Chapter 827

Lu Fangqi knew Xu Shunping long before he married song Yuanqing. Xu Shunping is also a teacher of the University of political science and law and a good friend of the school of foreign languages. They are colleagues and good friends. In addition, Xu Shunping is also a "party department", so they have a closer relationship.

Xu Shunping is different from Song Yuanqing. He has no ambition and no courage. He has a secret love for Lu Fangqi for many years, but he does not dare to express his love. Seeing her get married and have children, he thought it would be better for him to live like this for a lifetime. But unexpectedly, Lu Fangqi and song Yuanqing failed to grow up together in the end.

Xu Shunping knew that Lu Fangqi had a brain tumor by accident. At that time, he didn't have any selfishness. He just wanted to try his best to help her find the best doctor to cure the disease. Knowing that there was an authority in the United States, he discussed Lu Fangqi's going to the United States. He was afraid that she would think too much about it. He even thought of a way out - he took the initiative to apply for an external transfer.

At that time, it was no better to leave the night city than to leave the political center. It was a "no development" choice. If Xu Shunping stayed, he would have a better position. However, he resolutely chose to go to the United States.

Lu Fangqi hesitated for a long time. She didn't know whether she could come back after she left. So before she left, she wanted to see Song Xi again. Song Xi's tender face was full of silent rebellion and naked resistance to her choice to leave.

Lu Fangqi is hard to say. If such a choice is destined to have someone to bear the consequences, it can only be her. She can't make the hero in Song Xi's mind no longer perfect, and there's no reason to ask a child to feel the emotional problems of adults in advance.

In Lu Fangqi's mind, sooner or later, Song Xi will grow up and understand herself.

He left the night city and went to the United States. After the examination, the doctor said a lot. Lu Fangqi didn't care much about it. The only thing is that the doctor said that the location of the brain tumor was just on the memory nerve, and there would be memory loss after the operation.

Lu Fangqi asked, "how far has it declined?"

The doctor said: "you will gradually forget many things, many people, even your own relatives. Even if the people appear in front of you every day, if you don't see them for more than a long time, you won't remember them."

To put it bluntly, after the operation, it would be like "Alzheimer's disease". Lu Fangqi refused without thinking about it. She should not forget. How could she choose to forget?

When Xu Shunping saw her resolute attitude, he lost his temper for the first time and said to her, "if you don't have an operation, you will die!"

Lu Fangqi red eyes, said: "alive forget everyone, forget Xiaoxi, then I am still alive to do?"

Xu Shunping said: "I'm afraid I can't remember you, so I'll write it down in advance. If you can't remember me, I'll always remind you who you are, who you are, and what you have... Fang Qi, don't be afraid. Your life will never change. You have to live to see Xiaoxi grow up."

Finally, it's Song Xi who makes Lu Fangqi wail in the corridor of a foreign hospital. Song Xi makes her weak, and Song Xi makes her strong. She doesn't want Song Xi to have no mother at a young age. She wants to live and go back to tell Song Xi that no one in the world can love her, no one can put her down, but her daughter will never change when she dies.

Before the operation, Lu Fangqi almost wrote a diary to record all the details of her and Song Xi. She was afraid that the book was unsafe. She also recorded many voice and video tapes. Before entering the operating room, she told Xu Shunping, "when I wake up, you must ask me if I remember Xiao Xi. If I forget, you can show me the video and my diary."

Xu Shunping nodded, "don't worry, I'm ready."

The operation went smoothly. After Lu Fangqi woke up, Xu Shunping followed her instructions and asked, "Fang Qi, who is Xiao Xi?"

Lu Fangqi was very weak, but firmly replied: "my daughter..."

At that moment, Xu Shunping nodded with a smile, but tears fell down.

At that time, both Lu Fangqi and Xu Shunping thought that the so-called memory loss was just the doctor's exaggeration of the postoperative influence. After all, at the beginning, Lu Fangqi remembered everything, except Song Xi, she also remembered song Yuanqing, every bit of the past.

However, Xu soon found that Lu Fangqi's memory was declining at the speed visible to the naked eye. At first, she was afraid of forgetting and would tell him a lot about the past. Then she would repeat what she had said in the morning, and in the afternoon or evening, but Xu could not bear to break it.

Slowly, Lu Fangqi will forget that her diary is on the bedside table. Every time he reminds her, she will be extremely depressed or even irritable. She is afraid of forgetting and losing her memory.

The doctor found Xu Shunping in private and told him that Lu Fangqi couldn't bear such stimulation after the operation, which was also harmful to her recovery. Many things should be natural, and forced memory would only make her feel more pressure.

So Xu Shunping took Lu Fangqi's diary away from the bedside table. He was trying to find out if she would remember. At first, she still remembered to look for it, because there must be something recorded on it. She couldn't remember. Gradually, she even forgot to look for her notebook.

Forgetting is a very frightening thing, especially from the perspective of onlookers. However, Lu Fangqi can't remember the past, so he will no longer have the burden in his heart, and his body is slowly improving.

Xu Shunping is very contradictory. He doesn't know which is more important between forgetting the pain and remembering the happiness. He gets along with Lu Fangqi day and night. He is also human and selfish. He thinks if she forgets the past, will he have a chance to come back with her?

Once this idea appears, it's like a greedy beast, gradually devouring all the disguised goodness and morality. Life is short, and he has missed a lot of time. Why can't he fight for a little for himself?

Xu Shunping weaves a past for Lu Fangqi, a past with song Yuanqing but not Song Xi. Therefore, in Lu Fangqi's "memory", she had an unhappy marriage. Song Yuanqing is just a vague impression in her mind. She thinks that if we break up peacefully, then we don't need to be in debt, we just need to be safe.

She married Xu Shunping and gave birth to a son. Because of her bad memory, he needed to accompany her often. For her and her children, he once planned to give up work. He gave her a life she had longed for but could not reach. He really spoiled her into a carefree person. He would always remind her if he was there.

Xu Shunping works in the United States. Every year, he sends an email to song Yuanqing as Lu Fangqi, asking about Song Xi's recent situation. Song Yuanqing remarries. He is relieved that Lu Fangqi left that year. He only says that everything is OK and he can come back to have a look when he has time.

With the growth of age, every time Xu Le calls for Lu Fangqi's mother, Song Xi's face will appear in Xu Shunping's mind. Lele's mother is also her mother. He wants to find a time to have a showdown with Lu Fangqi until song Yuanqing has an accident in China