Chapter 187

The message was sent by Gu nianbin, which said: Xiaowan, where have you been? I'm so worried.

Du Xiaoxian looked at that sentence, his eyes were straight. They went together. Xia Xiaowan left midway. Gu nianbin was worried that it was right. It was nothing. She should not be suspicious. Although her tone was somewhat intimate, Xia Xiaowan also said that they grew up together and had a lot of relationship. Gu nianbin was not wrong even if he was worried about death.

She has been persuading herself in her heart, but her fingers don't listen to it. Finally, she still can't help it. She points into the SMS menu. She sees the last one, which was sent by Miss bin yesterday morning: Xiaowan, are you angry? Why not reply? You should know me. Call me. I'll wait.

Xia Xiaowan: brother nianbin, how can I be angry with you? I just left a little bit in advance. You don't have to be so nervous.

Then Gu nianbin's: Xiaowan, we didn't eat this time. Let's make another appointment, OK?

Further forward: Xiaowan, how did you get there? Didn't you have an appointment for dinner?

Neither Xia Xiaowan returned.

The first one is Xia Xiaowan's on the evening of the eighth day of junior high school: brother nianbin, you don't want to be like this. You can only say that I'm a little late. Although you say you still love me, you're too affectionate and can't let go of Xiaoxian, which will be very tiring. I can accompany you in this way, has been very satisfied, don't worry about me again.

Du Xiaoxian looked at this piece of some long message, and his heart suddenly shrank, bringing out great pain. It turns out that he still loves Xia Xiaowan, but he still loves Xia Xiaowan!

She quickly looked forward, thinking of bin FA is: Xiaowan, Bai Qing's wedding let me feel very much, once I wanted to give you such a grand wedding. It's a pity that fate can't go back.

Du Xiaoxian turned the two lines over and over. She closed her eyes and could almost imagine how helpless and painful it was to think about bin sending this message!

Gu nianbin's heart is so painful, but she is treated as before. Xia Xiaowan is right. Gu nianbin is a man who values love. He can't let her go, so he can only bury the pain in his heart without letting her notice.

The truth is that, Du Xiaoxian slowly put the mobile phone back on the tea table. Her heart was like a pot of boiling oil, which made her heart thump, and the pain could not be suppressed. She pressed her heart hard to relieve the pain, but she could not, but the pain was more clear, like burning out thousands of bloody holes.

It would have been nice if she had poured sulfuric acid on her face that day, Du Xiaoxian thought. If it was like that, it would have been all over. Where would it have been so painful! It's really painful!

Xia Xiaowan looked at Du Xiaoxian's heartbroken appearance from the crack of the door, and sighed sadly: I'm sorry, Xiaoxian, I was as naive and stupid as you at the beginning, but in the end, it only ended up with a pathetic ending. So don't blame me. I want to find back what I lost.

Inside and outside the door, two girls are secretly grieved. The mobile phone on the tea table suddenly rings. Xia Xiaowan quickly opens the door and goes out. Du Xiaoxian doesn't move his mobile phone. He just looks in a trance. After watching for two seconds, he looks up and says, "it's from the young master."

Xia Xiaowan picked up his mobile phone: "brother nianbin, I'm sorry. I didn't tell you when I left. I've had a stomachache. I've seen a doctor I'm in your house now. I'm in a terrible pain on the way. I just passed by your house, so I came up to ask for a glass of water to take medicine and have a rest by the way No, I'm leaving now. Ok I'll call you when I get home. "

Hang up the phone, she looked at Du Xiaoxian, suddenly opened her eyes, some surprised said: "Xiaoxian, what's the matter with you? My face is not very good. Is it something wrong? I call to ask brother nianbin to come back quickly. "

"Don't," Du Xiaoxian quickly stopped her: "I'm ok, but suddenly a little uncomfortable, now it's OK." She squeezed out a smile: "it may be that I eat too much at night, so I can support it."

Xia Xiaowan some uneasy appearance, "I still call nianbin elder brother to come back, you stay alone, I am not at ease."

"Really don't need it," Du Xiaoxian drank water from a cup. The water had already been cold and flowed down his throat. The cold line was cold to his heart. "Don't scratch him. I'm fine. Just have a rest."

"Well," Xia Xiaowan said, "I'll go first. Brother nianbin will almost return. If you want something, you can call him."

Du Xiaoxian nodded and stood up to send her to the door: "it's so late. Be careful on your way."

"Don't send it if you don't feel well," Xia Xiaowan pushed her in and closed the door. She couldn't bear to design such a simple girl.

Du Xiaoxian sat on the sofa again. She thought she would cry, but she didn't. She just felt tired, weak, deeply tired, and her mind was blank. She was a simple person, and suddenly suffered such a blow. Her brain circuit was not enough, so she stopped automatically and didn't want to do anything at all.

In the evening, she went to bed for the first time. When Gu nianbin came back that day, she had already gone to sleep. The sound of his opening the door, then the sound of bathing, and then he entered the room and lay very light beside her. The man who had just finished the bath had a good smell of bath gel, but he could not cover up the strong alcohol smell. He quickly turned around and slept with his back to her. But usually, he always wanted to hold her in his arms, his breath always fluttered on her head or neck, she was vague at that time, did not feel anything wrong.The next morning, she woke up very late, and he was no longer in bed. At noon, she said that she would not return to the company. Until she was taken to the company by Zhou Ting, the surprise she was expecting turned into a loss. She made a fuss and thought that she was careful, but everything had a reason, but she didn't know it.

She has never liked to think about things. Now when she looks back on it carefully, the context of her memory is so clear that each lens seems to be magnified. Even the fatigue on Gu nianbin's face is extremely clear, which makes her feel nervous.

But she doesn't hate Gu nianbin at all, even if he still loves Xia Xiaowan.

Because Xia Xiaowan came first, and she came last. Just as Gu nianbin said, fate makes people, it is a mistake that makes her occupy the position that should belong to Xia Xiaowan, and it is her existence that makes them both suffer.

Gu nianbin is a good man. He hides from her and bears the pain of wanting to love but can't love. Xia Xiaowan is also a good person. She only says that she is late, but she doesn't complain about anything. They are afraid to hurt her!

When she didn't know, it was two people who suffered. Now she knew it, it would be painful for all three people. She thought that if her exit could make them happy, then it would be worthwhile for her to bear all the pain alone.

Just, she thought, if she left, Gu nianbin would be sad? Is it possible to go all the way after her like last time? Without her, would he miss her?

What to do? What should I do? Her mind was confused, her brain was not enough, and all her thoughts were in a mess

There was a noise at the door. It was Gu nianbin who came back. She heard him enter the door, heard him take a bath, heard him enter the room, and murmured in a low voice: "why did you sleep?"

Then he lay next to her with his hands and feet. When he went to sleep, he seemed to touch her hair slightly, but like that night, he was sleeping with his back to her. She slightly opened her eyes and looked at his broad back. She bit her lips and told herself again and again in her heart that she could not cry, she must not cry. Since he was hiding from her, she thought she didn't know. Otherwise he would suffer, and the last thing she wanted was to make him suffer.

The man seemed to fall asleep soon. She heard his even and steady breathing sound. She looked at him silently with her eyes open until her eyes grew hot. She breathed a light and light breath and slowly turned to close her eyes.

In fact, it was the best night to sleep on such a cold and chilly night, but she was not sleepy at all. She opened her eyes and looked at the dark room. Slowly, her eyes adapted to the darkness, and she could see the outline of everything.

The house is well decorated. They only brought clothes to move in. Gu nianbin said that she could add anything she wanted and change what she wanted. She was the housewife of the family. She should be responsible for this kind of thing. However, she thought that everything was very good, new and beautiful, so nothing was moved. She only added a glass vase with bright sapphire blue color and flower shape on it With green leaves, it is very eye-catching and beautiful. Gu nianbin laughs at her vulgarity and says that only she can buy such a vase. But she likes it. She likes the bright colors. All her paintings are like this. All the colors are put together. Mr. Heson said that the common customs are great elegance, which is also a kind of style. The vase is placed on the small cabinet by the window. When the sun shines on it, the room is full of brilliance. It seems to be a vase that can shine. At night, the bottle flashes a faint light in the dark, like ice and warm jade. The curtain was tight, but the edge was still full of virtual light. She guessed that the moonlight outside should be good.

Thinking of some unimportant things like this, I gradually felt that my eyelids were heavy and finally closed.

But in the middle of the night, she woke up again. She didn't open her eyes and knew that she was in his arms. Because it was warm, she took a deep breath greedily and turned gently to get out of his arms. However, the man tightened his hand and bound her more firmly. Instead, she was stubborn. She took his hand directly and wanted to separate some distance from him. The man woke up and half opened his eyes and asked, "what's the matter?"

"It's a little hot," she said softly.

Gu nianbin is sleepy, but still reach out to touch, "the body is cold, hot what? Go to sleep I can't help but say, cuddle her and sleep again.

She was silent, but how cold was she? How cold her heart!

The man's breath gradually sank, she thought he was asleep, but after a while, he asked in a low voice: "why not sleep?"

He knew it, but she could not open her mouth. She was afraid that she would cry.

She is so silent, pour let the man have suspicion, open an eye to see her: "you pour bottom how?"

She couldn't even open her eyes because there were tears under her eyes.

Gu nianbin finally felt wrong, reached out to turn on the lamp at the head of the bed and squinted at her: "Xianer, tell me, what's the matter?"

No, can't say, die also can't say, he has been very hard, she can't increase his pain.