Chapter 247 - It Was Painful

Mo Roulan didn't know how exactly she reached the building again.

Her eyes were filled with hot tears, however, the little bit of awareness inside her mind that she was still outside stopped her from letting them out.

With blurred eyes, she somehow crossed the road and reached the road. After that, she went inside the elevator.

The small elevator ride suddenly seemed to be very long to Mo Roulan.

In her mind were flashing many scenes from her past life as well as the present life.

In her past life, when Xun Weilan had not told her anything about Mo Chen to her and she was helpless, Mo Roulan had thought that she would feel very happy on seeing Xun Weilan on her knees someday in front of her.

However, she was proved wrong…very wrong.

Today she saw Xun Weilan on her knees. She begged her. However, the only thing that she could feel now was fear…intense fear. 

Her body was going cold with that fear.

Fear of what exactly happened to Mo Chen in her past life.

Did they ...did they dig out his heart and then give it to their son? 

Mo Roulan breathed harshly as she licked dry lips lightly. The elevator door suddenly opened and Mo Roulan immediately exited it.

She ran to her apartment's door and then with trembling fingers, she filled in the password.

Mo Roulan had thought of going inside her room and finally crying her heart out. However, she had not expected to see Mo Chen in the living room as soon as she stepped inside the apartment. 

It seemed that he had just returned from school as he was still in his uniform and his school bag was on his shoulder.

"Jiejie"

Mo Chen shouted out immediately with a bright smile on his lips. However, like every time Mo Chen saw that his sister didn't smile back at him. 

Mo Chen's face that was a little round and chubby wrinkled to form a frown on his forehead.

"Jiejie…are you alright?"

Mo Chen had just finished his words and was about to step forward when he saw Mo Roulan suddenly running towards him.

The next moment, he was enveloped in a tight hug by Mo Roulan.

"Chenchen…I am so s…orry. Jiejie is s…o sorry, Chechen."

Mo Roulan whispered in broken words as she cried non-stop.

Lin Qianru who just stepped out of the kitchen was shocked to see this scene. After opening the door for Mo Chen, she had just gone to heat the dishes for the lunch because she knew that her daughter was also about to come by this time.

However, now seeing the scene in front of her eyes she was very shocked. She could hear Mo Roulan's cries from the spot she was standing on.

It was very heartbreaking. Lin Qianru's eyes couldn't help but get filled with tears.

She hurriedly put the bowl in her hands on the dining table and walked to her daughter and son hurriedly.

"Roulan, what happened? Mo Chen, did you do something to your sister?"

Mo Chen who was tightly held by Mo Roulan had his big black eyes wide as he immediately shook his head and said

"No, Mom. I didn't do anything"

However, a moment later, he suddenly looked confused and whispered

"Or maybe I did. But what did I do?"

Lin Qianru's lips twitched when she heard it. She almost raised her hand to hit Mo Chen's head.

How could he not know what he did to make Mo Roulan cry so much?

He was just not saying it because he didn't want to get punished.

However, her hand stopped amidst her action as she heard another heartbreak cry escaping Mo Roulan's mouth.

"Chenchen…Jie..jie is so sor…ry."

Lin Qianru frowned when she registered what Mo Roulan was saying. If it was Mo Chen who did something wrong then why was Mo Roulan apologizing to him.

Confused, Lin Qianru put down her hand. She thought that for now, it was more important to soothe down her daughter. She could always punish Mo Chen later if it was him who did something wrong.

Thinking this, Lin Qianru bent down and stroked Mo Roulan's hair who was kneeling on the floor and hugging Mo Chen.

Lin Qianru's eyes immediately went to the scratches Mo Roulan had on her knees from a week ago. Although they were healing very quickly, she was still afraid that Mo Roulan would make them more grave by kneeling like this.

Thinking this, Lin Qianru stroked her daughter's hair and said gently

"Roulan, get up from the floor. Tell Mother, why are you crying?" 

As she said this, Lin Qinaru held her daughter's arm and tried to free Mo Chen from her hold. It was after many efforts, Lin Qianru could finally free Mo Chen from Mo Roulan's hold. 

However, she was shocked again when she saw Mo Roulan's face.

It was completely red.

Lin Qianru knew that Mo Roulan cried very rarely and even if she did, she never cried like this. However, today she was crying like a child who needed her mother.

As a mother, she felt her throat choking up seeing Mo Roulan like this.

"Roulan…what happened, my child? Did someone bully you?"

Mo Roulan looked at her mother with blurry eyes. She could help but remember how her mother had made her promise her at her deathbed that she must take care of herself and Mo Chen in her past life.

However, she could not stand by her promise. Neither did she try to save herself nor could she save Mo Chen.

Instead, it was she who pushed him towards the abyss.

She didn't even want to imagine what exactly happened to Mo Chen in her past life. 

"Mom…it is so painful."

Mo Roulan whispered suddenly as she looked at her mother with pain-filled eyes.

She wanted to forget everything.   

But at the same time, she knew that she can't.

She didn't deserve to forget her mistakes. She didn't deserve to forget how she herself harmed her brother and herself.

She deserved this pain.