Chapter 157：Good Bye, Love

Xiao Ping stares blankly to the wall across her. She can no longer cry. She had cried since yesterday's night when Hiroshi told her about the situation at Japan. She should be ready. She was ready when she uttered it the first time. But then.. there was another chance to avoid it and she was excited to know their chance were high to get through this. She was in high hope, then suddenly dropped fast. It hurts more. It feels like her heart is crushed to the dust. Hiroshi said Takeshi hasn't decided anything. He won't decide it. She should take that part, to be the one who decide it. Xiao Ping closes her eyes in pain, but no tear is dropping. Guess she has no more tear left.

Xiao Ping glances to her cellular. Takeshi is online. She doesn't know how long he has been online. but he hasn't made the initiative to chat her. So she types, after a quite struggling time deciding what the proper first sentence is.

"Hi.."

"I'm sorry.."

"It's not your fault. You did nothing wrong."

"I fail. I'm a loser."

"No, you're not. You have fought the best you could do. You're a fighter."

"I still lose ..."

"Love.."

"..."

"You have done a lot to our relationship. You sacrificed a lot. Even since the beginning. You bought a laptop and made this account just for me. You sneakily spent time and money to meet me. You quitted from the company to keep me. You've done so much.. you have to remember that."

"I don't want to lose you, Babe.." He cries. Xiao Ping is certain the man she loves is crying. She drops a tear.

"I.. I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have the chance to experience all your sacrifices. I know it is because you love me. You know that I love you the same amount as yours, right ?"

He doesn't answer. Xiao Ping bites her lower lip as her tears are trailing down her cheeks again.

"You said there are two persons you can't live without. But now you have to pick one of them. I know you can't do it. So I'm the one who's backing off."

"Time's out.."

"Love.. you can't time's out this."

Takeshi doesn't utter a word, but he is still online. It is only seven minutes later he replies,

"It hurts so bad. I barely can breathe."

"I know.." It is a struggle to write it as Xiao Ping's eyes are completely blind by tears.

"How can I live without my happiness ?" Takeshi asks. Xiao Ping chuckles sadly to read it.

"You can. Many people can live without happiness. But I want you to find another.happiness."

"I can't."

"Yes, you can. You have to. Remember that you still need to keep on your 3 promises for me."

"Why should I ?"

"Because you love me.."

"..."

"You can forget your promises once you are no longer love me."

"Why can't we just make this relationship a secret. I mean at public I can pretend to be with Aiko, but ..."

"So, I will be the mistress ?"

"You're right. I'm sorry.."

"I will always be your fans, your number one fan."

"We can still chat as a ... friend, right ?"

"No we can't."

"That's not fair."

"I'm sorry, but it is. It will be better for us not to make any contact. It will be easier.. for both of us."

"How can I know your condition ?"

"Just believe that I will be fine."

"What if something happens to you ?"

"I have friends and families here.. they will always take care of me."

"It hurts, Babe.."

"It hurts me, too.."

And they both cry separately. Xiao Ping no longer holds her cry. Her body is trembling so bad in between her wails.

"Can I call you ?" Takeshi asks.

"Yes."

A second later a call is coming. Xiao Ping receives it. A noise is heard, some chuckles and sobs.

"H.. hello, Love.."

"I.. I love you so.. soo.. much," Takeshi says in stammered with a hoarse voice. Then his muffled cry is heard.

"I love.. you.. mo..more.. than so much," Xiao Ping manages to reply before she bursts to her own cry. She can hear Takeshi's loud wail that makes her heart even more being crushed. Her cry is not soft neither since her parents are peeking up from the slightly opened door right now. It is obvious they heard her cry from their room. But at this moment, Xiao Ping cares less about their presences.

"Good bye, Love," she says it after her cry is subsided. Her tone slightly above whisper.

"You take care of yourself"

"Be happy.. promise me."

"You, too. Be happy, My Shiawase"

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

Xiao Ping ends the call first. With teary eyes and sobs, she blocks lostboy2000's account from her chat application. She then covers her whole body, head to toe, with blanket and cries miserably.