"Mom, I'm not stalling for my sister? I'm also for my sister. My children's affairs can be put back. You don't know Cheng Yan's temperament. Who knows what he will do to his sister? Of course, I have to protect her first. "
"Is that true?" She looked at her suspiciously.
"What else could it be like?"
"You don't want her to change your kidney..."
"Ma!" Lin Jingya was really a little angry, "what kind of person am I in your heart? Am I so mean?"
"No Jingya, mom doesn't mean that... "
"Stop it, I don't want to hear it!" Lin Jingya suddenly thought of his quilt, lying in, back to his mother, a refusal posture.
Lin's mother sighed and naturally could not ask again.
……
Ji Chengyan went downstairs and made a phone call in his car. After sitting in the dark car silent, even the light did not turn on.
Gently press the lighter and light a cigarette. Smoke shrouded his cold and deep eyes.
He hesitated about what he was going to do next. He didn't know whether he was right or wrong. I don't know if Lin an an will hate him after he does this. These days, his heart is suffering, and sometimes he even sleeps all night. As soon as he thinks of the unborn child in her stomach, he feels cold all over, like a heart thrown into ice water.
But he had never thought about doing anything to her baby before, but when Lin Jingya mentioned it today, he suddenly felt as if he had caught some life-saving straw. For a drowning man, it was as if a straw could save his life.
When he heard that solution, he seemed to find a solution to his anxiety for days. When he thought of that solution, he began to feel comfortable.
Can he let her kill the child?
He thought about it. Although he didn't know if he could stop caring about it, at least he knew that if the child still existed, he would never go back to his previous life, and he would never go back to jichengyan.
Although he didn't look different these days, he knew that his heart was dead, just like a walking corpse.
But when he thought of the expression and eyes she might have if he forced her to kill the child, he felt retreated.
He didn't want her to hate him and hurt her.
He will always remember her fresh eyes and expression. He didn't want Lin an to die from then on.
He didn't know what kind of feelings this belonged to. He hated her, wanted to strangle her, wanted to protect her, wanted to hide her behind him and block all the storms for her.
He took another puff of smoke, put his hand out of the window and flicked the ash. His eyes were very gloomy, just like the weather at this time, the dark clouds were getting lower and lower, and people outside began to go back in a hurry.
When he finished smoking his last cigarette, he finally saw a man waiting for him coming out of the gate of the hospital.
That person sees Ji Chengyan, embarrassed way: "Ji Zong, let you wait for a long time."
"Do you have anything with you?" He didn't look at him and asked faintly.
"Yes, yes." The man took a bag out of his pocket, which contained some pills and so on, and handed it to him.