However, when the opening date of the restaurant was set and approaching, I suddenly had a kind of inexplicable panic. I could not explain this kind of state clearly. My heart was particularly complicated and chaotic, as if countless lines were tangled into a ball, and could not be separated.
Boredom, depression, depression, panic, uneasiness...
Hu Zi and I were different. He seemed to have a lot of energy on him. He was full of energy. Even the fatigue of a day would not decrease. He was full of energy. He was in a completely different state from me. All I could see from his face was effort and confidence without any worry.
I think most of it was because the previous accident left a huge shadow on me, and I still couldn't get rid of the dark cloud in my heart. Even though it was much smaller, I still didn't completely defeat it.
And this time the restaurant opened, it suddenly gave me a feeling, as if the enemy who defeated me had returned, and I faced it again. Although I had help this time, I don't know if I would win.
Even if I feel that the balance of victory has tilted towards us, because we used so much strength. But I don't know if there will be any other accidents. I think I'm still afraid of failure.
The last three days were not as busy as before.
Hu Zi came back to take a shower and went to sleep. I went back to my room and couldn't sleep no matter what.
Looking out the window, there was not much light coming through. All I could see was the grey sky. The stars could not be seen, the moon could not be seen. Would tomorrow be a good day?
I can't sleep. I can't sleep again.
Only the insomniacs could taste this.
Instead of lying on the bed, I walked to the living room, where there was beer. I took a few bottles and sat where I used to sit, looking out into the gray forest.
In the past, when there were stars and moonlight, I could see the forest clearly. Today, I could only see a few shadows and outlines. Everything became blurry. I stared at the shadow and wanted to see the swaying branches clearly.
It was autumn and most of the leaves had fallen.
As I drank the beer, the anxiety in my heart did not diminish at all. I wanted to talk to someone, but at this point I was probably already asleep.
I looked at the time. It was only a few minutes before twelve o' clock.
But my eyes were so bright, as if I wanted to find light in this darkness.
Who should I talk to?
The corners of my mouth curved a little. Hu Zi was too tired, so let him go. Old Gao was in even worse mood these days. It was better not to bother him. Then Lin Ya appeared in my mind.
There were only a few people who could confide in me, and the rest were mostly ordinary friends.
This girl used to harass me in the middle of the night, so I thought about it and immediately left for Lin Ya's house.
I didn't dare to drive because I drank a little wine, so I rode my tram and set off. It was a cool breeze along the way, especially when I was riding a bike. The cold wind kept pouring into my body, and I became more energetic. I didn't feel sleepy at all.
I didn't drink much, so it was okay to ride a bike, and there weren't many cars on the road, so I came to lin ya's house very smoothly.
Perhaps it was too familiar. I didn't feel that it was inappropriate to go to a girl's house in the middle of the night. I knocked on the door of lin ya's house shamelessly.
Soon, the door opened.
The door was quickly opened, and the cold wind seemed to show the anger of the hostess. Before Lin Ya saw me, he shouted, "Ji Ze, you're not going to stop in the middle of the night, are you?"
However, when she saw that it was me, Lin Ya suddenly froze, but her face did not soften much. When she saw me, she frowned and asked unhappily, "Why are you here?"
I looked at Lin Ya. She was wearing pajamas and her hair was in a mess. Obviously, I woke her up from her sleep. I couldn't help but feel guilty.
Lin ya walked into the room. I came in and closed the door. I asked, "I'm already asleep."
Lin Ya gave a faint "Oh," yawned and asked, "What's the matter?"
"Nothing." I replied with a slight smile.
Lin Ya didn't wake up and looked at me, frowning deeply, as if to ask if it was okay that you came to my house in the middle of the night? I scratched my head and smiled, "I can't sleep."
Lin Ya's face suddenly changed. He gave me a hard look and gritted his teeth, "You can't sleep. I can sleep!"
I opened my mouth and was speechless.
Lin Ya scratched her hair helplessly and asked, "Why can't you sleep?"
"A little anxious..."
Because I didn't want to make it so clear. If I told Lin Ya that I was worried about the opening of the restaurant, she would probably be able to guess the truth.
Lin Ya sighed and said speechlessly, "Okay, if you can't sleep, go watch tv. I'm too lazy to talk to you. I'm going to bed in the middle of the night."
Seeing Lin Ya like this, I couldn't help but feel a little distressed. I thought that she could harass me without any scruples in the past, and I couldn't do as she wanted, so I said, "Okay, you go to sleep."
"Well, do as you please. You know where all the food is at home. I really won't greet you." Then Lin Ya went straight into the bedroom.
I sighed silently. I thought Lin Ya might not have slept, but I didn't expect him to. Then let her go back to sleep, but she's a little disappointed, and there's still no one to talk to?
I sat in the living room of lin ya's house and lay there, not thinking of going back immediately. It was so cold after riding all the way here that she finally came to lin ya's house. She really didn't have the courage or the strength to go back immediately.
I turned on the tv at lin ya's house and watched it in boredom.
I was not polite, just as casually at home, looking at the grapes washed on the table, and directly brought the plate over.
Her tv could be connected to the internet, so I found a horror movie, "The god of death 5," and watched it. Instead of making myself so anxious, I might as well watch a horror movie to get myself into fear and stimulate myself, but I was afraid to wake Lin Ya up and didn't dare to turn it on too loudly.
But before long, Lin Ya came out of the bedroom.
I thought it was the sound of the tv that disturbed her, so I lowered my voice. Lin Ya came to me with her hair down and her eyes staring at me. Because I was watching a horror movie, I felt a chill when Lin Ya glared at me.
I asked, "Why are you up?"
"What do you think? You woke me up. I can't sleep like you!" Lin Ya sat down on the other half of the sofa and lay down as comfortably as I did. Our feet were facing each other, and Lin Ya looked at me angrily.
I chuckled and said, "You'd better go back and lie down. You'll slowly fall asleep."
"It's weird to fall asleep!"
Lin Ya, who also liked horror movies, stared at the screen and started watching tv, so two people who couldn't sleep started watching horror movies in the middle of the night.
Lin Ya was very interested in horror movies, but he didn't have the guts. In the past, we used to get together and watch horror movies, but we didn't go to the cinema. The horror movies in the cinema were so weird that we all stayed at home after downloading them online.
The lights were on in the room, and the numbing sounds on the tv kept coming, and the pores were all open in excitement. Fortunately, lin ya was here, and the two of them watched a horror movie together, feeling as if they could share the fear with the other person.
At this moment, Lin Ya suddenly said to me, "There's something in the kitchen. Go and make something to eat. I'm hungry."
"Aren't you afraid of being fat when women eat supper?"
"Not afraid." Lin Ya looked at me confidently, glared at me again, and snorted coldly, "Can't you disturb my sleep and let you make a meal?"
"Why did you bother me before?"
I muttered in a low voice and went to the kitchen.
Lin Ya followed me, and I asked, "What are you doing here?"
"I watch horror movies alone at night. Am I sick?"
I was stunned. Did she mean that I was sick?
I swept through Lin Ya's kitchen. There weren't many ingredients. I could only make her a bowl of noodle soup and an egg. But it's better not to eat such a greasy supper.
Ding Ge had a bad stomach. Once he had supper, and the next day he had a bad day.
I took a bowl to beat the eggs and picked some vegetables. Lin Ya asked me, "What's wrong with you? What's the anxiety in the middle of the night?"
I replied, "It's nothing. Maybe I've been too busy these past few days. I'm so busy that I'm panicking. Besides, the restaurant is about to open, and I'm afraid the business is not good."
I didn't dare to go into too much detail, so I tried to mention the restaurant as lightly as possible.
"Just worry about it, Hu Zi. What are you worrying about?" Lin Ya leaned against the table and said, "If you're tired, take a rest. What's there to panic about?"
"Hey, I can't tell. My heart is in a mess. I want to talk to someone for a while."
Lin Ya looked at me suspiciously as if she didn't believe me, but she didn't ask much. She just told me to pay more attention to my health and not get tired or sick.
Soon, after the noodles were ready, Lin Ya and I went back to the living room.
I suddenly remembered that when I entered, Lin Ya thought I was Ji Ze and was in a bad mood, so I asked, "When you opened the door, you thought I was Ji Ze. What else did you say? Could he stop? What do you mean?"
"Forget it, forget about him." Lin Ya ate the noodles and turned to the tv.
I always felt like something was going on between the two of them. Ji ze drank like that before, and now Lin Ya said those words?
Forget it, who hasn't had a problem yet.
Let them handle their own affairs!
Lin Ya gave me half of the noodles he made, so we both ate noodles and continued watching horror movies.
Lin Ya and I ate with relish, even though there were creepy sounds and bloody scenes on tv from time to time. We watched so many horror movies with her, and we could eat and watch without any discomfort. We ate steaming soup noodles and talked to Lin Ya. Our bodies gradually warmed up and our hearts became less anxious.