Chapter 22 : Changes over the Years

I smiled and didn't care what she said.

In fact, over the years, although Lin Ya and I have a very good relationship, she rarely talks about her boyfriend in front of me.

Sometimes even when Ding Ge said a few words, Lin Ya responded very calmly.

So all these years, I didn't know what kind of relationship she had with her second-generation rich boyfriend. She's too low-key. None of our friends have seen her boyfriend, and we don't know why she's so secretive. We'll have to meet him when we get married.

"You said it's been so many years. Why should you keep our relationship a secret?" I said admiringly, "After all these years, you really haven't pulled it out once to let us see. Is it interesting to hide it? We're not big stars, and we don't have to get married and fall in love?"

Lin Ya seemed destined to keep the relationship a secret.

She ignored me and stood there quietly with her arms folded around her chest.

I smiled and asked, "What? Are you angry?"

Lin Ya remained silent.

But I can feel her emotions. We have known each other for so many years. Even if she was expressionless, I could easily tell if she was really angry or not.

So I apologized to Lin Ya and raised my hand, "Okay, okay, my fault. Let's not talk about this, okay?"

Lin Ya just glanced at me. Although his eyes were still cold, they were obviously not angry anymore.

...

After a good meal, everyone left.

Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei went back, Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng left together, leaving Lin Ya and me alone.

Lin Ya said to me, "Let me give you a ride."

I looked at Lin Ya and asked, "Are you going home late? Is it okay to go back?"

"It's okay. Let's go."

Lin Ya walked straight ahead, and I got into Lin Ya's car without being polite to her.

Lin Ya's car was bought last year, and the price was not expensive, about a hundred thousand yuan. I don't think her boyfriend paid for it. Even though they were together, Lin Ya's economy should be independent. Lin Ya didn't spend her boyfriend's money.

Because for so many years, Lin Ya's living expenses were not high, she was still renting a house outside, wearing clothes that never chased famous brands, and never bought expensive bags and shoes. Compared to some fashionable white-collar workers who spent a lot of money every month, Lin Ya's life was really simple.

She usually wears light makeup, but she has to admit that she really doesn't look good with heavy makeup. She looks very vulgar and doesn't suit her.

She was more suitable for the fresh and fresh style of light makeup. In fact, she looked no different from her natural face. Her skin was very white. She was born beautiful, and this word was probably the most appropriate to describe her.

Perhaps she was born into a poor family. Lin Ya had always been very thrifty. Of course, it was a very good habit. I admire her for that. When her salary was higher, she even donated some money every year to the nursing home in her town, and she was very kind.

Although she was usually very vicious and did not speak in a friendly manner, she was a real weakling. I think that's why I was willing to let her off the hook for so many years.

Lin Ya was focused on driving, and I looked out the window a little bored, thinking about our years.

Compared to a few years ago, everyone has changed a lot.

Take Lin Ya for example. A few years ago, we were all at the bottom of the ladder, working hard for a living at a very low salary.

But a few years later, lin ya became a leader, and I was still struggling at the bottom.

Sometimes I wonder if I would have become a photographer if I hadn't left the studio without Lin Ya's second-generation boyfriend.

Ding Ge, she didn't seem to have changed much since we met. When we met her, she went shopping in a company with good family conditions and lived a happy life.

After knowing me, her life changed. The most important thing was to break up with her parents. Even after we broke up, we didn't go home to live.

It can be said that because of me, her life had undergone earth-shaking changes, and I completely messed up her original life!

Old Gao, he was pretty crazy a few years ago. I don't think he and I would have been friends if we weren't classmates. There were too many flaws in him, even now.

However, he really couldn't say anything to his friends. He was very loyal and sincere to others. He would never play tricks on others. If he said he was good to you, he would definitely be good to you. Of course it's not good for you, and it's definitely not good.

Over the years, Old Gao hasn't changed much. He has indeed kept a low profile compared to a few years ago. Although this'low profile' is still a little more high-profile than us, the frequency of trouble is much lower.

In the past few years, his relationship with his family was rather strained because his family hated him for causing trouble all day long, and even for a period of time, he directly cut off his economy. Old Gao was also extremely temperamental and did not look at anyone when he was angry.

Now his relationship with his family had eased a lot. After all, he was his own son, and his parents didn't want his son to suffer outside.

And now he still wants to start his own business, the idea is very good, as long as it is not the nature of the ticket. That depends on his next performance.

As for the love life, although Old Gao's love life was more chaotic most of the time, now that he had Wang Mengmeng, his heart was also tightly tied. It seemed that he was really serious this time.

Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei did not change much, but with years of hard work, their lives were much better than before. And after so many years of love, their relationship was still as strong as an impenetrable wall.

Thinking about these friends, thinking about our lives, I don't know if we can go back in time and do it again.

"Xing Yun?" At this moment, Lin Ya called out to me.

"Ah?" I looked at lin ya.

"Do you feel tired of living?" Lin Ya asked inexplicably.

"How many people are not tired of living?" I frowned, smiled, and looked forward again. The lights of the car opposite me made me dizzy and blurry.

"You know, if you were willing, I would have asked him for the money to pay your debt." Lin Ya brought up that incident again.

So far, I don't know the name of Lin Ya's boyfriend. She always uses a simple' him' to summarize it.

I tilted my head and curled my lips, "You don't want to use his money yourself. Why should I borrow his money? You're not married."

"You mean you'll use it when we get married, right?" Lin Ya quickly added.

"No, no." I really thought that lin ya could do such a thing, so I explained to lin ya, "You know me. I don't like to owe people favors. I don't want to open my mouth to anyone I know, let alone someone I don't know."

"You and Ding Ge won't break up if your brain turns a little."

I frowned and smiled bitterly, "Maybe?"

After what happened, they said something to help me without my help. Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei had saved up some money for me, but they were faced with a lot of things like buying a house, buying a car, and getting married. These things were not far away, and they might come true in a year or two, but I couldn't pay them back in a year or two, so naturally I couldn't borrow their money.

I can't borrow Lin Ya's boyfriend's money, nor can I borrow hers. After all, even if she was the manager, she still worked for someone else. And she had a family that was even more miserable than mine. Although she was a girl, she was the pillar of the family. The whole family was counting on her. Of course, I couldn't borrow her money.

Since I intend to break up with Ding Ge, I will not borrow her money.

Old Gao was the only one who could lend me money. He was a real rich second generation. But I don't really want to reach out to Old Gao, because to put it bluntly, it's still Old Gao's father's, not his.

If it was his nature, everything would be easy, so I did not borrow Old Gao's money, because with my character, even if I borrowed, I would not borrow more.

And at that time, I was afraid of one thing because I made it clear that my mom couldn't take money from my friends, especially Ding Ge. So I was afraid that Ding Ge would give the money to Old Gao and lend it to me in the name of Old Gao, so it was better not to.

It's not as simple as borrowing a few thousand or tens of thousands. It could be returned in a few months. Lin Ya said that things wouldn't go this way if I turned a corner a little, but even if they all lent me money, the hole was still huge, and I would still be in debt, so Ding Ge and I would still break up.

"Sometimes when I look at you, I feel very tired." Lin Ya sighed again.

I deliberately changed the subject and joked, "Do I look so tired?"

"Poverty!"

Lin Ya continued driving, snorted, and said, "Since you are so determined, don't call Ding Ge then?"

I frowned and said sadly, "You know about this?"

"Of course I know." Lin Ya said, "When I called her that day, you two were at the hotel."

I was a little stunned. I remembered that the phone call that night that I couldn't sleep was actually made by Ding Ge?

Not a boyfriend!

It's just that before I could be happy, my chest hurt again. Maybe not at that time, but today is definitely there. Sooner or later, it doesn't make any difference.

"I made a mistake. I won't make it again." I answered lightly.

"Mistake?" Lin Ya said mercilessly, "Your real mistake is not recognizing where you were wrong!"

I didn't follow Lin Ya's words. It was meaningless!

Since Ding Ge has a new boyfriend and I have a new job, we should all look forward and start our new lives.

From now on, we will live our separate lives, and there will be no more intersections in this life!

After Lin Ya sent me back, he drove away without stopping.

I always knew that she wanted me to get back together with Ding Ge. She's been so determined since the first day we broke up. I don't know why, but she never gave up on me.

So many times when we talked about Ding Ge, we always had a bad time. Lin Ya still left unhappily tonight, but it didn't affect our relationship. For so many years, I always felt that Lin Ya was like my family.

Sometimes they quarreled, but after a few days they reconciled, as if nothing had ever happened before.

I climbed upstairs, took the key and entered the door. Numbly, I went to my bedroom and lay on the bed.

Although I had already made up my mind, the news that Lin Ya brought still made me feel indescribably uncomfortable.

It seemed like another sleepless night.

It is said that the best way to cure a broken love is to start a new relationship, but I have no such idea, even if I meet such an outstanding girl as Guzheng.

I don't know why, but sometimes I'd rather be alone.

Even if many nights would be so lonely that it would be hard to feel, the pain in my heart was unspeakable!

But I could only curl up by myself and wrap the quilt tightly around me, as if this would not make me so sad.

...

I spent the next month in the pond.

I spent the day in the pond, and when I got home at night, it was almost dark. If I was tired, I would buy something to eat and stuff my stomach. If I wanted to cook, I would go to the supermarket and buy some food to eat. I would go home and cook by myself.

Because he didn't know how to raise fish at all, everything started from the beginning.

Fortunately, there was a general technician in the pond. He was in his forties and was a good talker. He had the same surname as me. We all called him old meng.

The old man was nice and warm. I asked him everything I didn't know. He was also very proficient in fish culture. He was like the soul of our pond. Without him, Old Gao and I couldn't raise fish at all.

There was a temporary colored board room in the pond, where old meng lived. He was a light bum and had never married a wife in his life, but he would find a young lady to play with from time to time. If he had nothing to do, he would always talk about women with us, such as where the young lady was, where the young lady lived well.

He also loved to drink, and he had to drink a few taels every night to feel comfortable. Similarly, he was an old smoker. He had been smoking for decades, and basically had at least two cartons of cigarettes a day.

But old meng was a reliable worker, or Old Gao wouldn't have used him. He had a sense of propriety, which was the only thing I admired about him.

Old man often tells us dirty jokes. He also likes to make fun of us young people. We are also happy to hear old meng telling us some strange and interesting things.

Sometimes if old meng wanted to go to the county to shoot, Old Gao or I would sleep in the pond at night.

Old Gao is really serious this time. He doesn't look like a boss. He's basically the same as the two of us. Every time I look at the sweat on his face, I feel that he has grown a lot more than before.

So I have nothing to worry about. It seems very busy and fulfilling to work in the pond peacefully. I can learn a lot with old meng every day. I think this kind of life is good.

But I don't know why, I don't like this kind of fullness, because my heart is still empty. I felt like I was sitting in a house, collapsing into ruins.

Although this situation was different from the previous zombie decadence, I felt that there was no difference between the two. I was still unhappy and still lived very tired.

I haven't heard anything about Ding Ge in a month. In fact, if I wanted to know, I would know, but I didn't dare.

I want to let her and I just walk away from each other. This was supposed to be going on all the time, but I dragged it back to Green city railway station again.

That day, Old Gao brought me a few big fish that he caught. He knew I liked fish. He often does this, and sometimes it's inevitable that fish will die when caught, so we eat them ourselves.

But I looked at the fish in Old Gao's hands and said, "It's still alive. Sell it." There are a lot of fish. We can't make enough money by selling them. We should eat, drink and not be wronged." Old Gao grinned at me.

I knew that since Old Gao said he would give me the fish, it was useless for me to persuade him. He was like this.

"Can you hurt yourself like that?"

Old Gao laughed and said, "Let's go. It's a little late tonight. Leave the car. I'll take you home." Well, you can take me to my aunt's house today. I thought about it and said.

"What? Old Gao asked.

I can't eat this fish at all. Send it to my aunt's house."

Old Gao looked at me and said helplessly, "Here are some live fish for you. You're still thinking about your aunt. You're such a filial child." My aunt is so close to me, of course I have to be filial."

After that incident, my aunt took out a hundred thousand dollars without saying anything. My aunt has been very close to me since I was a child. It's no different from her own son. If I don't kiss her, it's no different from a beast.

On the way, I called my aunt and told her that I would be there in a while. She was very happy to hear that and asked me to come quickly.

Looking out the window at the scenery, I could not help but breathe out. The disaster that my cousin and I had experienced in the past, involved many people, but I don't know how many.

At this moment, Old Gao looked at me and asked, "By the way, Xing Yun, did you get the girl you went on a blind date with? I never heard you say that." No." I replied.

"What's wrong? Old Gao asked again.

"I don't see eye to eye. I said.

Old Gao looked at me and smiled. "Stop talking to me. I don't know what you think. Old Gao put a hand on my shoulder and I was shocked. I quickly knocked his hand off and said quickly," damn, what are you doing? Drive well. Old Gao honestly put his hand away and said," Xing Yun, I've told you a hundred times. You can't live with your memories. You have to look forward, you have to open your heart." And open your heart?"" I hurt Old Gao." Do you know what heart means?" Damn, don't interrupt! Old Gao glared at me and continued," I know how you feel. I used to have an unforgettable relationship, but now, isn't Wang Mengmeng and I good? I looked at Old Gao doubtfully and asked in surprise," you actually had an unforgettable relationship?" Of course! Old Gao's eyes widened

"Why didn't I hear you say that? I asked curiously. Old Gao's words made me sound like a joke. This guy has always been a saint of love. When did he become a lover?

For some reason, Old Gao suddenly lost interest and was a little depressed. The corner of his mouth twitched slightly and he said, "What else are you going to say when it's all over? Hey, let's not talk about the past, let's talk about the present. You almost got me involved." I frowned a little, and seeing Old Gao's reaction, it seems that he really loved her! But why have I never heard him say that?

I can't help but think back to Old Gao's girlfriends all those years. If I wanted to write a book about Old Gao's feelings, it would be a very thick novel. Not to mention the female lead, the number of female supporting roles would definitely not be small.

But we've known each other since high school. If he had such a relationship, I think I should have remembered it.

Ah, maybe he has too many girlfriends and can't remember them clearly.

Old Gao rubbed his nose and said, "Xing Yun, you have to learn to put it down sooner or later. The past is the past." I lay back, exaggerating." Are you trying to poison me?" Damn, I'm making chicken soup for you! Old Gao cursed.

I chuckled and adjusted my seat back.

Old Gao gave me a look, took a breath, and said, "Hey! This whole bunch of people are worrying about you, so you're the only one who doesn't care, right? Just do it!" Why did I do it? "" Why does it feel like a lot of people have been targeting me lately?

"You... You can't keep your heart shut, you know? This road is blocked by his mother, which girl can enter your heart. I don't expect you to go to the bottom of others' hearts, but you should at least give them a way out, right? Old Gao said like a master," you have to try to accept other girls. There might be something suitable for you, right? You have to admit that there are still a lot of good girls in this world. It's useless to think about those who don't belong to you." I know what Old Gao means, but I know what he means.

But there are many times when it is useless to be persuaded about such things as feelings, and you can only walk out alone.

I smiled at Old Gao and said, "When did you become so eloquent?"

"All right, all right. Old Gao saw that I was always joking and said dully," I'm too lazy to talk about you. You can handle your own business. Soon after, Old Gao sent me to my aunt's house and drove away.

I knocked on the door, and soon my aunt opened it. When she saw me, she said directly, "Hurry up, I'm waiting for you to come back for dinner." What are you waiting for me for? Just eat first, auntie. I said to my aunt with a smile.

My aunt looked at the fish I was carrying and asked, "What else are you doing with the fish?" This is from Old Gao. You can eat." I said," just let me know when you want to eat fish in the future." Oh, that's so embarrassing. My aunt knew my friend Old Gao and that I was working in his pond. She said to me," you can do a good job with him." Yes, I know."

My aunt and I were talking when we entered the house. My cousin was there, but what I didn't expect was that Guzheng was there.