Chapter 199

In the intensive care building of Wushan nursing home, Zheng Huai'an looks at the young man in front of him with a smile. He is outstanding, but childish. He has been living in a happy family, receiving good education, and having a different childhood from him. If there is no forum, if there is no accident, he and he are people of two worlds.

Gu Zhibai has been repeatedly emphasizing that he did not write those plans to realize them. His original intention may be true. Teenagers will have a period of rebellion. His rebellion is to vent on the forum. As long as he wears a vest that no one knows, he can speak freely. His growing up environment, the people he contacted, his family and school have already decided his code of conduct and planned a right way for him.

It's hard to describe him as a simple good person or a bad person.

It is undeniable that my brother has done wrong and bad things, but he has done a lot of good things at the same time and has been fighting in his own way.

It's not a confession to my brother.

The author has something to say: I see someone arguing whether my brother is black or white.

"Gu Zhibai, I like to see you stained with dust, step by step into the mud. You will gradually approach the darkness and one day assimilate with it. "

"People, that's it. If you dissuade her, she will regard you as an enemy. If you push her to hell, she will be grateful to you."

"In fact, no one can control other people's lives. You don't have to be guilty. Without you, she will come to this stage sooner or later, or even worse. I have already read her desire in her eyes."

"Freud said that the reason why there are crimes in human society lies in human nature. In other words, the root cause is desire and dissatisfaction. The desire for freedom, the desire to control death, the desire for love. "

Zheng Huai'an kept talking in his ear until he fell asleep.

But he found that he can't understand people, life is not a complete can get full score, those people have become the biggest variable in his life.

He has always felt that he has a smart brain. He can estimate time, space, various situations and emergencies. He can think calmly and calculate the complex environment as a formula. He can outline all kinds of social relations and build an ideal model.

He seems to have experienced a special rite of passage ahead of time.

Alcohol paralyzed his nerves. Gu Zhibai found that he could really forget many things when he was drunk.

The killer replied, always.

He can't remember the specific plot clearly. He only remembers that the little girl asked the killer, was her childhood so hard, or was it only when she was a child?

Gu Zhibai suddenly thought of the plot of a movie, which seems to be about a killer and a girl.

This is Gu Zhibai's first time to drink wine. At first, he rejected it and found it very hard to drink. Later, he accepted it and drank it hazy.

Now, all the students, teachers, friends, even younger brother and grandmother, should think that he is dead, right?

He remembered that there were three deaths. The first is the death of life, the second is the death of social relations, and the third is the oblivion of all people.

Gu Zhibai bowed his head and reflected that it was his former name, but only after more than a month, he felt a little strange.

Zheng Huai'an raised the wine bottle to him and said, "here, to Ji Zhifeng who died."

He took a sip from the bottle, which was a bit indescribable, a bit cold, and made him cough.

Gu Zhibai reflected that the things that had bound him in the past, the morality, the rules, the parents and the teachers, no longer existed.

"What are you afraid of?" Zheng Huaian asked

Gu Zhibai's first reaction was to shake his head.

"Would you like to try it?" Asked Zheng Huai'an.

At dinner, he took out the packaged cold dishes, which included jellyfish skin with cold sauce, beef with sauce, fried peanuts and a bag of fried clams. Zheng Huaian also brought a few bottles of beer.

Zheng Huai'an seems to have known the answer for a long time, and did not ask Gu Zhibai the result of his trip.

Finally, at dinner time, Gu Zhibai left Bai Luorui and went back to the intensive care building alone.

As the sun goes down and the setting sun is dying, there is a sense of vicissitudes in the nursing home under the red glow.

Bailuorui was so excited that she repeatedly thanks him and said that she would keep it a secret between them.

He opened his mouth and uttered another sentence, which seemed not his own: "if your grandmother dies, you will be free."

He felt like a bird in the net, giving up the struggle.

Good and evil, black and white are intertwined in Gu Zhibai's mind. The recent serious injury made him very weak. He felt that he might be suffering from heatstroke and his body was about to fall. Then he lowered his head and said in a deep voice, "let me think about how I can help you."Bai Lori is still chattering. The murder weapons range from pillows and knives to plastic bags and all kinds of drugs.

Anyway, he lost the bet, lost to Zheng Huai'an.

If he adds fuel to the flames and lets her take a step in front of Xia unknown, she will even be grateful to him and regard him as a confidant.

Even if he was dissuaded for a while, he could not guarantee that he would be able to last long.

This idea, before her grandmother died, will be constantly remembered and solidified, just like a snowball, rolling bigger and bigger.

Gu Zhibai thinks that people have no right to decide the life and death of others, even the closest people But he had read some psychological books, and he knew that bailuorui's idea of killing had been formed. It was not an ethereal thing, but a killing opportunity only one step away from practice.

He began to chill from his fingertips and hesitated.

Or is it what she wants?

He himself has been in trouble. What should he do when he comes across such a thing? Run outside and say, this girl under 13 wants to kill her grandmother? Would he be considered a lunatic?

"No Gu Zhibai shook his head.

Bai Luorui hesitated to see Gu Zhibai and said, "Gu Zhibai, I know this is not a good idea. There must be many people who don't understand me, but I really think so. I told you this as a friend. You won't Tell them to your grown-ups? "

From the moment he promised to bet, he lost.

Not as a party, not in Bai Luorui's position, did not see her grandmother's pain, also did not realize the burden of overpressure on her body, he felt that he had no right to speak. Then Gu Zhibai had a little reaction. He might have fallen into the trap of Zheng Huai'an. Zheng Huai'an may have been there for a long time, or through what channels, he learned that the girl had a murderous intention in her heart.

Gu Zhibai shook his head and said, "I don't know."

"I think I'm doing something good for her. I'm helping her fulfill her wish." Barry turned her head and her eyes were red. "Do you think I'm wrong?"

"You know What are you talking about and doing? " Gu Zhibai asked again.

Bai Lori raised her small face: "well I'd like to have a try. "

Gu Zhibai continued to ask tentatively: "if Is there really such a way? "

His heart beat like a drum, and he didn't expect that Zheng Huaian was right.

Gu Zhibai couldn't believe what he had heard, and he couldn't describe the shock in his heart. When he first heard it, it shocked his view of right and wrong. Should we say it's childish talk or evil regardless of age?

It's been a long time since this idea came into being. When she said it, she felt as if she had exhaled a breath pressed on her chest, even breathing smoothly.

"Grandma told me more than once that she didn't want to live. My grandfather scolded her several times for this, saying that it was not allowed to say so, but later Grandma's health is getting worse and worse, and her consciousness of wanting to die is becoming stronger and stronger. Once, she even asked me to hand her the fruit knife at the head of the bed. At that time, she looked at the knife and hesitated for a long time. " Bai Lori's eyes turned red and sighed, "I think If only there was a quiet way to help her end her life... "

Gu Zhibai felt his heart tremble a little, frowned and looked at Bai Luorui, "do you really think so?"

"You say, if grandma dies, can she get relief?"

Gu Zhibai said casually, "you say it."

Bai Luorui lowered her head, curled up and hugged her knees with her hands. The summer sun penetrated through the leaves and shone on her skirt. The girl hesitated: "Gu Zhibai, there is a secret in my heart."

The person in front of her is undoubtedly a filial girl. She has spent a lot of time and energy on taking care of her grandmother, which is beyond the ordinary children of the same age.

Gu Zhibai listened to her talk and comforted her in a soft voice. He understood Bai Luorui's idea very well. He watched the old people grow old and sick. For his family, it was like a file sawing his chest all the time.

When she mentioned this point, bailuorui suddenly stopped. She lowered her head and her eyes were twinkling: "I have the best relationship with grandma since I was young. Grandma is sick, and I feel very sad. Sometimes I even hope that I am the one who is sick, or I can help her share some of it. I'm still young. I'm sure I can make it through, so grandma won't work so hard... "

Two people chatting, from school work has been talking about her grandmother's illness.

Gu Zhibai had seen her several times, but he didn't waste any energy, so he started the topic.

Gu Zhibai shakes her head. Bailuorui takes the popsicle and spins it from the middle to the twist. Then she puts it in her mouth and sucks it, making a slight Zizi sound.

Bai Luorui was eating snacks, and her eyes narrowed like Lu Siyu. She saw Gu Zhibai come over, held up the popsicle and handed it to him, "Gu Zhibai, do you want to eat?"

Gu Zhibai opened the door and went to the girl in the white skirt in the shade of the tree.The rubber band skipping children soon dispersed, leaving only Bai Lori under the tree. She looks like a pure angel in her white dress and ponytail. Then she wiped her hands, took some snacks from her bag and enjoyed them alone.

Gu Zhibai snorted. He didn't think Zheng Huaian would fulfill his promise, but he was curious about the answer.

Zheng Huaian chuckled: "if you win, I promise you any request, even I can let you out. You can go anywhere and find your brother."

Gu Zhibai didn't think Bai Luorui would have that idea. He thought he would win and said, "what if I win?"

However, such a small girl, probably only the first day of junior high school, how can she have the desire to kill her relatives?

To do such a thing, it is no doubt inappropriate for adults to take part. Zheng Huaian is using his child's identity.

Zheng Huaian wants to train Bai Luorui to be Xia's successor. But if Xia didn't know that those children were inspired by Zheng Huai'an, she would be wary. She will only be willing to let the child ask for it by herself.

Gu Zhibai thinks for a moment and understands Zheng Huaian's purpose. Xia Weiwei has just lost her child. She still has a part of motherhood. When she faces a child, she is the most frank and unreserved.

To send a child to Xia unknown's hand and learn the skills of killing people from her is enough to change Bai Lori's life.

Gu Zhibai thought of the choice he had made before.

Zheng Huai'an said: "if I win, you should try your best to arrange her to Xia unknown. Besides, you can't let Xia unknown know that it's our hands and feet. You should let her think that it's the child who wants to go. That's your nomination."

Gu Zhibai asked, "what's the bet?"

Zheng Huaian said: "you go to find this girl yourself. You ask her what she thinks of her grandmother. If she wants to kill her in her heart, it's me who wins. If she's calm as usual and wants her grandmother to live a long and healthy life, it's you who wins."

In order to do so, the first thing we need to break is Gu Zhibai's cognition of the world. In children's eyes, the world is only black and white, but in fact, the larger part is gray.

But Zheng Huai'an firmly believes that people can't be completely free of distractions. Most of the good people are just not forced to a certain extent by the environment. Once they are in the entrance of hell, if they push a little harder, they may be doomed.

This story is probably the process of his falling into darkness, confusion, resistance, firm belief and rising to overthrow the criminal organization.

He experienced a period of confusion, but finally found his own direction, determined how to do.

In the end, he helped the police, and he would face everything calmly.