Chapter 330 - Tian Yuan Wants To Leave

(City S)

Liu Ji Fan was standing outside Aunt Tian's room. The door of the room was closed and Tian Yuan was inside the room.

Tian Yuan didn't let him enter the room. He said that he didn't want him around his mother.

Liu Ji Fan's eyes were filled with pain as he remembered whatever Tian Yuan had said. He knew that he deserved all this pain.

He could finally understand why Tian Yuan was running away from him. He regretted now that he blamed Tian Yuan for leaving him suddenly years ago. He said that Tian Yuan was selfish.

However, it was he perhaps who had been most selfish in their so called relationship. He didn't look for Tian Yuan at that time because he felt that his pride was hurt when Tian Yuan didn't come that day. He thought that Tian Yuan would come by himself to him one day because he had been able to notice that Tian Yuan had also started to like him at that time.

However, when Tian Yuan didn't come to meet him, Liu Ji Fan had to accept forcefully that Tian Yuan didn't really like him that much.

In fact, he preferred to run away from him with his whole family without giving him any answer.

He had felt very angry and betrayed. Perhaps a 'no' would have been more better at that time.

When he could not live without him, he started to look for Tian Yuan but never found him.

With time, he learnt to live with Tian Yuan's absence in his life but the realization that Tian Yuan was absent from his life was always there.

And it surged more terribly when he saw Tian Yuan in He Jian's office that day.

The Tian Yuan he had found that day was completely new.

He could hide so many thing from him. Five years ago, Liu Ji Fan was able to read Tian Yuan like a book but this Tian Yuan could keep a cold and indifferent face and tell him that he didn't love him.

And he would have perhaps believed him if it was not for the sighs of pleasure and him leaning on him with full trust whenever he made love to his lover.   

All of it …how did it effect Tian Yuan's mind after he had gone through all that in those five years …Liu Ji Fan didn't even dare to imagine this. 

He knew that it must not be easy for Tian Yuan to forgive him but he still couldn't help but want him to forgive him. 

Liu Ji Fan came out of his trance when he heard the sound of the door being opened.

His eyes brightened when he saw Tian Yuan stepping out of the room.

"Baby…"

Liu Ji Fan immediately walked to him. His own eyes started to go red when he saw that Tian Yuan's eyes were red.

He knew that Tian Yuan must have cried.   

"Baby…"

Liu Ji Fan stretched out his hand to take Tian Yuan in his embrace. However, Tian Yuan instantly took a step back and said coldly. 

"I want to leave from here with my mother."

Liu Ji Fan's eyes immediately went blank and he said

"No! You are not going anywhere."

Tian Yuan's eyes were filled with rage and his chin was trembling after he heard Liu Ji Fan's refusal. Liu Ji Fan couldn't bear to see him like this so he said softly.

"Tian Yuan, I know that things are complicated right now but we can pass through this together."

A tear slipped out from Tian Yuan's eyes and he said the same words that Liu Ji Fan had said to him once.

"You are very selfish, Ji Fan."

Liu Ji Fan blinked his eyes after hearing Tian Yuan's words. 

He knew that he was selfish but what could he do? Leaving Tian Yuan especially after knowing everything would be like stop breathing.

A tear still slipped out of his eyes and he nodded his head.

"You are right. I am very selfish…"

Another tear slipped out as he looked into Tian Yuan's eyes and continued

"But only for you. I can give anything to you, my life, my everything…whatever you want except the freedom from me."

Slap…

Liu Ji Fan's face turned sideways because of the heavy slap that landed on his face.

However, Tian Yuan didn't stop there. He again hit Liu Ji Fan's right cheek. Liu Ji Fan, however didn't resist.

Tian Yuan hit him wherever he wanted, Sometimes his chest, sometimes his arms sometimes his legs…

A few moments later, Tian Yuan was panting heavily as he looked at Liu Ji Fan with tear filled eyes.

"Why did you not resist?"

He asked in a choked voice as he looked at Liu Ji Fan's red cheeks. It was him who did it. His hand unconsciously went forward to stroke the redness as a tear slipped out of his eyes. 

"You should have stopped me."

He said again while Liu Ji Fan just smiled hearing Tian Yuan's words.

"You love me, right?"

Tian Yuan's hand that was stroking Liu JI Fan's cheek gently stopped suddenly and he said after a silence of few moments.

"I do. I love you a lot."

Liu Ji Fan's smile widened but his eyes were still filled with pain and tears. Tian Yuan smiled but it didn't have any joy.

It held the sadness that was filled inside his heart.

"This love is too messed up, Ji Fan. It is making me very tired now." 

Liu Ji Fan stepped closer to Tian Yuan. His hand hesitantly held Tian Yuan's face in his palms and he said gently

"Then don't do anything. Don't think about anything. Leave everything to me. Don't think about leaving, Baby. Don't you think that Auntie needs to be here? I forgot to tell you but she had opened her eyes once."

Tian Yuan's eyes immediately went wide with shock and he said

"What? When?"

"The last time when you had gone unconscious in the hospital."

Tian Yuan's eyes were filled with hope after he heard Liu Ji Fan's words.              Seeing this, Liu Ji Fan also saw some hope and he continued

"I will look for the best doctor for Auntie, Tian Yuan. You just need to stay here for that."

Tian Yuan who was lost in his thoughts looked at Liu Ji Fan suddenly and smiled bitterly.

"Are you trying to manipulate me?" 

And Liu Ji Fan didn't even know what he should say.