Hu Zi smiled bitterly and shook his head, "Even if she didn't want it, she had to pay her back."
"What the hell!" I said angrily, "This is what we deserve. Since she wants it for us, why should she give it back to her? Does she still care about this little money?"
"No, I'll pay her back every penny she takes." Hu Zi said firmly.
I don't understand why Hu Zi did this. He wanted to scold him but felt sorry for him, but I still don't understand why he asked, "Why?"
Hu Zi snorted and said, "No reason. When I see this house, the things that belong to her in this room, I feel particularly disgusted. You say, can I have her things?"
But...
I thought about it. Maybe Hu Zi was right. If he really wants to make that decision, then listen to him.
I asked him, "What are you going to do next?"
"I don't think I can live in this house anymore. So I want to sell it as soon as possible and then sell the car as well." Hu Zi said calmly, as if he was going to sell a pile of scrap metal.
"Damn, what are you doing?" I couldn't help but curse. Hu Zi's house and car had only been bought for a short time, but if they were sold, even if they were new, they would be second-hand houses and cars, and the price would definitely be discounted. Hu Zi was really losing money by doing so.
"I really don't want to live here. If I stay in this house for one more minute, I feel sick for one more minute." Hu Zi's eyes shone with cold light. I looked at his expression. It seemed that he still hated Li Xiaowei very much, or else he wouldn't have said that.
Indeed, Hu Zi had his reasons. Although I still thought his decision was particularly stupid, I still said, "Well, you make your own decisions, as long as you think it through and don't regret it."
Hu Zi smiled and said, "I quit my job. What's there to regret?"
I was stunned again. I didn't expect Hu Zi to quit his salary. Li Xiaowei had asked him to resign and they had a conflict because of it. I'm afraid this is Hu Zi's compromise again.
But even so, it still won't bring this relationship back!
"You're so stupid, Hu Zi!"
Hu Zi seemed to understand what I was thinking and explained, "I just want to let everything go and start over. Don't worry, I'm still me. I just want to change. I used to be too tired and want to live more relaxed."
Hu Zi seemed determined to make these major changes. I looked at Hu Zi, who seemed to have quietly changed. I didn't know if this betrayal would be another blessing for him, to let him live another life.
I thought about it and said, "Well, since you're going to sell your house and car, if you don't mind, you can live in the house I rented. I was going to check out."
Hu Zi looked at me doubtfully and asked, "Why did you check out?"
I haven't told anyone about my plans to teach in the countryside, so I told Hu Zi about what happened in my family recently.
Hu Zi was surprised for a while, then said to me, "In that case, why don't you get back together with Ding Ge?"
My mother had already told me once before, and I really wanted to, especially these nights, I had a vague desire to lose control of my heart. But I really don't have that face anymore.
Ding Ge is not a toy, I can throw it away and pick it up!
I shook my head and chatted with Hu Zi for a while. He asked me again, "Have you really decided?"
I nodded.
Although my heart is also particularly confused, what I have done is right or wrong?
After that, Hu Zi and I moved some of his things into my rented apartment, where he lived. And he did plan to sell his house and car. I wanted to take care of him for a few more days, but it seemed that Hu Zi was in a good condition, so I went back.
After all, my mother has already agreed with others that it would be better for me to be a teacher as soon as possible.
Except for Hu Zi, I still didn't tell anyone about myself!
When I got back, I started my very short teaching career!
In short, when I started my internship at school, I realized that the real situation was much more complicated than I thought. For example, the salary, I know it will not be high, but it is much less than I thought, and can only slowly endure the qualifications, but at that time I did not care too much, I just want to stabilize.
However, perhaps I really don't like the profession of teacher, I really find it difficult to integrate myself into it. When my teacher led me to try to teach in class, my condition inexplicably became very bad, the effect of the lecture was really too bad, even I couldn't stand it. This made me feel very uncomfortable, and I felt very incompetent. I couldn't do such a small thing.
This kind of life makes me suffer a lot.
I don't know what the problem is.
I really wanted to finish the lesson, so I tried to figure out the rhythm of the lesson, the way I spoke and the tone of my voice over and over again, imagining the scene during the lecture, but the effort didn't seem to change the situation much.
The situation lasted a week.
During dinner at night, my mother kept quiet as if she had finally made up her mind before she said to me, "Xing Yun, if you really don't want to be a teacher, don't do it."
"No." I smiled and said, "You guys used to want me to be a teacher."
"Well, it used to be before. Now it seems that we shouldn't have forced you back then. You're really not fit to be a teacher. Don't be shy. If you don't want to do it, I'll tell them tomorrow."
After a moment of silence, I said, "No, I think it's good to be a teacher."
"But you're not happy!"
My mother's words suddenly touched a chord in my heart. Happy? I don't seem to have thought about this at all. Now that I think about these days, I seem to find that it's really like what my mother said. I'm really unhappy!
Although I had been depressed by that lost emotion, I was still very engaged, free and relaxed when I was in the pond, but at school, I couldn't imagine myself smiling happily.
I think, maybe this is also the reason why I can't teach well. Smiles on the podium are not from the heart, so the students will naturally contradict me from the heart.
I suddenly felt a little unspeakably sad.
...
A few days later, a man came to the town by accident.
Guzheng.
Guzheng's arrival surprised me. I didn't expect her to come to our town.
And she didn't call me before. She called me when she got to school and told me she was at the school gate. I was having dinner with my parents in the house, and I got goosebumps when I heard what she said. What a surprise!
I quickly put down the dishes, told my mother something, and ran out.
Sure enough, Guzheng was standing right in front of the school gate, leaning against the front of the car. She was dressed in exquisite clothes that looked quite stylish, but she didn't look very energetic. I walked up to her and asked, "Why are you here?"
"Are you going to leave without saying goodbye?" Guzheng looked me in the eye and asked coldly.
I think she probably got my news from Hu Zi. As a neighbor, she'll find out sooner or later that I'm not living there. I smiled awkwardly and said, "No."
Guzheng snorted and asked, "Really? How's your teaching going?"
I recognized the sarcasm in her tone and said quickly, "Okay, let's not talk about this. You haven't eaten yet. Let's go. I'll treat you to dinner."
Guzheng didn't mess with me in front of the school gate. I got into her car and Guzheng took me to a restaurant.
The two of us found a seat and sat down. Guzheng still seemed to be angry with me. There was no smile on his expressionless face. After a while, the food was served and Guzheng didn't seem to have much appetite. She put down her chopsticks and looked at me and asked, "You came here to avoid me on purpose, didn't you?"
"No." I shook my head.
"I don't understand." Guzheng continued, "Since your debt is gone, why are you staying here to avoid everything? Don't you want to get back together with Ding Ge?"
That's what the third person told me recently.
I shook my head.
Guzheng glared at me and said, "You're lying!"
I smiled bitterly and did not explain.
"Since the problem between you has been solved? Then why?" Guzheng said decisively, "If you two really get back together, I wish you well and I won't bother you anymore."
I don't know when it started, but I had developed a reluctance to explain everything, but I couldn't get rid of Guzheng, so I replied, "Have you ever heard a song before? It's called" there's a kind of love called letting go."
"I really haven't heard of it." Guzheng said with some disdain, "You mean to let go because of love, right?"
I was silent for a moment and nodded.
"Cut. I don't know who will let go because of their love. I'm afraid they'll hold on tight. You're the only one who's stupid."
"Then you like it." I couldn't help but joke with Guzheng.
"I..." Guzheng paused, not knowing what to say. After a while, she said leisurely, "If you really want to let go, why don't you accept other girls?"
I could hear the deep loneliness in her words, but I couldn't answer her question.
"Okay, let's not talk about this." Guzheng looked up again, smoothed his hair, looked at me and said with a smile, "Mr. Meng? Hehe, I didn't expect you to become a teacher."
"What's wrong? Can't I?"
"Forget it." Guzheng looked at me and said, "Just think of it as a few days of fun. I won't force you to work in our company, but you don't have to work here anymore. Find another job or find a way to start a business. I'll support you. Why don't you come back to Pucheng with me? Okay?"