I looked at Lin Ya, trying to read her mind. Why did I suddenly want to drink in the middle of the night? But the beer that lin ya brought brought has aroused my desire again.
After a long night, a beer, a cool breeze, and a song playing on his phone, it was a good choice.
Lin Ya smiled at me and waited quietly for my answer.
I nodded. Since everyone is here, let's drink, so I went to the car to get lin ya a beer.
Then the two of us came to the pond with the wine and put the beer on the ground. We sat on a soft grass without any fuss. I twisted open two bottles of beer and handed Lin Ya one.
"Is there anything sad?" I bumped into Lin Ya and asked.
Lin Ya took a big gulp and sneered, "What's so sad about it? Can only drink when you're sad?"
"No." I smiled faintly, but Lin Ya couldn't hide it from my eyes. Although she seemed especially calm, I could feel that she didn't seem that happy.
We have known each other for so many years, and we have known each other very well. I can see the fluctuations in her heart with one small action of hers, so she rarely hides her sadness in front of me.
In fact, they used to drink together a lot, and lin ya was also very good at drinking, comparable to me, especially heroic. It was hard to get her drunk. We even fought a few times, and the odds were half. It seemed embarrassing to say that a man could not drink a girl.
But ever since Lin Ya bought a car, he rarely drank with her, let alone drink alone.
I looked at lin ya and asked, "Why did you bring ji ze out all of a sudden? I thought you were going to hide it for the rest of your life."
"Everyone changes, Xing Yun. You will change, I will change, we will all change." Lin Ya looked at me in a daze and said, "I didn't let you see him before. Now I want you to see him. It's that simple. Just like you, you wanted to break up with Ding Ge before. Maybe after a while, you want to get back together with her."
With that said, Lin Ya took a sip of his own wine. The beer at the corner of his mouth shone slightly and his expression looked a little cool.
My mouth trembled and I didn't know what to say. Lin Ya's simple words answered the questions that had been piling up in my mind for many years, and indirectly avoided them. Then, suddenly, he mentioned me and Ding Ge, not knowing what he meant.
I also took a sip of the wine, and many questions about Ji Ze were a little hard to ask.
Even the most intimate friends and the need for space, so there are some things that lin ya doesn't say, I really don't want to force her.
But I will stay with her!
Lin Ya turned to me and said, "What happened to you today? Why don't you go out to dinner with us? You like noodles so much?"
"What am I going to do with the three of you, a pond owner, a studio manager, and a future investor?" I said casually.
"If this is the reason, then our friendship will be broken!" Lin ya looked at me with a very serious gaze.
I was shocked by her because I knew Lin Ya could do it as soon as he said it. So I quickly smiled and replied, "No, no, you know, I've never envied a few people in my life, and I've never felt inferior. Otherwise, I wouldn't have done it with Old Gao, would I?"
Lin ya looked at me and asked, "Why is that?"
Can I say it's because of Ji Ze?
Of course not!
Since Lin Ya and Ji Ze are so stable, how can I destroy their relationship?
Let bygones be bygones.
After all, it's just jealousy. It's not cheating or anything. Jealousy means that the other party values you.
I shook my head and said, "I really don't want to go."
"Is it because of Ji Ze?"
I looked at Lin Ya in surprise. She could really see through my heart at once. I smiled guiltily and said, "Why do you think so? We just met today."
"Because..." Lin ya looked at me and said slowly, "I don't think you like him."
I shook my head and smiled, "We don't know each other very well. What do you like or dislike?"
Lin Ya seemed to want to see something in my eyes, but she didn't get any results.
Then Lin Ya didn't ask any more questions. We were just drinking and staring at the pond, not talking to each other.
The pond was very quiet, unlike in the city where there were faint sounds at night and the occasional sound of cars coming from the streets. It was especially quiet here. Even the sound of the wind did not affect the silence at all. It was beautiful, and the beautiful voice made people speak softly.
It made people unwilling to destroy or disturb...
"How long has it been since we drank like this?" After a long time, Lin Ya said softly.
I glanced at her and replied, "You're a girl. It's better to drink less. It's easy to lose if you drink too much."
"Actually, I've been drinking a lot more in the past two years." Lin Ya let out a breath, which was filled with suppressed exhaustion.
I know that Lin Ya's job inevitably requires social engagements. A girl who wants to work in the mall sometimes gets more tired than a man.
This is why some women turn themselves into strong women. Women are really vulnerable to bullying. The mall is a wolf's world, and a lamb will be eaten sooner or later.
"But I don't drink well. I'd rather just follow you guys, even if it's just two or three yuan a bottle of beer, it's more comfortable than drinking maotai wuliangye red wine in a hotel." Lin Ya pursed her lips, the corners of which quivered slightly.
I looked at her thin figure and felt deeply her usual hardships and fatigue.
But that's not what I usually see with Lin Ya. She's always full of energy, as if she had a plan in her mind, as if nothing could stop her.
All these years, I have seen her beauty, but I have neglected the hardships behind her.
She must be tired when she comes home alone, right?
But now, I rarely ask her these questions. I feel a little ashamed to ask her about her work. As a friend, I seem to care too little about Lin Ya for more than a year.
But I saw her help for me.
Although it seemed that Lin Ya helped Old Gao more with the collaboration between the studio and the pond, I knew in my heart that she was helping me too. I could feel her feelings, but my heart was clear without saying anything.
"Actually, that's why I bought a car, you know?" Lin Ya said, "With a car, there's a reason not to drink. That way I can protect myself, but sometimes it's useless to have a car. If they want you to drink, you have to."
"Such a person is actually quite cheap!" I clenched my fists and said.
But there's no way. Eighty to ninety percent of our business is done at dinner. There's always a lot of helplessness and helplessness in our lives, let alone in the mall.
"What can you do?" Lin Ya continued, "If you want to keep this job, you have to make some sacrifices, right? As you said, we can't just live for ourselves! I still have my father, my mother, my grandmother, my brother. I have to earn money. I have to make them better if I don't live well. That's why I..."
Suddenly, Lin Ya's voice rose, but in the end, she stopped abruptly. I didn't know what she wanted to say.
Lin Ya gritted her teeth. I could see her forbearance and strength, and I could feel the strength and perseverance in her heart!
Looking at her like this, my heart ached indescribably, maybe a little excited. Lin Ya choked and coughed a few times. I put my hand behind Lin Ya's back and patted her.
"You can rest when you're tired, okay?" I said, "It's much better now than before. Your family is safe and healthy, your work is stable, and you still have Ji Ze, don't you?"
"Ji Ze..."
Lin Ya whispered her boyfriend's name.
She seemed to have something to hide, but she didn't say anything, just put the bottle in her mouth for a long time, and then raised her neck to drink.
I suddenly remembered that time I asked lin ya, how was her relationship with Ji Ze? Does she love Ji Ze or not? But she gave me an ambiguous answer, and I still can't figure out what kind of relationship Lin Ya and Ji Ze had.
But I believe that all of this will come to light one day.
"Girl, is she good to you?" I asked with concern.
"Okay." Lin Ya bit his lips gently and looked at the calm water in the pond, "He's really good, he's really good."
I looked at Lin Ya and could tell that she wasn't lying. Her expression was calm, which made me feel uncomfortable.
But I didn't ask any more. I nodded and chuckled, "That's good. That's good."
"Stop talking about me. Talk about you." Lin Ya took a breath, looked at me and asked, "What about you? Does it hurt to think of Ding Ge now?"
I held the bottle and smiled bitterly, not knowing how to answer.
Then I'll have to drink!
Lin Ya pursed his lips and didn't ask me anything more. The two of us touched our glasses lightly, and the sound of cans colliding quietly spread across the pond.
That night, lin ya and I chatted and drank, not as fast as we drank. Sometimes we just looked at the water quietly. Sometimes we chatted softly, talked about our lives, talked about our work, talked about our past, talked about our future, talked about insignificant bits and pieces, talked about everything. Sometimes we smiled, sometimes we clinked our glasses, sometimes we had a telepathic silence.
When you're tired of talking, drink some wine, rest, and then talk...
We've been drinking for hours!
It was dawn.
The wine was also gone.
In the early morning, Lin Ya and I watched the sun rise from the horizon, and the pond shone even more brightly.