Chapter 38 Lin Ya's Bed

Lin Ya's words pulled me into a abyss!

It was as if someone had suddenly choked my throat. My heart was so tight that I couldn't breathe. My face was flushed, and my blood became restless.

That day!

The last thing I want to think about is that day. I don't want to think about that day for the rest of my life.

It was just that the overwhelming force crushed me, and the images unfolded before me like calluses, and my heart felt like it was being stabbed again and again!

I closed my eyes, gritted my teeth, and held my hands tightly, trying to suppress the tumbling emotions in my body.

I seemed to be speechless, and I didn't dare to follow Lin Ya's words.

Even though I couldn't see Ding Ge after the breakup that day, the hysterical shouts coming from outside the door made me extremely sad! I know that Ding Ge's pain is no less or even more than mine, because I'm the one who broke up!

She did nothing wrong.

She loved me so much, but I brought her such an ending!

When Ding Ge moved out of the house, her thin figure was so pitiful, as if abandoned by the whole world, but she still had me. Without me, she really had nothing.

I heard Lin Ya pulling the curtain. Not long after, Lin Ya's soft voice reached my ears.

"Do you know, Xing Yun? In fact, I have already guessed that you might do this. You would choose to break up with Ding Ge and face everything alone. However, you only know how to think from your own perspective, but you never thought what would happen after Ding Ge left you?"

Lin Ya was there the day we broke up.

When I drove Ding Ge out the door, she kept crying and shouting, but she refused to leave. She used her hands to hit the door between us countless times, and the knocking made my heart break.

I gritted my teeth and looked ferocious, trying to stop the urge to open the door in a cruel way.

Later, Ding Ge gradually lost her strength and her hoarse voice was filled with despair. Although I could not hear her voice in the room, my intuition told me that dinger did not leave.

So I called Lin Ya and asked her to take Ding Ge away.

Lin ya came and asked me to open the door, but I didn't dare, so she called me. But I could hear her voice from the room.

Lin Ya said a lot, but I was unmoved. I made up my mind that I was like a stubborn stone. Finally, Lin Ya scolded me a few more times. I just told Lin Ya without any emotion to take Lin Ya away and take Ding Ge's other things away when I was free.

After all, the two of us lived together, and Ding Ge's things couldn't be packed in a single suitcase.

Later, Lin Ya took Ding Ge away.

"That day... When I took Ding Ge away, she was crying, not saying a word, just crying, that kind of crying... I really don't know how to describe that kind of crying, like a tragic cry, a desperate sob."

"In the end, there was almost no sound, no tears in her eyes, no expression on her face, just like a fool, like... Like she was dead. Did you know what she looked like, Xing Yun? I really cut your heart into pieces."

"For the first few days, she hardly ate anything. Every day, she just lay on the bed and lay there for the whole day. Sometimes, when she woke up, the pillow was always wet. It looked like... Like a lunatic who was out of his mind!" Every word Lin Ya said was like an arrow shooting at me, and I felt the pain of a thousand arrows piercing my heart.

"But, do you know Xing Yun?" Lin Ya's voice was slightly choked up, "Just like that, she still thinks about you. She desperately wants to find you, to be with you, to be with you. But I know that it will only be worse if she goes, and with your character, you will only hurt her once more, so... I can only stop her, stop her dead. She had no strength at all and was exhausted, but she still didn't give up. She asked me to look for you, to take care of you, to see how you were doing..."

"Don't... Say... Okay?" Trembling, I tried my best to spit out a few words.

Lin Ya was silent for a moment, but not long after that, she said again, "You guys broke up. You can get yourself drunk, numb yourself with alcohol, and vent. But for the woman, she could only cry over and over again. She could not do anything. She cried until there were no tears left. Great sorrow without tears, do you know Xing Yun? When there were no tears on ding ge's face, the way she looked, I would rather see her cry in pain! The damage you've caused her will never heal!"

Listening to Lin Ya's words, the tears in my eyes fell uncontrollably.

It hurts!

I only felt a special pain on my body, as if a slight movement was the pain of tendons and bones, a thousand times more painful than the hit on my head!

I know, I know what a cruel thing I've done. Not to mention that Ding Ge won't forgive me, I won't even forgive myself!

I would rather live my whole life in grief.

Even if it was my punishment, I would never complain.

My mind couldn't help but imagine what Ding Ge looked like back then. I couldn't help sobbing. I wanted to, but my shoulders couldn't stop shaking. Tears were falling down. The emotions in my heart drowned me and suffocated me.

The corners of my mouth twitched uncontrollably. I gritted my teeth as hard as I could, but my teeth were also trembling fiercely. There were salty tears in my mouth.

At this moment, I suddenly felt a warm body approaching me.

I know. It was Lin Ya who hugged me!

A few days after I broke up with Ding Ge, Lin Ya came to pick up the rest of dinger's luggage. My eyes were red as I opened the door for her. I thought she would take it out on Ding Ge, scold me, even slap me in the face. But she didn't. She just gave me a hug like this.

That warm and soft hug made the fragile me burst into tears.

All these years, it seemed like she would always give me the warmest care when I was most vulnerable!

After a while, my mood gradually eased. Lin Ya handed me two pieces of paper and I wiped the tears off my face.

Lin Ya did not laugh at me, but quietly stayed by my side. After a while, I smiled awkwardly. I lay back and looked away, "Girl, have I said thank you for all these years?"

"What, do you want to say it?" Lin Ya asked.

But before I could say anything, Lin Ya added, "No need. We are chinese, different from foreigners. There is no need to thank you. I love you and always talk about them. We have our way and our way of expressing ourselves, and I understand your look. Without words, it's polite to say it."

Lin Ya's words made me feel a little embarrassed. If she said so, naturally, my thanks would not come out.

I don't want to think about the breakup again. It feels like I've experienced it again.

So I forced myself to think about other things, to think about my friendship with Lin Ya over the years.

Lin Ya was known earlier than dinger, and Ding Ge was also known because of Lin Ya. I seem to have known Lin Ya for so long that I can't remember what it was like to meet her for the first time.

Just like most people, they started out in a work world where they knew each other but were not familiar with each other. They came into contact by chance, and then came the frenzied growth of friendships. They became so familiar that they couldn't finish their words.

That period of time was actually very simple and happy. We were simply working towards the so-called dream and looking forward to a bright future. There were occasional complaints about work, fatigue, and sadness, but after telling each other about it, it was as if the worries were no longer important.

Even when we were at work, sometimes our colleagues would make fun of us, but neither of us cared.

I asked lin ya, "Girl, how long have we known each other?"

"Actually, not many years, maybe five or six years." Lin Ya thought about it and replied.

"Why does it feel like I've known you for a long time? It seems like I've known Old Gao longer." I don't know why I feel this way. I can't tell.

"That means we are destined." Lin Ya said casually.

"Do you believe in fate?" I asked.

"I don't know." Lin Ya shook his head, then sighed sadly and said, "What is fate? But it's fate for us to be here."

I nodded and joked, "Maybe it's because we knew each other in our previous lives, so we've known each other for a long time."

"Then tell me how much abuse I had to inflict in my previous life. I still have to know you in this life."

"I don't want to see you!"

Lin Ya smiled and said to me, "Do you remember shu yunying, the makeup artist from the studio?"

I nodded. I still remember.

He's married to our photographer, chen zhen. Now we have children."

"Really? Didn't the two of them not like each other back then? They actually got married?" These were all former colleagues who still had impressions.

"This is called a happy enemy." Lin Ya said with a smile.

As Lin Ya and I chatted, it was getting late into the night. The other patients in the same ward had already fallen asleep. Lin Ya and I didn't dare to speak loudly, afraid of disturbing others'rest. We just whispered and laughed. While chatting with Lin Ya, the pain seemed to have disappeared temporarily.

Gradually, both of them were a little sleepy. I couldn't bear to let a girl like Lin Ya sleep on the bed, so I wanted to give her the bed. I just had a few stitches on my head. I was already very sorry that Lin Ya took the initiative to accompany the bed.

In the end, both parties insisted, so we asked for a hospital bed, but this bed was very hard and uncomfortable. I let Lin Ya sleep in the hospital bed and spent the night with him.

Maybe it was because I talked to Lin Ya. I didn't lose sleep that night. I fell asleep a little tired.

I think it would have been a particularly difficult night without Lin Ya.

The next day, Lin Ya had to go to the studio, so he left after breakfast with me. I didn't go back to the ward for the time being. I just stood in a quiet place in the hospital, breathing the air outside.

When he returned to the ward, he found fruit on the cabinet beside him?

I thought to myself, did someone come to see me while I was away?

I was so excited that I couldn't help but guess at a name in my heart. Could it be the person I was looking forward to?