Chapter 91 - Feeling Guilty. (1)

Restaurant. 

It didn't take long, they arrived at a restaurant not too far from campus. 

Sophia and Firaz sat across from each other after making the order.

"May I ask?". Firaz asked, starting the conversation. 

Sophia nodded and invited Firaz to start first.

"Is it true that this morning was your future husband?". Firaz asked anxiously.

"He's just the person my mother wanted, but I didn't want him." Sophia answered expressionlessly while looking down.

Sophia really maintains her view as a married woman.

"Then may I come visit your mother to formally propose to you?"

Firaz knows very well that Sophia's mother really likes him, because Firas has always helped her in the past, if there was no Firaz, what would Sophia have been at that time.

"I'm married". Sophia answered loudly without wasting any more time, because she really didn't want to linger chatting with men other than her husband.

Firaz was taken aback and shocked by Sophia's sudden words.

With a slight trembling and a daze Firas asked, "With whom?".

Sophia swallowed deeply, after which she said, "I'm sorry if this hurt you! I didn't mean to betray my promise, but I'm also grateful that I believed that you were married, at least I didn't wait anymore, because in the end I'm back with Michael. A few months ago we came back and got a marriage certificate. And now we are legally husband and wife!". After saying that, Sophia lowered her head as tears rolled down her cheeks.

Actually she didn't have the heart to destroy Firaz's hopes, not because she loved him but she didn't want people who were so good to her to feel hurt by her.

But she had to convey it at any cost. 

Firaz took a deep breath, then he opened his mouth again then he asked, "Why are you crying, is there something wrong? And why are you apologizing?". 

Sophia was surprised by Firaz's calm expression.

"Ever since we met in Turkey. I saw that you looked happy, and you were so kind to me, I couldn't bear to break your heart by saying that I was married, and after returning from Turkey, I kept thinking about how to say it so you wouldn't get hurt, besides he's my husband, he is also the only love in my life and I love him without being left for anyone. Don't you know the best about our story?". Sophia answered while sobbing.

"Am I that fragile do you think? And do you think my love is a must have for you?". Firaz looked at Sophia meaningfully.

Sophia fell silent hearing Firaz's question. She also did not expect Firaz's response, which was not what she imagined.

"Shopia, I love you because you make me feel in love for no reason. That's why I want to live with you, but even if I can't live with you, at least seeing you happy makes me happy too. I hope Michael can take care of you!". Firaz said in a deep voice while holding back the pain in his heart.

Sophia was moved by what Firaz said, she felt Firaz was too much, she didn't know that someone was making her an excuse to live well. I don't know what kind of kindness Firaz saw from her.

"Are you not hurt or angry with me?". Ask Sophia.

Firaz smiled in the midst of the complicated feeling that was raging in his heart when he heard Sophia's question.

"Honestly, I'm disappointed that I can't live with you, even very jealous of Michael, but I don't have the right to be hurt because from the start you are not mine, and anger is impossible, because no brother can be angry with his younger sister who broke his pencil." Firas replied softly.

Hearing Firaz say that he thought of her as his sister, Sophia was really relieved, she thought she could finally tell Michael everything.

"Thank you for all your kindness and love for me! And thank you also for considering me as your sister! But please don't tell anyone about my marriage, I'm afraid my mother will hear it, I just want to tell her slowly so the disease doesn't recur!". Sophia said pleadingly.

Firaz nodded because he understood very well how her mother, Sophia, hated Michael.

"Shopia, from now on, let your heart always feel happy no matter what your condition is, because a wife is the heart of the household. If she is not happy then the whole house will not be happy either, there will be no love, care and laughter!". Firaz tries to give advice to Sophia.

Firaz feels happy to see Sophia who can now smile in front of him even though she looks down but Firaz can still see that Sophia is smiling and feels relieved.

For Firaz, love is when seeing the loved one happy is enough.

"Hopefully you can find a better woman than me, now I say goodbye!". Sophia said as she stood up from her seat.

Firas understands her condition, he just nods and confirms Sophia's prayers for her. 

After finishing talking to Firaz, Sophia immediately said goodbye without eating any food. 

Firaz sheds the tears he has been holding back, all because his love is so sincere for Sophia. He had missed her for a long time, but he had to accept the fact that the woman he loved was married.

On the way, Sophia remembers Firaz's advice, then she realizes that for the past week she has been ignoring Michael, even though she doesn't even pay attention to Michael who is never beside her when she sleeps, she is also confused by Michael's very cold attitude towards her.

Arriving at home, Sophia immediately cooked Michael's favorite food, she also didn't forget to clean the house and beautify her room.

After cooking and cleaning up, Sophia dresses up and wears her best clothes, she also uses the perfume that Michael gave her.

After that, Sophia waited for Michael patiently until the clock showed 11 o'clock at night so that Sophia started to get nervous because Michael hadn't come home yet.

Sophia tries to call him but Michael's cell phone is off, and she makes a call to Larry, but Larry is in London, then Larry gives her Jason's number. 

Sophia immediately contacted Jason with an uneasy feeling.

"Hello... Mr. Jason! I am your boss' wife, Sophia. I want to ask, is your boss still in the office?".

"Maybe he's still in the office because lately he likes to work late and rarely eats, don't you know that?".

Tut ... Tut ... 

Without answering Jason's question, Sophia immediately ended the conversation unilaterally.

After that she hurried off to Michael's office.

Not long after, she arrived at Michael's office exactly at half past 1 in the evening and the atmosphere in the office was quite quiet.

However, Michael's car was still parked and it made Sophia feel relieved. 

After that, Sophia immediately rushed into the office feeling really anxious and uneasy.

It didn't take long, Sophia arrived at the door of Michael's room, she immediately opened the door and saw Michael sleeping on the sofa.

"Honey, I'm sorry! I didn't know that my restlessness made you uncomfortable, until you were like this". Sophia thought as she approached Michael who was sleeping.

"My dear, my beloved husband, what have you done to yourself? Why are you torturing this body of yours? If anything happens to you then I will not forgive myself!".

Sophia sat under the sofa looking at Michael's pale face.

Noticing there was no response from Michael, Sophia's expression turned ugly and she panicked. 

Sophia immediately put her palm on Michael's forehead.

"Gosh.. Why is his body so hot?". Sophia said frantically.

"Honey, wake up! Why are you like this? Your body is so hot". Sophia looked down while crying because she was really heartbroken to see Michael.

Hearing the sound of Sophia's crying, Michael immediately opened his eyes and glanced at Sophia while saying, "Honey, why are you here? Go home and rest! It's late, you'll be sick!".

Sophia cried hearing the words of her husband who was more selfish.

"Why did you tell me to leave? Do you no longer need me? And why have you been avoiding me for a week and being so cold to me? Do you not love me anymore?". Sophia asked while sobbing.

Hearing Sophia's words, Michael woke up from his sleep and brought Sophia who was squatting down to sit beside him.

"Try to ask yourself first, do you think of me as your husband?". Michael asked while wiping Sophia's tears.

Sophia was surprised to hear Michael's question.

"Why do you ask like that? I know I was wrong for being too selfish, and I know you realize I'm hiding something from you, but why don't you ever ask? habitable, if I'm wrong please tell me so I can fix it!". Said Sophia with tears flowing more profusely.

Michael fixed his seat then looked at Sophia with a smile.