I was like a fool, staring blankly at the sky and earth, looking at the wind and rain, like a sculpture, not knowing the pain, not knowing the cold.
After some time, Hu Zi called me.
He asked me where I was. Why didn't I come back when my cousin went back? I just told him I had something to do outside so he wouldn't worry about.
At this moment, I don't want to face anyone, I just want to stay alone for a while.
But I couldn't calm down. My mind seemed to explode. When I thought about the end of my relationship with Ding Ge and the break of my relationship with Lin Ya, my whole body was filled with grief.
I want to drink again. Every time I get bored to the extreme, I want to get drunk and not think about anything else.
I stood up, wrapped my clothes tightly, and went into the snow.
There were no pedestrians on the street, and the shops were open, but they were all very quiet. Some shop assistants looked out of the window at the snowflakes and stared at the snow-white world in a daze. Some people looked excitedly at the first snowfall in winter and shared it on their phones.
I went to a convenience store and ordered a lot of cans of beer. When I checked out, the clerk looked at me strangely, as if he didn't understand why I drank so much beer in the snow during the winter.
After I paid the bill, I stood on the roadside in a daze, lost and miserable.
I came to the pavilion again, and I don't know why, but the snowstorm doesn't seem to have any effect on me anymore. I even hope it will come more fiercely!
Come on, come on, come on!
I opened the beer and drank it alone. In the winter, it was called cold. I only felt cold from head to toe.
I shivered and continued drinking. I didn't want anything else but to get drunk quickly.
Drinking beer, looking at the snow, even I feel so miserable to be his mother, I can't help but feel sorry for myself.
However, there must be something hateful about a poor person, and that might be me.
After drinking a can, I crushed the can and gasped heavily. I drank very painfully, very uncomfortable, this kind of depression that no one could talk to made me completely collapse, as if I were in an abyss of hell.
Once again, I remembered that night when Lin Ya had mentioned it, the wind and rain roared, but the five of us were gathered together, the warmth emanating from the bottom of my heart. The wind and snow were so much bigger than before, and the scene was much more similar. However, at this moment, I was the only one left!
The feeling of loneliness seemed to have defeated even the soul, and it was a lonely sadness in the bones.
I sniffled and took out the phone that lin ya gave me. We broke up, but I couldn't forget her. She has been integrated into my life. We are not related by blood, but we are deeper than many family members.
Now...
I tilted my head up, the beer pouring down my throat, and I gave another hard shudder. Then I found the video on my phone and played it.
All of a sudden, laughter was heard from the video, and there was a voice, a roar mixed with wind and rain, and the voice was very mixed, and because it was dark, the filming was very unclear, and it was especially shaking. However, when I saw Ding Ge's faces, I still subconsciously smiled.
There was a tingling sensation in her body, as if an electric current had passed through her body.
Looking at us in the past, my heart was like a surging tide, looking at the young us, looking at us so good, listening to our voices, I felt like I was drowning in a sense of suffocation.
I don't know when, tears fell from my eyes.
I sniffled again, but the tears couldn't stop falling. The muscles on my face twitched, and I started to cry. I gritted my teeth, but the cries started to spread.
Just like that, I watched the video, crying and laughing like a madman. If someone saw me like this, they would think I was crazy.
But I couldn't care less. Besides, there was no one in the midst of the heavy snow, so my crying couldn't help but grow louder. With the wind and snow covering for me, I didn't care so much.
For the first time since I broke up with Ding Ge, I cried so hard.
I opened another can of beer and drank it faster and faster. Before long, those flattened cans were everywhere. The wind blew and the cans rolled and made some noise.
Get drunk, get drunk...
I numbed myself over and over again. If I'm not drunk, I'll drink again until I'm drunk, until I'm unconscious.
I really don't want to think about anything. I just want to be drunk, drunk to the point where I can't think, drunk to the point where I can't remember those worries and worries.
My head became heavier and heavier, and the sky and earth became darker and darker. Gradually, I did not know when the snow on the ground finally disappeared before my eyes.
I lay on the bench in the gazebo and fell asleep.
The wind was still blowing, roaring, roaring, snow was still falling, spreading, drowning...
It was already the second day when I woke up. After waking up, my body was still very uncomfortable and my mind was in a daze. It took me a long time to open my eyes.
However, when I gradually realized where I was, I was completely confused!
Where am I?
I looked around, at the bed I slept in, at the strange environment. Isn't this... A hotel?
Why am I here?
I clearly remember sleeping on the bench in the gazebo. Why am I in the hotel? Who sent me here?
I patted my forehead and kept thinking about what happened last night.
But I was completely cut off. Those memories seemed to have never existed in my mind. I had no idea how I got to the hotel from the balcony bench.
But in my thoughts, I seem to have thought of something else.
I remember sitting in a dream, in which I fell asleep on a bench, looking like a beggar, homeless, lying there pitifully, with a lot of cans under my feet, making some noise under the cold wind from time to time.
I am alone, as if I have been abandoned by the whole world!
There were occasional snowflakes falling on me, but I didn't react at all. I was so drunk that I didn't know anything.
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but get a little anxious. When I was in Green city, my money was stolen once. It would be better if this stupid thing did not happen to me again.
I took a quick look at it. My coat had been taken off, and there were clothes on my body. I didn't know if I took it off myself, or who helped me take it off?
I took a look. My wallet and cell phone were still there.
Then who sent me back?
I kept trying to think about the dream. It was as if someone had come to me. I kept my eyes closed as if I didn't have the strength to open them, but I knew someone had come to me.
She came to me like a goddess from the sky!
Her body seemed to be covered with a layer of snow-white radiance. I wonder if it was the reflection of the snow light on her body?
Perhaps the light was too bright for me to see her clearly.
She looked down at me lying on the bench, her eyes especially gentle, I even remember that she seemed to kiss me on the forehead.
Thinking of this, I could not help but touch my forehead. Did someone really kiss me yesterday?
Or was it just a dream?
I sighed and couldn't help but wonder if this scene was a dream or a real one. But I'm really not sure.
If she was real, did she send me back to the hotel? Who the hell is she?
I think there is a way to know, that is to ask the front desk of the hotel, and look at the size of the hotel, presumably the hotel lobby has cameras, at that time, you will know.
At this moment, I couldn't explain my emotions. I couldn't help but guess who sent me here.
I looked at my watch and didn't expect it to be past ten in the morning. It seems that I drank too much and woke up so late!
It was time to leave, but before I could move, I felt a strong dizziness and a particularly strong sense of disgust all over my head. I had to stop for a long time.
I feel a little cold, as if I have a fever.
I didn't know how late I slept in the gazebo yesterday, so it was reasonable to have a fever. After all, it wasn't an iron body.
Thinking of this, she could not help but worry about lin ya. Was she not sick?
However, thinking of Lin Ya...
There was another wave of intense sadness in her heart.
My heart was hurt and my body was sick. The pain was too strong, and my head was very uncomfortable. I was gasping for air and my whole body was weak. It took me a long time to get out of bed and put on my clothes.
I went to the window, opened the curtains and looked out the window. At this time, the snow had stopped, and the world outside was really snowy. Only the snow on the road melted because of the cars coming and going, and the rest of the place was covered in thick white snow. Yesterday's snow was really heavy, and I don't know when it stopped.
Looking at the snow, I couldn't help but remember last night, was it really over between Lin Ya and me? Has all these years of friendship ended completely?
Thinking back on what Lin Ya said last night, I felt even more guilty and felt like an animal. Ding Ge, whom I had once deeply hurt, was not sure if she had cried at night and was unhappy all day?
The dizziness on my head made me not have much strength to think about it. I breathed in pain and felt a special fever on my body. I felt very cold. I felt like I was drunk. My feet were sore and weak.
He went down the stairs to the lobby to check out.
I couldn't help but ask the front desk of the hotel if she knew who sent me back yesterday. The girl said she didn't know. I asked her to adjust the camera, and then I found out that it was Old Gao who sent me back to the hotel!
How could it be Old Gao?
I was shocked and confused.
How could it be Old Gao?