Chapter 369

Rui Qingqing's fingers on her knees suddenly stirred together. With a little uneasiness, she said slowly: "the doctor said that the child's development is not good. I suggest that Abortion. "

Yuan Haowen just released the accelerator to start, he couldn't help but want to step on the brake, but his strong restraint made him look no different from his time, "what do you think?"

Rui Qingqing blinked twice, looked at the front and shook her head, "I I don't know. "

After waiting to return to the villa, Yuan Haowen finds out the diagnosis and the film from Rui Qingqing's bag.

He looked down very seriously.

I can't believe their children look so healthy. How could they be diagnosed like this?

Rui Qingqing went to the kitchen and poured out two glasses of water. He put one of them into Yuan Haowen's hand. "I want to hear your opinion."

Yuan Haowen has not yet accepted this fact.

He didn't believe it would happen.

If they really follow the doctor's advice, this will be their third child. He doesn't know if Rui Qingqing can accept it.

Suddenly think of once said in front of Rui Qingqing to protect her and children, feel very ironic.

"Qingqing, let me think about it." His voice was a little helpless and powerless.

"Good." Rui Qingqing is also very confused and doesn't know what to do next.

If she decides to have this baby, is she ready to take care of him?

And the child is innocent, let his young age is always in a different world from others, will he be happy? Isn't that another way to torture him?

When lying in bed at night, Rui Qingqing still couldn't accept the fact and laughed with a mockery, "Haowen, do you think this will be retribution?"

Yuan Haowen hugged the person in his arms even harder, "no nonsense. You've never done anything bad. What's your reward? "

The self doubt in Rui Qingqing's eyes hurt Yuan Haowen thoroughly.

But he couldn't say a word to comfort her.

A few days passed.

Rui Qingqing's mental state looks very bad, and sometimes she even tears for no reason. I often sit in the children's room which is prepared by two people, and I sit all day.

"Qingqing, have dinner." Yuan Haowen opened the door and said softly.

Rui Qingqing stood up, but she didn't know why. In the dark, she almost couldn't stand. Yuan Haowen held out her hand to help her.

"Qingqing, I'll take you to another hospital tomorrow."

Rui Qingqing helplessly pulled the corners of his mouth, "where to see the results are the same."

Yuan Haowen is very persistent.

However, the final result is the same.

After several times of thinking, they returned to the original familiar hospital, and the doctor arranged for Rui Qingqing to have a comprehensive physical examination.

While waiting for the results to come out, Rui Qingqing sits on the bench of the small garden and looks at the three or five children playing in the center of the garden.

She really likes children and wants to raise a child with Yuan Haowen.

But God seems to be too cruel to them.

Why let them experience the pain of losing their children again and again?

Thinking of this, she held back tears for many days, and finally fell down.

"Qingqing." Yuan Haowen didn't know when he came down and held her in his arms.

Breathing the familiar smell on his body, Rui Qingqing only felt more sad, "Yuan Haowen, what does the doctor say?"

Yuan Haowen's eyes flashed a dark light, chose to hide, "the situation is a bit bad, need to be hospitalized for observation for a few days. If there is still no way, let's get ready for abortion. "

Rui Qingqing is silent.

After blinking twice, I found that the tears at the bottom of my eyes, like breaking a dike, came out of my eyes and fell on Yuan Haowen's chest.

Although no longer willing, Rui Qingqing once again lived in the hospital, the smell of disinfectant around her was constantly filled with her sense of smell, and the nausea in her stomach became more and more serious.

"Doctor, I've been in the hospital for three or four days. Can you tell me what's going on now?" During the rounds, Rui Qingqing couldn't help asking.

The doctor wrote something on the medical record card, just to hide the evasion of his eyes, and calmly said: "first observe for a few days."

"Is it necessary to get rid of the child?" Rui Qingqing asks uneasily.

"It mainly depends on your final decision." The doctor also felt sorry, but he was told by Yuan Haowen that he could not tell Rui Qingqing the truth.

"Can you tell me why my child is malformed?"

Rui Qingqing just asked this question, he saw Yuan Haowen come in from the outside, his face cold, with some displeasure.The doctor left before he could answer.

Rui Qingqing noticed something wrong, "Haowen, have you decided?"

After pondering for a moment, Yuan Haowen nodded, "yes."

In fact, before his eyes, he had no choice but to make a decision, even his own heart was numb.

"So why? Can you tell me why? "

Yuan Qinghao want to appease the mood, you can't go in the past

Tears in the corner of his eyes had crept over Rui Qingqing's whole face unconsciously. "Things have been so bad, what else can't I accept? I care what my body does? "

Anyway, the child is about to leave himself.

Yuan Haowen felt the same.

But how can he tell Rui Qingqing that the reason why children develop malformations is that

Rui Qingqing's blood test results show that she has taken drugs, which makes her child different from other children.

Under the doctor's shocked eyes, Yuan Haowen had no extra expression on his face. His face was cold, and his eyes were even colder to the bone.

He stares at the doctor's eyes, half threatening to tell him, absolutely can't tell Rui Qingqing blood test results.

What he worried about was that if she knew that the child's problem was a hidden danger buried a few years ago, she would blame herself very much.

So he would rather let her mistake it for an accident.

"Qingqing, as long as you have a good body, we will still have children. This child is destined to have no fate with us. I also want to fight my life to keep him, but we can't keep him. What's more, if he was born, would he be happy? Have you thought about that? "

Rui Qingqing's mood is on the verge of collapse. The child is the last straw for her to maintain her sense, but now the straw is going to be lost. What else can she grasp?

There's nothing left.

During this period of time, all the things she encountered flashed in front of her eyes. She could no longer suppress her emotions and cried hysterically, "why on earth is this?"

Her cry is like cutting Yuan Haowen's flesh with a knife. His heart is bleeding, but he can't comfort Rui Qingqing.

What she said was right. His hands were stained with blood, so the retribution was all on the child.

I don't know how long it took to cry. Rui Qingqing was tired and then she went back to bed. Because she was crying so hard, she couldn't calm down for a while and let her chest look up and down.

Yuan Haowen squeezed a cold towel from the bathroom, sat beside the bed and put it on Rui Qingqing's red and swollen eyes, "Qingqing, you can hate me, but don't blame yourself, OK?"

The person who knows Rui Qingqing best is Yuan Haowen. Her one look can make him understand what she is thinking.

There's no mistake. She's really blaming herself. Blame oneself can't protect this child well, there is no way to let him come to this world to have a look.

Inside her clear eyes, there seems to be a layer of clear light. As long as the wind blows gently, it seems to be able to go with the wind, just like her whole person gives Yuan Haowen the same feeling.

She looked at Yuan Haowen, showing a shallow smile, "when is the operation?"

Yuan Haowen doesn't want to see her like this. Pretending to be strong will make people feel sad. "The doctor said that you can't delay any longer, otherwise it will affect your body. The operation is scheduled for the morning after tomorrow. "

The day after tomorrow

That's why she didn't spend two days with the child?

"I see." Rui Qingqing nodded weakly.

Yuan Haowen grabbed her small hand, "everything will be fine."

Rui Qingqing no longer dare to expect that she can get happiness, as if this word and she has always been isolated, "Haowen, I am so painful, so sad."

Yuan Haowen distressed hard to breathe, "Qingqing."

Rui Qingqing closed her eyes. Tears ran down the corner of her eyes and fell onto the pillow. The halo became a water halo.

"Haowen, let's go and take a set of photos with our children?"

Perhaps, this will be their last child, she wants to leave a little memory.

"OK, I'll call and have it arranged right away." Yuan Haowen turned his back and his eyes began to turn red.

The photo was taken about the next morning.

Rui Qingqing refused the tedious decoration, chose two very simple clothes, she has been smiling from the beginning to the end.

After shooting, she found that her face was stiff with laughter, but she couldn't help laughing on the way back.

The more she laughs like this, the more painful she looks.

"Qingqing, don't laugh." Yuan Haowen can't watch it any more.

"Not pretty?" Rui Qingqing rubbed her face.

"Well." Yuan Haowen nodded.Rui Qingqing inch by inch bent down the rising corners of the mouth, "is it?"

She just wants to leave a good impression on her child on the last day, so that he can see clearly. The woman who laughs like a fool in front of her is not worth being his mother at all. When she is reincarnated in her next life, she must open her eyes and make a good choice, never throw it into her stomach again.