It was like going back to that year.
The chilly day in SL, at the bright airport.
Outside the T3 exit, the girl who held back her tears and the man with gentle eyebrows came to pick her up.
What she asked for at that time was not allowed, but now she had to worry about gain and loss.
In the same position, all the thoughts hidden in those words that were afraid to say at that time, and the shame at that time, were all torn apart and exposed.
Once again.
One by one, as many as possible.
She only wished.
He could take her embarrassment, turn it into energy, turn it into armor.
After staring at the handwriting on the note for a long time, Jacob raised his eyes and looked at Ashley, her voice a little hoarse. "What are you afraid of?"
Ashley sobbed and said, "I'm afraid you think I'm strange."
She was afraid that in his opinion, at such a young age, when she should know nothing at all, it was strange that she had such thoughts about him.
After meeting again, she covered up another lie with one lie.
It was very strange, wasn't it? It was also very inexplicable.
When she was so close to him, all the actions she did to him. After she knew you had a date and gradually alienated from him.
At this moment, he could find the reasons.
"Not at all."
Jacob reached out, wiped away her tears, and coaxed in a low voice, "How can I not fold this star after I dismantle it?"
Ashley's eyes were red. She took one and folded it back according to the previous trace.
Jacob followed suit.
Soon, the long star paper changed back to its original appearance.
Jacob also took the one in her hand, stared at them for several seconds, and then put them in his pocket, whispering, "I have to keep them."
Ashley bowed her head and looked at her toes without saying a word.
Jacob said, holding her hand and gently squeezing her fingertips. "How many times have I made you cry?"
Hearing the words, Ashley sniffed and burst into tears.
Jacob stood up and said, "Get up. I want to hug you."
Ashley rubbed away her tears with the back of her hand again and stood up obediently.
The next moment, Jacob bent down and took her into her arms.
He put his hand against the back of her head and gently rubbed it as if to appease, "Why did you suddenly tell me this?"
Ashley's words had a nasal accent, which seemed a little stuffy. "I just want to say."
Jacob’s voice paused, and it was only at this moment that he realized, "You came here to tell me?"
Ashley was silent for a few seconds and whispered, "Come to see you and tell you the truth, by the way."
Jacob, "Then why are you crying?"
"This time, I don't have your brother's rumor-mongering girlfriend."
Jacob loosened his hand and said with a smile, "But now, there is a real one."
Ashley raised her head and stared at his face.
Jacob lowered her eyelashes and patiently buttoned her coat one by one, saying in a slow voice. "How come you look like a pitiful one?"
Ashley stood still, just looking at him.
Soon, Jacob fastened the bottom button.
The coat looked wide and large on her, just like a child stealing into an adult's clothes.
He bent the corners of his lips and wiped the tears from her eyelashes.
"Come on, let’s go home."
When she got in the car, Ashley took a wet paper towel from her bag and wiped her face.
Her mood calmed down a little, and most of her uneasiness dissipated after seeing him.
Jacob helped her fasten her seat belt and asked, "Why did you come here early all of a sudden?"
Ashley said honestly, "Because you ignored me."
"I didn't ignore you."
Jacob explained, "I worked overtime every day. When I’m home, it’s late. And I don't want to disturb you to sleep. "
"I thought you were avoiding me."
Jacob was stupefied," I'm avoiding you? "
"You said you wanted to think about it, but I don't know what you want to think about."
Speaking of it, Ashley was in a bad mood. "Then you didn't pay much attention to me, so I thought you were avoiding me. It seems that if I ask you on the phone, you will directly say that you want to break up with me."
"But if I come and talk to you in person."
Ashley dryly expressed her thoughts. "You may be embarrassed to mention it."
"What are you thinking?"
Jacob started the car, "If it hadn't been for your parents' disagreement, I would have directly kidnapped you to go to the church with me ."
Ashley murmured," Why did you use the word kidnap? "
"I'm afraid you'll run away."
Hearing this, Ashley looked at him. "Then what do you want to think about?"
"Whether to stay here with you for two more years, and then go back to South Star with you after you graduate."
Jacobe said carelessly, "or go over now and stabilize things first."
Ashley was stunned." Aren't you going to stay in SL? "
"No."
"If you want to stay in SL, we can discuss it."
Ashley said very seriously, "You don't have to accommodate me in everything."
"I really don't want to stay here."
Jacob said, "Besides, if I don't accommodate you, who else can I accommodate?"
"I told you not to worry, why are you crying about it? You should study hard, and be clingy to your boyfriend every day, not worry about other things."
"I'll visit your house again later."
Jacob drove the car into the community, saying a little more seriously, "I will explain it to your parents, don't worry."
The flight was late, and by the time the two got home, it was close to two o'clock in the morning.
Ashley's spirit slackened down, and when she got to the familiar environment, drowsiness came along with it.
Feeling extremely relieved, she said good night to Jacob and went back to her room.
Jacob was not sleepy at all.
Sitting on the sofa, he listened to Ashley enter the bathroom in the master bedroom, and then came the sound of water as if nothing had happened.
He withdrew his mind.
Thinking of Ashley's words just now, Jacob took the two stars out of his pocket.
His eyelashes moved slightly and he got up and found a box and packed it.
Then, he went into the room and put it on the nightstand.
Jacob went back to the living room, took a pack of cigarettes from under the coffee table, took one out, bit it in his mouth, and lit it.
He leaned back in his chair, raised his neck, and exhaled a ring of smoke, looking confused.
He slowly thought back to the past.
She was drunk and burst into tears, crying bitterly. "I have someone I like so much. But he just doesn't like me. "
She was not sober at that time, but she refused to say the person's name.
For fear of being known by him.
Before that, the time she sneaked to SL.
In fact, Jacob was not very impressed by that memory, but he still remembered her sitting in a chair, looking extremely thin, sobbing and saying, "But I will grow up."
He was unaware of it, just appeasing.
The little girl seemed to feel embarrassed, kept holding back her tears, but could not stop her tears. "He will like someone else."
Jacob remembered that he at that time, probably said that when she grew up, she will definitely meet someone better.
Maybe she was really sad.
So after returning to South Star, she gradually didn’t contact frequently with him.
When she came to SL to go to university, she never took the initiative to look for him.
After several years, she was still avoiding him.
Jacob remembered the time when he was in hospital.
The old man next door misunderstood that Ashley was his girlfriend.
At that time, he really thought it was funny, so he echoed and joked.
Just took it as a joke.
She was in a bad mood in those days, and sometimes she even seemed to cry. In the end, she just said to him, "Don't joke like that again."
At that time, he didn't understand why she was so unhappy.
The heart seemed to have been punctured with a needle, again and again, and then filled with honey.
He felt distressed and happy at the same time.
Jacob regained his mind and pressed the cigarette butts out.
It was too quiet, and there was no movement in Ashley's room.
He exhaled and closed his eyes heavily.
‘Jacob, you are such an asshole.’
Because of sleepiness, Ashley took a bath very fast this time.
She yawned and blew her hair dry, then went back to bed, put on the quilt, and fell asleep instantly.
In a daze, she heard the door open and close on the porch.
It wasn't long before it came again.
Ashley opened her eyes, dull for two seconds, and instantly fell asleep again.
When she woke up again, it didn't seem to be long before dawn.
She got up sleepy-eyed and went to the bathroom.
When she wanted to lie down and go back to bed, she felt dry and thirsty.
Ashley rubbed her eyes and opened the door.
As soon as she went out, she smelled an extremely strong smell of wine, which drifted away in the air.
She gradually woke up and hesitated to go to the living room.
The living room light was not on, only the table lamp next to the sofa was turned on, and the light looked a little dim.
Jacob sat on the sofa.
There are several empty cans on the table, full of wine.
A few fell on the floor.
Ashley's brain was still at a loss. Under the confusion of this night, she began to wonder if she was still in the dream.
She went over to pick up the cans and wondered, "Why are you drinking?"
Jacob looked up slightly.
The light hit his face and became clearer.
Jacob caught a bit of drunkenness between his eyebrows and eyes and looked frivolous.
When he saw Ashley, he smiled and held out his hand to her. "Kiddo."
Ashley hasn't heard him call her that for a long time, but she didn't react much.
But soon, she guessed that he was probably too drunk to recognize anything, and volunteered, "I'll get you a glass of water."
Before she could walk in the direction of the kitchen, Jacob held her wrist and pulled her into his arms.
Ashley was caught off guard and fell into his arms.
Then, she met his eyes with no drunkenness and extremely sober.
It was accompanied by Jacob’s lips affixed to her ear, bringing a warm and numb touch.
He bit her ear bone, the smell of alcohol was not strong, mixed with the smell of his body.
Ashley subconsciously hooked his neck, felt itchy again, and could not help flinching.
In an instant, he pulled her back and fixed her.
His palms were hot and slid up from Ashley's caudal vertebrae and stopped at the lower back.
It's like bringing an electric current to ignite the cold atmosphere around you.
A world where it's just the two of them.
Ashley even forgot why she came out of the living room.
As if fascinated by the smell of alcohol on him, she raised her head and nibbled his Adam's apple.
Ashley could feel that his body seemed to be stiff.
Jacob raised her chin, stared at her for two seconds, and then kissed her lips heavily.
His movements were particularly rough, and the tip of his tongue swept her lips and teeth.
Distracted, infatuated.
The perception of the body, the position of the heart.
Were all occupied by each other.
After a long time, Jacob loosened her lips.
With lust in his eyes, infected with a few points of bewitching, as well as blatant seduction.
He said with a low voice, “Kiddo.”
Ashley looked up at him and subconsciously responded.
The sound of calling her was different from any other time before.
With a very strong sense of flirting.
"Do you want to have sex with me?"