Chapter 172：Start Forgetting

With opened eyes, Takeshi drowns his head under the tub water. Xiao Ping asked him to forget her and live his life happily. How could she say that ? For him, those two requests are contradictive to one another. She is his happiness. How can he forget his happiness while being happy with his life ? Meanwhile he has been surviving, keeping his smile through out days is merely because he wants to keep his promise to her. And now.. now she wants him to forget her ? If he forgets her, he will no longer have the reason to smile at all.

Takeshi gets his head out of the water when he feels his lung is almost exploded. He is panting for air, but feels better. He loves doing this drowning thing lately. He can ignore his pain and sorrow for a while when holding his breath. The sound of his beating heart is also somehow soothing. And the water just deafens him, creating his own personal world. He had similar world with Xiao Ping back then. Now he needs to create it on his own. The thought about Xiao Ping and their world saddens him again. Takeshi sighs. How can he start forgetting her ?

A knock on the door brings him back to the moment. "Are you still there ?" Hiroshi who is behind the bathroom door asks. "We need to check sound in 45 minutes," he reminds Takeshi. "Give me five minutes," Takeshi replies him while getting out of the bath tub to wash him self on the shower.

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Xiao Ping sighs. She just read Takeshi's message on his website. He still defenses her. Not directly of course. In the message, Takeshi denied all the gossips about why he cancelled the concert in August. He said that it was purely because of the nature disaster. He also announced that his concert in Taiwan is being rescheduled to mid of September. And he asked his friends' supports so he can keep smiling facing his busy days. That was his secret message to her, saying that he still loves her.

Xiao Ping sighs again. Why is he so stubborn and doesn't want to forget her ? It is impossible for them to get back together. His deal is not a one, or three, or even ten years deal. It has no time limit, it's a lifetime deal. Does he plan to suffer forever ?

Unconsciously Xiao Ping is touching heart pendant that hangs on her neck. She then smirks. Who is she kidding ? She still hasn't moved on from him neither. But she has tried, though. She is trying hard to love Yu Jin. She is trying hard to get rid Takeshi from her heart.

Loving Yu Jin is easy. What is not to love about him? His physical is attractive; handsome face, supported with tall and toned body. Yu Jin is also very mature, has smartlogical mind yet warm personality. And the way he treats and protects her.. only heartless woman can't be affected by them. And Xiao Ping is actually starting to love him. She is starting to miss him and eagerly expecting weekends, days when he almost non-absently asks her out.

If only she can forget Takeshi as easy as loving Yu Jin. As much as she loves Yu Jin, Takeshi is still in her heart. And Yu Jin doesn't want to be his boyfriend if she still had Takeshi in her heart. The worse is, she has no skill to hide it, even less from Yu Jin. So, here they are on "it's complicated" state of relationship. Han Han even mocked them to be 'friends with benefit'. The benefit definitely belongs to her.

Xiao Ping's cellular is ringing. Yu Jin. Though with slightly frowned forehead, she accepts it joyfully.

"Hi, how are you ?" she greets with loving tone.

"I am having lunch," Yu Jin says. Xiao Ping then hears him saying thank you to someone that perhaps brought him his food. Then she hears Yu Jin is slurping something.

"Is there anything else you want to tell me beside bragging about having lunch outside ?" Xiao Ping teases him. Yu Jin muffles a laughter, but he only answers her after finish swallowing his food.

"I heard that he reschedules his concert here," Yu Jin says. "You really have no important job to do there, don't you ?" Xiao Ping teases him instead of answering. Yu Jin laughs again.

"Why do you call me about that ?" Xiao Ping asks him.

"I thought that you would be interested to watch the concert ?" Yu Jin asks her.

"Hmm.. Actually I'm not interested to. I mean.. it's on weekend.. and I rather spend weekend with you," Xiao Ping answers him. "Beside, I am thinking to stop being his fan."

"Oh.. Why ?" Yu Jin asks. Xiao Ping sighs. "I think it will make me easier to forget him," she answers truthfully.

"Oh.. that's too bad. I just bought two first class tickets of his concert," Yu Jin says disappointedly. Xiao Ping widens her eyes. "What ?! Why ?!"

"I thought that way we can still have a date while you can still see your idol. Don't you promise him to always be his fan ?" Yu Jin reminds her. She did promised Takeshi that. This guy.. he should be the first man that support her idea to stop being a fan, and yet.. not only he reminded her about her promise, he also bought her ticket to the concert. Doesn't he have any jealousy at all ? Doesn't he want her to forget Takeshi ? Doesn't he eager to have a relationship with her ?

"So.. ?" Yu Jin asks her decision.

"Okay. I'm in. But you have to let me pay the ticket," Xiao Ping finally agrees. "No.. it's a gift," Yu Jin declines. "A gift of what occasion ?" Xiao Ping asks him. "Can't I give you a gift without a reason ?" Yu Jin asks back. Xiao Ping chuckles. "You must stop spoiling me," she says it as a complain. "And you must stop complaining I'm spoiling you," Yu Jin replies. "But you are spoiling me," Xiao Ping argues. "Ehem.. I am. But you are worth every bit of it," Yu jin confirms it with a low husky voice. It makes Xiao Ping blushes while her heart pounds faster. "Thank you," she says gratefully. She knows her love to Yu Jin grows a little more.