Chapter 67

Nineteen years ago, September.

Bai Luorui, only 11 years old, was wearing a small white skirt and lying on the windowsill. She looked out of the window of the nursing home. From her point of view, you can see a small piece of green on the grass.

The old people's dinner was early, and now it's near dusk. As soon as the sky shows sunset, they all finish their meal and walk from the dining hall outside to the sleeping place in twos and threes.

She and Xia unknown is completely different, her heart is kind, let those people out of the sea of suffering.

But some people, want to die, but do not have the courage to die, do not know the way, no one to help them, those struggling old people, those families in the mud, how helpless, how pathetic? So, she came to help him, to help them, this is what she is doing now, this is a great thing, and this is what she has to do.

People, when they die, should die.

Life can be measured by formula, when pain is greater than joy, when there is nothing you can do at the edge of terminal illness, when you are old enough to drag everyone down

After growing up, Bai Luorui found that there are millions of families in the world, and many people have to endure this kind of pain.

She was brought up by her grandmother when she was young. She loved her grandmother, even more than others. Only she knew her pain, and only she could help her end it!

What she did was to end the pain as she wished.

She won't blame her. Grandma's life is so miserable. She often tells her that she is going to die and that she wants to die.

Grandma just didn't have the time to listen to her clearly. If she understood, she would smile like she did every time she got 100 points in the exam. She hugged her and said, "my Laurie is doing very well."

Grandma at that time should have been a surprise.

At this moment, Bai Luorui looks down at her hand. She unconsciously turns the bracelet on her hand, which is a legacy left by her grandmother. She has brought it since she was ten years old. With the passage of years, the bracelet has long been small, but she can't bear to take it off.

Then she went to the bathroom and washed her hands repeatedly until they were red.

That's the last thing grandma said.

The bustling city is reflected on the car window. In the traffic, the sound of the car flute is a little harsh. Bailuorui looks at the building and is in a daze. She remembers that she helped Xiawei hold grandma's hand. At that time, grandma's eyes looked at her. It was the most effective medicine, but her neck was blue, her eyes were protruding, and she hesitated for several seconds before she died. Finally, she called her out: "Lori!"

The car stopped at a red light. Bailuorui, who earned money from her memory, looked up and saw that Longyue nursing home was coming. From this perspective, it was really very similar to Wushan nursing home.

In the car, Bai Lori looked out of the car as if she had been a child.

Nineteen years later.

Even the inquiries that bailuorui was afraid of didn't come. Xia unknown disappeared. She didn't know where she had fled. No one knew that they had been involved in those things. They were safe

Since then, the story of Wushan nursing home has finally been revealed.

Devil, it's time to go to hell. She is sure that she has no trace of what she has done. She is confident that even if Xia is caught, she will not disclose them and implicate them. That woman, like a madman, those crazy things, the things they participated in, will not be believed when they are told.

In August of that year, bailuorui, 12, made an anonymous call to the police.

It's just that she has one more thing to do

She stayed with Xia for a whole year. Like a best student, not only learned all the means of Xia unknown, but also excelled in the blue.

Sometimes, killing a person is a very simple process. It only needs an injection, a rope and a knife. In a few minutes, the soul is like the liquid in the container. It will leak away, and life will pass away. Yin and yang are separated.

Since then, Bai Luorui has seen many people die. Sometimes, a person's death is a long and tortuous process, which takes months or even years. Time is like a knife, cutting flesh and blood off people's bodies one by one. As long as there is breath, only the heart is still beating, as long as the brain waves are not in a straight line, you can survive .

On that day, their lives changed.

Xia was silent for a few seconds, then she nodded and looked at Bai Lori: "OK, I can help you."

Xia unknown stares at the three children in front of him. They don't seem to know that they are volunteering to become accomplices and executioners. They don't know what kind of life they will face in the future.

Du Ruoxin turned her eyes and looked at her two little friends. She twisted her body and was so competitive that she didn't want to fall behind: "I I can watch for you. That's what I'm good at. I play hide and seek. They can't find me. "

"I'll follow her." The boy quickly expressed his position, his tone was a little proud, as if he was going to do something exciting and brave, "isn't it the dead? I live in this nursing home with my grandfather. I saw dead people when I was five years old. Some old people are just a waste of resources. ""And the two of you?" Xia asked again.

Bai Lori's voice was clear: "we knew you were killing people for a long time, but we didn't tell the adults that this is our choice. Now we are also involved, so we are accomplices. If we give you up, we will also be involved. "

Xia unknown looking at them, seems to be considering whether to agree to her: "but, how do you let me believe that you will keep a secret?"

Bai Luorui knew that her opportunity had come. Now, she had to persuade Xia unknown. She blinked, with her childlike innocence on her face, but she was very serious: "I can help you. We can even do things for you. We are children, not so attractive, we can help you keep an eye on, help you do a lot of things you can't do alone

Xia unknown looked down at Bai Lori from the new, in the child's eyes, she saw something different, that kind of feeling, like a foraging beast met the same kind, she was a little shaken: "if I do, what good."

Bai Lori stares at Xia unknown tightly. She doesn't like her. She thinks she is cruel and sick, but she needs such a teacher. She wants to get what she needs and do what she wants to do.

What she said is not wrong. Once it is related to the vital interests, people will pay more attention to their own lives. The police will not believe the children's words, but they will believe the old people's words. Even if it's just gossip, it's a sharp weapon that can kill people. What's more, she may have left some clues somewhere.

Du Ruoxin pulls La Weihong to get up, but Bai Luorui doesn't move: "doctor Xia Then I'll tell the old people about it and let them know that you are going to kill them. Then someone will come to investigate. " She looked directly into Xia's eyes. "Even if they can't find evidence for a while, they will be alert and careful to you. You can't kill people here any more."

Xia unknown smile: "so this is the reason why you bring your little partner?" Then she looked at the three children in front of her, and her tone eased down. It seemed that the things we talked about just now were all jokes. "I didn't do anything. If you want to say it, just say it. Those old people all died naturally. Let's see if the police believe what you said or what I said. You'd better go back now, or I'll complain to your parents. "

It's normal for the elderly to die in a nursing home. It's certain that people will pay attention to the death of children and three children at a time. She has no way to get rid of them together. As long as someone is still alive, she can spread her secret.

"If I had come alone, I might have," said barrow. But now we have three people. If you want to kill me, they will immediately run out and call someone. Even if you kill us all in the future, it will certainly arouse the suspicion of others. You won't do that. "

Xia Wei looked down at Bai Luorui with great interest: "do you know what you are talking about? Are you not afraid that I will kill you? "

At that time, Dr. Xia's eyes, just like now, were so cold that people who knew her could hardly recognize them.

She's testing how to kill!

She's killing people!

From that day on, they began to pay attention to the whereabouts of Dr. Xia. Every time Xia went to the intensive care building alone, an old man would die, and there would be many scars on his body. They are sure that Xia is doing something secret here.

The frightened Du Ruoxin tells her two best friends about it. She hopes they can tell the adults together, but Bai Luorui tells her to keep quiet.

Then Xia unknown records these in the book.

Once when they were playing hide and seek, Du Ruoxin hid in the curtain of a patient in the intensive care building. Maybe it was because she was thin and small, Xia didn't find her existence. She heard a sound of footwork in the room and saw Xia came to the bedside and injected something into the old man. The paralyzed old man could only make a weak voice, Under such severe torture.

Du Ruoxin felt goose bumps on her arm. She looked at Barry in fear and regretted telling them what had happened before.

The room was quiet for a moment.

"You killed people there." "We saw you drive a nail into the old man's head and inject the medicine into it," barrow said in a deep voice

Xia unknown eyes slightly narrowed: "well, what did I do in the intensive care building?"

Bailuorui seems to have expected to be rejected. She looks up at Xia unknown with aggressive eyes: "we know your secret. If you don't promise me, I'll tell the police what you did in the intensive care building. "

Xia unknown put down the water cup: "you go, out of this door, such silly words don't say with others."

Xia unknown although sometimes hate themselves, but there is a trace of human nature, do not want to put these children involved, she shook her head, refused: "I am a doctor here, is a doctor, I can not promise you, also do not know why you have such a request."

Although she killed people, she knew what she was doing. These children, just in their teens, did not know what these words meant."Do you think killing her is good for her?" Xia unknown holding the water in her hand, she used a disposable paper cup, which was originally poured for these children, but now she didn't give it to them. She lowered her head and took a sip.

Grandma trapped herself and her. Since grandma was ill, bailuorui didn't sleep a whole night. She went to school during the day. When she came back from school, she helped her grandfather take care of the patients. The seriously ill grandmother is sensitive and irritable. She gets angry when she is not satisfied. Sometimes she cries hysterically. She closed all the curtains and didn't want to talk to people. She said her life shouldn't be like this, she said she had lived enough, she said she wanted to die more than once.

Bai Luorui clenched her fist, and her palms were sweating: "that's my grandmother's wish. She told me more than once that she wanted to die, and she couldn't live. I hope you can help me to achieve her wish. I have only one request, that is, let her die as painless as possible. "

Xia unknown looked at her, her eyes gradually changed, expression from the initial soft, become a bit indifferent: "why do you ask this?"

I'm afraid the children have been planning for a long time.

Xia was stunned for a moment, and then he was sure that he had heard right. The child, who was only a few years old, had a serious and firm expression. She didn't seem to think what she said was shocking. The two little friends around him, the boy, were silent, and the other girl was obviously in a little panic. She seemed to feel her emotional change, and bailuorui held her hand .

Bailuorui's face has the calm that does not match her age. She says every word very seriously: "I want you to help me kill my grandmother."

Xia unknown asked Bai Lori: "what do you want me to do?"

Xia unknown turns his head and looks at the child. She knows her. The child's surname is Bai, and she is precocious. She is also very beautiful, such a little girl even in this gloomy nursing home will still get a lot of preferential treatment.

"Dr. Xia, I want to ask you one thing." Bai Luorui's voice was clear and serious. It seemed that he had made some important decision. Wei Hong and Du Ruoxin stood aside and did not dare to make a sound.

All the children here know that Dr. Xia always likes children. Children often come here to play, and she has been used to it for a long time. There are candy for children on the table, and they will patiently answer their homework.

Xia had just taken off her white clothes for a day and changed into her usual clothes. Her body was exquisite and gentle. With a smile on her face, she got up and poured water for them: "today, how did you come together? Are you here to ask about homework? "

All the way to the doctor's and nurse's building, they knocked on Xia's door as usual. Doctor Xia had a rest tonight. They were all very familiar with the dormitory which was only ten square meters.

Du Ruoxin hummed a few times in a low voice and followed up. Among the children in the nursing home, she was the youngest and timid, but she was always Bai Lori's follower. She didn't want to let it go and be left behind by her best friend. What's more, she thinks that bailuorui is right. Her parents must hate her and leave her here because she is cowardly. If she can do something shocking, maybe they will look at her more.

to bailuorui, Wei Hong always follows her blindly, right or wrong. In his eyes, the little girl is like a princess. Since she is a princess, there should be a knight to protect her.

It was not until bailuorui came that Wei Hong had a friend. She would suddenly take his hand, the girl's hand white and soft, she would also carefully help him to wipe those wounds left by the fight.

"Whatever you do, I'll follow you." When Wei Hong finished speaking, he followed her forward, his eyes shining in the dark corridor. His study is not good. At first, other children in the yard are isolating him and not playing with him.

"Go or not." Bailuorui walked forward a few steps, turned back to look at the two little friends behind him, "if you are afraid, it's still time to go back."

This sentence seems to have stabbed Du Ruoxin. After hearing Bai Luorui's words, she bowed her head a little sad.

"You promised me long ago, and now you want to keep your word?" Bai Luorui's voice is still childish, but her words are like a little adult, and her expression is full of disdain. She is afraid of attracting adults. She lowers her voice in Du Ruoxin's ear and says: "you are always like this. Your parents leave you here, coward!"

Du Ruoxin took Bai Lori's hand and thought of her previous plan. She was a little bit withdrawn: "I'm afraid, we'd better not go..."

Barry nodded. After dinner today, it's the time they've made an appointment.

Under the stairs at the end of the corridor, Wei Hong and Du Ruoxin had been waiting there for a long time. One of them was 12 years old, and the other was only 9 years old. Wei Hong still held a frog he had caught today. Because he was running in the yard all the year round, he was tanned and his eyes were white. When they saw her coming, Wei Hong got up, threw the frog on the ground, looked up and said to Bai Luorui, "have you really decided? Going to see Dr. Xia? "

Barrory walked on, pretending not to hear behind her. She carefully locked the door.In recent months, I have seen him every month. He is white and beautiful. He is a clean young man, and he is polite. He is a good child among all the old people. Bai Lori likes him. He has a good smell, which is different from those old people. She asked him, he said his surname is Gu, called Gu Zhibai.

In this yard, Wei Hong is a lousy boy who tosses around. His grades are not good and he plays truant in school. The child who is often brought here is an alien. Bai Luorui doesn't know whose child he is, but only knows that he occasionally appears in the nursing home.

Bai Luorui got used to the darkness of the room for a while before she went out. Behind her came the cough of her grandmother. She had been awake just now: "don't associate with the boy named Wei. You should learn from the boy who often comes here. You still have to study hard every day here..."

A bright whistle came from the door, which was the signal between Wei Hong and her. Bai Luorui's eyes moved and drew back. Although the window was near dusk, it was bright. The room is dark, no lights, pull the curtains, block all the sunshine. I can't help it. Grandma doesn't like sunshine, so the curtains are always drawn. Only a small piece of the window can feel some light.

Bai Luorui ponders this question, thinks deeply.

Why do people get old? Why do you die?

Now, Bai Luorui can hear grandma's breathing. Grandma should be trying to sleep, but her breathing seems to be pulling the bellows, making a heavy whirring sound. The air in the room became dirty with it. There was a strange smell. It was the smell of disease and aging. Fortunately, she had been familiar with all this for a long time.

However, grandma's health did not get better. On the contrary, every day, sometimes she would have a fever at night. Her body was hot and covered with sticky sweat. When she felt the worst, she would snort. Sometimes to disturb other people, a doctor will come to give her an injection. But bailuorui knew that those drugs could not save her at all. At most, they could delay her illness and let her live longer in pain.

My grandfather has always insisted on taking care of her, and did not let people send her to the intensive care building.

Bai Luorui seems to have heard from her mother and her grandfather that her grandmother had a very serious illness, like lung cancer or something. She was lying at home waiting to die, but she was also waiting to die in the hospital. It's better to come to the nursing home waiting to die. There are more old people here who can bask in the sun and have a chat. Maybe grandma's health will be better.

My grandfather always said that they were lucky enough. When my grandfather and grandmother came to the nursing home together, they just had two beds available. So my grandfather and my grandmother had a room. Later, because her parents were divorced, she came in and slept with my grandmother in the same bed at night.

My grandfather went to the canteen to return the plates. He would take this opportunity to take a breath and chat with other old people. He would stay for a while and come back. My grandmother had already been lying on the bed and simply washed, so she didn't need to take care of her. It was the only time of the day that was barrory's own.

The view outside the window was monotonous and boring, but Bai Luorui was very attentive, quiet and motionless.

Most of the old people are deaf, and their voices are loud, which makes the yard noisy. In front of her was the sound proof glass window, through which she could still hear some intermittent voices.

Bai Lori sighed and looked out the window. The car was about to stop and her destination was about to arrive.

She sat up straight and looked forward. Bailuorui was still thinking about that question in her heart. Up to now, she has not found the answer: why do people get old? Why do you die?

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