Chapter 44 - Don't Want A Divorce!

Never in his life did Song Yu Han beg for anything from anyone. Even when his mother had to separate from him when he was young because he was taken by Old Master Song back to the family, he didn't beg his mother to make him stay with her. 

He knew that his mother had to let him go so he could live a better life. But what was a better life without the mother who had taken care of him and loved him unconditionally? However, Song Yu Han did what his mother wanted him to do. 

He left her with the old master Song and entered the Song family. He diligently did his studies, topped in the school, and achieved several awards along the way. He also impressed other people and made the half-siblings he had from his father look like clowns as he left them in the dust. They couldn't even wipe the floor he walked in.

Eventually, he got what his mother wanted him to achieve in his life. 

However, it was already too late for him to show it all to her and let his mother praise him and pat him in the head. 

His mother, Lu Tingting, left the world the day of his graduation day and took her life. 

Song Yu Han didn't know what happened to her. He sometimes met his mother when he was free and there was a holiday. He even left the Song family mansion to live in the dormitory just so he could freely visit her in his free time. 

And yet, his mother left him early and didn't even tell her why she had to go.

After his graduation, Song Yu Han could only watch the paramedics take away his mother's body in silence amidst the chaos going on around him. He didn't cry. He was in too much shock to realize anything and for his brain to absorb everything else. 

He just watched on as they took away his mother's body and until he was dragged away by Old Master Song. 

Too lost to feel anything, Song Yu Han had to be sent to a psychologist. The trauma worried Old Master Song too much and he was worried that his grandson would hurt himself because of what happened.

A year later, he recovered from the shock and the psychologist finally said that he was completely cured. Old Master Song was relieved and sent him away to another country, fearing that being in Flower Country for a minute longer would endanger Song Yu Han's mentality and remember his mother.

As years went by, Song Yu Han grew into an outstanding young man to someone everyone feared. 

And as much as Old Master Song wanted to keep the truth from him, Song Yu Han was no longer a boy nor someone who could be swayed by anyone. That person was already dead, there was nothing that could melt the ice in his heart.

The truth was soon uncovered. The new madam who married Song Yu Han's father had a play in his mother's death. But of course, there was no evidence and it was only word of mouth and no witness turned up. And so, nothing else could be done about his mother's death and the court could only wrap it up as suicide.

The young boy couldn't do anything but let his grandfather send him to another country to forget. 

Kneeling in front of her, Song Yu Han fell in a trance. He somewhat felt the feeling of loss very familiar to him. It felt like there was a hole in his heart and nothing could block it up. He could only watch it drip with blood.

Ran Xueyi's existence in his life was very complicated and confusing. 

At first, he just wanted to keep her around since she was the woman who carried his sperm and could be the mother of his child. 

However, the moment he met her again in that restaurant. He somewhat couldn't think clearly and felt choked up. In his eyes, she was like a ball of light hanging in front of him, enticing him like a cat would towards its toy to catch it and bite it. 

He really did fall in love with her at first sight. 

No matter how impossible that is, Song Yu Han believed that he had a crush on her.

"Please don't leave me," he repeatedly said. 

Ran Xueyi glanced down at him and felt conflicted. She should be upset with him and not forgive him easily. However, with his sad puppy eyes looking at her and those words he had just said... those were two ultimate attacks that almost killed her.

Even though Ran Xueyi wanted to stay angry at him and even thought of invalidating their marriage through divorce, faced with his face and his words, Ran Xueyi felt like a sinner who committed a sin worthy if a capital punishment.

Besides, has anyone ever said these words to her?

Yang Baihua, her friends, her sister, and parents. None of them told her not to leave. Whenever she went overseas for a trip, they were the ones who would readily see her off and even happily let her go.

No one expressed their desire to not watch her leave. No one.

Was it wrong for her to forgive the only person who wanted her to stay with him?

Was it wrong of her to treasure this moment and want to hear these words from someone?

Ran Xueyi contemplated for a long time before finally replying, "Alright. I won't leave."

"Really?" Song Yu Han looked at her in a different light. The sad and dark clouds above him dispersed quickly. However, he looked at her suspiciously as he asked her again, "You won't leave and won't divorce me, right?"

Ran Xueyi nodded her head. Feeling a little loss when she saw the smile on his lips. Then, she noticed how happy he was and thought of his expression when he explained things and kneeled before her and begged her not to leave him.

Ran Xueyi remembered the story that Aunt Shu told her the last time and was overwhelmed with sadness.

She outstretched her hand and patted his hair. "That's right. I won't leave you and I also don't want a divorce."

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Author has something to say: QAQ Who's cutting onions? I'm almost in tears while writing this chapter!