Chapter 10 Drunk on A Rainy Night

Ding Ge went east, I went west, and on the same street we went the opposite way.

As I walked along the roadside, my footsteps were still indescribably heavy, and from time to time, someone rushed past me. I walked step by step, as if I was going to the abyss of hell.

But I don't have any fear. I can't hold any other emotions in my heart.

The sky had completely darkened, but the number of cars on the street had not decreased much. All kinds of people were walking towards different intersections. The shadows of cars and people under the streetlights were jumbled and staggered, like the fate of Ding Ge and me, meeting, parting, meeting with other shadows, parting... I didn't dare to turn my head, I was afraid, but I eventually turned around.

But this time, I couldn't find Ding Ge in the bustling crowd!

She's gone.

One day, she will disappear from my life forever.

I suddenly felt like crying, especially uncomfortable. It was like a strong tornado, and the pain of the blade on my skin made me have to squat down to catch my breath!

The car screeched in my ear, as if laughing at me. In this desolate night, I felt as if I was in the cold water, cold all over!

I don't want to go home, I just want to waste some time in the world!

Then I walked to a park alone. There were a lot of people in the park. There were people dancing and walking. I sat down on a chair and hid my body in the shadows so that no one could see the expression on my face.

Although there were a lot of people and even loud music playing, I felt a rare sense of peace at this moment.

Perhaps it was the natural smell of the river and the flowers in front of me. The dark environment also made me feel much safer. I looked at the reflection of the river and didn't want to think about those heavy and sad things.

Until a phone call brought me back to reality.

It's my mother. Tell me about the blind date tomorrow.

Time passed so quickly that it was almost time for my blind date. My mother was afraid that I would forget and explained everything in detail. And now, I finally know the name and phone number of the girl I'm going on a blind date with.

Her name was Guzheng. She had some strange names. She was named after an instrument. Was she still a classic beauty? She's a few months younger than me, and I haven't seen her picture yet, so I don't know what she looks like.

We haven't contacted yet. Our parents have booked a hotel for us for tomorrow.

After thinking about it, I sent Guzheng a text message saying that I was the Meng Xingyun who was going on a blind date with her tomorrow. Guzheng replied to my text message without hesitation.

Very brief. See you tomorrow. I replied well, and I'll contact you then.

I put my phone in my pocket, and I didn't really care about it. Just treat it like a meal tomorrow. At my age, I don't know what nervousness is. I won't panic even if the other party is a beautiful woman.

But most of them are just ordinary girls. After all, how many beautiful girls need to go on blind dates? There was a swarm of flies behind his butt that couldn't be blown away.

I don't know what the blind date will be like tomorrow, but I don't care.

Then I emptied my body again and greedily enjoyed the rare peace. If it wasn't for fear of being treated like a psychopath, I really wanted to close my eyes and lie on the ground, sleeping on the grass in the night with the moon as the bed and the grass as the bed.

However, the weather was unpredictable, and the next moment it began to rain.

For some reason, it was a good day just now. How could it change? The rain started to rain before the strong wind blew, and the trees in the park squeaked.

Some huggers held the child tightly in their arms and rushed home. The road was filled with thick smoke and dust, which shone in the dark and yellow. The cold wind swept across the park in an instant, and everyone started to walk. There were not many people in the park.

There was no romantic couple in the rain, and I was the only one left.

In the past, I might have had the urge to drown my sorrows in the rain and wash away the pain in my heart, but now I don't think so.

Perhaps this is the power of time. Even though the wounds on the bottom of my heart are still scarred, they are far from as heartbreaking as they were!

And in a few more years, those wounds might not be visible, and the pain it provoked would not be able to reflect on the nerves in our habits.

The rain was cold on me. Thinking about how it rained the last time I saw Ding Ge and how it still rained this time when I saw Ding Ge, I don't know if it was a coincidence or if god pitied our former lovers.

I couldn't help but picture Green city railway station Ding Ge standing in the rain.

I never liked the rain. It always made people feel bad. I calmed down for an hour because of the rain. The cold air made me uncomfortable.

At the same time, the battle in his heart began to lose its balance, and gloom and entanglement took the upper hand. I sighed in the rain, put my hand on my forehead, and quickly walked out of the park.

However, the cars on the road were driving impatiently, and the windshield wipers were turning restlessly in front of the glass. Everything in front of them began to become a little chaotic and flustered, and the heavy rain caught everyone off guard.

After waiting for a while, I still couldn't see the taxi stop, so I had to give up. Anyway, it wasn't too far from where I lived, so I must have arrived after running for 20 minutes.

So I took a step and ran in the rain. It was a good run, as if I had left all my troubles behind. The heat from my body resisted the cool of the rain and the air, and it didn't seem that cold anymore. When I ran home, I felt really happy.

For some reason, I suddenly felt like drinking, so I picked up half a dozen bottled beers at the supermarket outside the neighborhood and ran home.

When I got home, I took a hot bath, then moved a chair to sit on the balcony, put the beer under my feet, looked out the window at the wind and rain, and opened the first beer.

The place I lived in was not where I used to live with Ding Ge. It was filled with so many memories that we moved here.

This is an old neighborhood, so the rent is very cheap. I live on the top of the building, on the sixth floor, and through the window, I can see the main road. Across the road, I can see the lush woods and have a wide view. That's why I like living here.

Most of the time, I look outside, but I don't care about the scenery. I just imagine my memories as a picture, like a director, imagining countless possible scenes that belong to me and Ding Ge.

In fact, there will always be times when people are pretentious, and there will also be times when they are cheap, especially when couples are in the state of breaking up or being disconnected. In the eyes of outsiders, it seems that everything is made, and they deserve it!

It's just that they don't know anything about it! How can you feel that kind of feeling if you don't really have an unforgettable love?

I took a few gulps of beer, all in large gulps, as if swallowing all the bitterness into my stomach, and soon the first beer was empty.

Strangely, when you don't want to drink beer, you feel that the taste of beer is too bitter to swallow, but when you want to drink it, you can completely ignore the taste.

He left the can in his hand aside and opened it.

In fact, I don't really like to drink much, and I don't drink too much. I used to drink when I was with my friends, but I didn't drink as crazily as I did after I broke up with Ding Ge.

I don't like it, but I need it, I need anesthesia, I want to be unconscious, I want to drink until I vomit, and then relieve the pain in my heart by vomiting.

There was a time when he was drunk like crazy, and he was always drunk every day, whether he was asleep or awake. He didn't know whether he was really drunk or too tired.

In the end, something happened to her and she went to the hospital for a few days. She felt as if she had died once. Old Gao and Hu Zi stayed with me for a few days, and when I got better, they gave me a good scolding, and then they kept an eye on me for a while.

After that, I didn't drink without knowing what to do, because the two of them told me to call Ding Ge over like this again. I was afraid, I was afraid that she would see me like this, so I listened to them.

Since then, drinking has been much more controlled, just like I only bought six beers today, because I know I'm fine after drinking these beers, which means I'm tipsy at most.

It felt a little cold, but I didn't really care. The windows on the windowsill were all closed, but because of the lack of repair, they were not so tight. When I put my hand by the window, I could feel the wind pouring fiercely into the room through the cracks.

And sometimes when the rain was heavy, a small piece of the room would leak, but fortunately, it wasn't so serious, so he took a small basin to make ends meet, which was also why the rent was cheap.

For me, who didn't pursue much, there were actually many things I could make ends meet.

Before I knew it, I had finished five cans. I looked at the remaining one and hesitated a little, but I opened it.

He continued to look out the window, perhaps because of the rainy night. The streetlights were dimmed, and it looked especially dark outside tonight, as if the treated sky in the movie had some haze and gray color.

Of course, the moon was nowhere to be seen, but I could still see the trees in the distance. I would always look at the top branches and leaves of the trees. They were the most vulnerable, and they would sway with the slightest wind, but they were very strong. Under the storm, they were still shaking left and right, and the leaves were firmly growing on the branches.

I admire them, as if they will never be defeated.

I think Ding Ge and I have come to an end. It's just, is it over between us again?

"Clang!"

After finishing the last sip of wine, I threw the empty can on the corner of the balcony, stood up and walked to the bedroom.

Lying on the bed, I felt a little cold. I pulled the quilt and covered my whole body. So did my head. Then I closed my eyes.