast.

I took a deep internal breath and stared at Yohan’s sleeping face with a slight blush on my face..

All that happened seemed like a dream but the confirmation was there, right next to me, so I was happy.

Wow.

I looked out the window.

We’re mates. Eternal lovers. I grinned, and we met again.

It seems like for my mate, my eternal love; I will always love him, no matter what.

No matter the time, no matter the place and no matter the form.

After my confession, for some reason my heart felt really light. Like it was in a place where it was supposed to be.

I smiled at the satisfaction I felt while staring out the window. That’s when I noticed something.

Outside the window I saw something shine.. It felt like it was glowing, then all of a sudden, the shine began to fade, as if it was walking away.