Chapter 259 : Go Home

Not long after I talked to Old Gao, I went back to the rental room, took out my things, and then went out.

I'm going home by car...

Leaving Pucheng...

This time, unlike the previous time when I wanted to escape from Pucheng, I was eager to return to Pucheng! Even before I left, I began to miss it.

I got in the car, but it wasn't driving yet. I sat in my seat and stared out the window. Although I still have a lot of sadness in my heart after leaving this time, it may be that my fighting ability has become stronger, and I don't want to stay away from all of this.

Although I haven't been with Ding Ge until now, she's still the girl I love in my heart. Although Lin Ya and I are still separated, she's still my best friend in my heart. Although I still owe Guzheng 300,000, Hu Zi Old Gao and I have been working hard!

I clenched my fist!

I don't want to give up!

It felt like life was an opponent. Living life was like a game after game. Sometimes it was ugly and miserable to lose, but if life didn't completely defeat me, I would stand up again and again.

Although the sky is still depressed, I believe that bright blue skies will always appear.

A few minutes later, the car finally started and slowly left Pucheng.

In the dusk, I reluctantly turned my head and looked through the window at Pucheng, which was getting farther and farther away from me. My eyes were so nostalgic!

However, there was still no one I wanted to see in the scenery.

This year, I really won't see Ding Ge and Lin Ya!

...

By the time I got home, my parents had already prepared a sumptuous dinner for me, and they had pasted a picture of the door at home.

This time, he returned to his new house.

This is also the first time I have lived in a new house. Looking at the new house, I feel a little relieved. My parents have settled down here. This is our new home from now on.

During dinner, I had a drink with my dad, talked about their daily lives, talked about the restaurant, and inevitably talked about me and Guzheng.

Sure enough, the two of them asked Guzheng to come to my house during the new year. This year was the last day, and I didn't directly reject them, but I said to see if they were free during the new year.

On the last day, I don't want to make my parents angry.

It was already so late, it would be disrespectful to make them angry again.

Looking at their old faces, I felt a little sad in my heart, and my nose was sore. How many days could I spend with them?

In fact, I'm ready to compromise, but I don't know if it's right or not, because my relationship with Guzheng is a kind of concealment and deception to everyone!

I just hope that my parents will never know the truth, even if the relationship ends in the future, they will only think that we broke up.

At night, we sat in the new living room to watch the spring festival gala. Although we were no longer interested in the spring festival gala, there seemed to be nothing to do on the eve of the new year's eve.

I don't want to go out and have fun. I just want to stay at home and immerse myself in my loneliness.

Watching the spring festival gala with my parents, they told me about Guzheng. My parents hoped that we could get engaged as soon as possible.

I didn't know how to answer, so I had to make fun of them first!

Guzheng can come to my house, but getting engaged is a little too much.

This night, there were a lot of messages on the phone, all of which were wishes for the new year.

There are all kinds of text messages blessing, some are very simple happy new year, some are the kind of online blessing, and even some people have their own style of blessing, in fact, to me, it doesn't matter whether the group or not the original, it is a blessing.

Guzheng sent me a message first. There were only eight words on it: "Happy new year in advance." Old Gao and Hu Zi sent me messages one after another. They were all simpler words:" happy new year." Xiaoyi sent a long message.

Xiaolian also called me and said that someone from the restaurant was looking for me. I was so excited that I thought ding Green was looking for me, but Xiaolian said that the man was a man and she didn't know him. When I found out that I was not there, that person didn't leave any message. I was a little puzzled after listening to it. Who would come to the restaurant to look for me on new year's eve?

Ji Ze also gave me a call. Naturally, she asked lin ya a few questions in addition to the text message, but now I can't help Ji Ze at all.

Many, many people.

I also replied to them one by one.

In the past, Lin Ya would send a text message at nearly 12 o' clock, the same content every year, wishing Xing Yun a happy new year. It was the same every year, but not this year.

However, Lin Feng sent me a text message, which was very simple, with only the words' happy new year'.

In the past, Ding Ge would write a lot of love words to me when he sent me a text message. A text message sounded sweet as honey, especially moved. I could always smile. I haven't received such a blessing text message for two years.

Every time my phone received a text message, after reading it and replying to it, I would always stay in my phone's inbox for a while and flip it up and down, as if afraid of missing something.

But I didn't miss it!

Last year, Ding Ge, who had completely cut off contact with me, didn't send me a message to wish him well.

This year, neither Ding Ge nor Lin Ya.

Looking at the happy scene in the spring festival gala, my heart became more and more sad.

It didn't take long to see it. It was really boring. Mom and dad usually went to bed early and went back to the house to sleep. I also turned off the tv and went back to my room.

On my first night in the new house, I didn't sleep well!

Before I could sleep comfortably in that cold room surrounded by concrete walls, I lay on the bed and couldn't sleep. I didn't sleep until 12 o' clock.

The phone was placed by the bed and did not ring again.

I didn't turn off the lights, so I just turned on the lights and looked at the white wall absentmindedly. I couldn't tell where my mind was.

This year has really passed!

This night, I did not recall the past, nor did I look forward to the future. I was just immersed in the sad present. The whole room seemed to be shrouded in a faint light, but the light was not warm at all. Instead, it was cold. It was as lonely and sad as I was, like an incomprehensible cat.

I lay on a soft bed, a new bed, a new list, and a quilt, without a familiar smell. This new house made me a little uncomfortable, and I couldn't help but wonder, would I really get married in this room?

I feel a little scary!

I didn't think about it, just continued to fall into a daze. When I came back to my senses again, I felt that it was past twelve o' clock. Although I didn't look at my watch, I felt that the new year's eve had passed and the previous year had ended.

I sat up from my bed and opened the window to look outside. However, when I saw just another row of residential buildings, I felt a surge of annoyance for no reason. I looked up at the sky and was stunned for a moment, then closed the curtains.

...

The next day, I woke up early.

Guzheng called me again. We exchanged new year's greetings on the phone, and after breakfast, my parents and I began to visit each other.

It's been a year, and I've been meeting friends and relatives for a chat.

On the way, I met a friend. When I was a child, I went to elementary school together. She was two years younger than me, but she already had two sons. The older one had gone to kindergarten, and the younger one had learned to walk.

The four of them, the big one followed behind his father, the small one was held by his mother, and the family was especially warm.

We chatted for a while, then arranged to have a drink with a few friends tonight. I had nothing to do anyway, so I agreed.

At night, he got together with a few friends in the village. Except for me, they were all married. They walked faster and faster. Naturally, they also talked about my problems when they talked.

I drank a lot and went home feeling dizzy.

But I also want to get drunk, because if I don't get drunk, I will fall into endless sadness. That taste is too damn uncomfortable.

In the past, when my parents urged me to get married, I always didn't care. I always thought it was nothing, but now I can't help but be anxious. I really want to find someone to spend the rest of my life with.

But the sad thing is, the person that I have already determined has already appeared in my life, and now I still can't spend my life with her!

Sometimes in the dead of night, when the emotions in my heart were tumbling, the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time seemed to be out of control. It was so powerful that it could form a huge wave in my body that covered the sky and the sun like a rainbow. I really wanted to find Ding Ge and confess everything to her.

I really want to be with Ding Ge and go to a place where there are no worries and worries. It's just the two of us.

But I am no longer an impulsive teenager in the past. My maturity has made it impossible for me to only consider myself. Sometimes I hate my maturity.

Sometimes I think it would be great if Ding Ge and I became birds. We could fly freely between heaven and earth. There was no place where we couldn't go. We were always in pairs. Wherever she was, there was me. Wherever I was, there was her.

I hate the shackles of reality, but sadly, I don't know if someone else has locked me up or if I have locked myself up.

On the first day of the new year, under the influence of alcohol, something overflowed in my heart. It seemed to have been brewing for a long time, waiting for an opportunity!

I really want to call Ding Ge at this time.

A call from Green city brought us back to each other. But sometimes, looking at this thing that can connect two people thousands of miles apart, I don't know how to describe it. It can make two people very close, but sometimes it can make two people very far.

I always wanted it, but I was afraid.

I looked at the phone in the palm of my hand. So, should I call or not?