Chapter 420 : July

Ding Ge, today is the thirteenth day since I lost contact with you. I don't know how to express my missing for you. Are you okay?

I'm still holding on, and I'm going to hold on!

I really never let go of such a stupid idea, letting go may be love, but it is definitely not us, I was wrong once, and I will never be wrong again!

I promised you many things that I didn't do. I will do it this time, and I will make up for my past mistakes in the future. I still remember those promises. They still count. I didn't do it before. I hope I can do it in the future.

I haven't apologized to you yet. I owe you so much that I can only repay it with my whole life.

I know that you will stick to it as much as I do, right? I believe in you, 100 %. I'm just sad that I can't share your stress with you.

I always wanted to protect you, but I always seemed to break my promise. Would you blame me?

...

Ding Ge, today is the sixteenth day.

The weather is getting hotter and hotter, so let's not talk about air conditioning in our new house, even an electric fan is useless. The previous electric fan has retired, and I haven't thought about buying it yet. At night, I will open the window. The wind on the tenth floor is still very strong, so the house will be cooler.

I would always stand in front of the window and look out at the lights.

I always wondered if you were in the house in my sight right now. Would you look at the night sky like I do? Will you miss you as much as I miss you?

The night sky is very beautiful today. The stars and the moon are shining with dreamy colors. Did you see it? Remember the photos I took for you?

Do you know? I'm really getting better at cooking now. I didn't compliment myself. A customer told me today.

But this reminds me that I haven't cooked for you in a long time. I'm a little sad.

I can only tell myself that it doesn't matter. There will be plenty of time in the future. When I have the chance, I will make you a table of delicious food. I will only give you one person to make a table of delicious food.

...

Ding Ge, today is the twentieth day.

It seems that the time I don't see you is getting longer and longer, and then every day is getting longer and longer. Really, it's getting dark very late.

Today, I suddenly didn't know what to say to you.

I'm just very sad!

...

In a blink of an eye, it was july!

The dry heat of july was like steaming and roasting the earth with the force of a flood. In this weather, people still couldn't stop their footsteps. Every day, many customers would come to the restaurant.

The world was still running as usual. Everything seemed to be the same as before. The traffic on the street seemed to be a game of flying cars that could never be closed. On both sides of the street, there were new shops and closed shops. Many things were changing with each passing day, and our numb minds could only remember this new world and quickly abandoned the old things. So for us, It was as if everything was the same.

Xingyun hotel and yafeng cake shop were opposite each other. Every day, countless people walked by the Xingyun hotel. At the same time, someone walked in the opposite direction from the yafeng cake shop.

Jiang Yan has returned to work, so I don't have to be a chef anymore. I don't know if I'm too familiar with this restaurant. I'm not tired at all. It's easy to do things. In the air-conditioned hall, I don't even sweat.

I almost developed two habits: running in the morning and writing letters at night. Every day, I would write a few words in this book. Sometimes, I would write a lot. I would share my life with Ding Ge. Sometimes, I would write about my sadness. Sometimes, I suddenly didn't know what to write.

Every name is my yearning for Ding Ge.

Having not seen Ding Ge for so many days, I no longer have the uncontrollable emotions that I used to have. Now I can keep those emotions in my heart, like the water stored on a dam.

My heart grew stronger as I persevered. That promise was like a mountain pressing steadily on my heart. It was my faith and my support!

I live a normal life, hiding the sadness and pain in my heart, smiling at others, looking like a normal person.

And everyone didn't mention Ding Ge in front of me anymore, as if it was a taboo.

Life began to become like a blank sheet of paper. There was nothing worth writing about, as if there was no meaning.

But I don't know how long this day will last...

Without Ding Ge...

...

That day, Old Gao and I returned to the pond.

For Hu Zi, that train track was a place he frequented. He liked the loud and harsh sound of the tracks and the raging wind, where he would completely calm down.

For Old Gao, the pond was a place where he could get rid of his troubles. Although there were happy memories and sad memories stored here at the same time, it was this place, like an old friend beside him.

I don't know where to calm me down. Let me forget everything for a while?

Coming to the pond, from the bustling streets to the wide fields, the visual green stimulation is still very useful, these rural scenery really helps to improve people's mood.

Now I rarely come to the pond, because there are many things in the restaurant, basically Old Gao.

Standing by the pond once again, although it was hard to avoid feeling hot and dry under the high temperature, even without the shade of the trees, even the river seemed to be emitting heat. Of course, there was a good place here, a more ventilated and cool place.

There were more trees over there, and there was a pond next to it. It was always so refreshing and cool here, and there were countless winds trying to squeeze in. In the summer, bring a recliner here and take a nap in the lazy afternoon.

I just sat on the floor and didn't care about the dirt. I used to lie on it.

Looking at the pond, looking at the ripples, after a while, Old Gao came over with two bottles of water. He handed me one, sat down beside me, drank some water and said to me, "Do you remember last year when we raised fish?"

I smiled and replied, "How could I not remember?"

At that time, we were really at ease. Every day, we were in the pond with fish and water and trees and grass. I even missed the night when I looked at the pond, as if the night was more beautiful.

"Time passed. I didn't expect it to be a year."

"Yeah."

Neither of us was without emotion.

Last year, I still have a huge debt on my shoulders. Every day, I just want to turn my relationship with Ding Ge into a secret and hide it in the years. It's like a piece of dirt thrown into a pond, and there's nowhere else to find it.

At that time, she and Guzheng were still new acquaintances and didn't have many sentimental memories.

Old Gao was still in a passionate relationship with Wang Mengmeng.

Old meng told us countless dirty jokes every day.

The wind in the pond will always have a faint fishy smell, and at night it will always be accompanied by the sound of frogs.

A year later, everything changed, everything changed.

Although Old Gao took over the pond again, it was like a ripple from the surface of the water blown by a breeze. After calming down, the next ripple seemed to go at the same speed and direction, but it was not that ripple after all.

In Old Gao's eyes, this pond was naturally not the same as before.

Now, when old meng left, it was Tian who had been managing the pond for most of the time. But old meng had taught me and Old Gao more than xiao tian. After all, xiao tian came later, and Tian, who was much younger than us, was able to endure this loneliness. It really impressed me.

And the love between Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng could be written in a book. This is a sad story. Since the two of them are no longer connected, let this memory float with the wind.

I still haven't seen Guzheng again, just like we said before. Maybe one day, we'll suddenly never see each other again. I can't even remember when we last met.

"I really didn't expect to be able to take over the pond after a long walk." Old Gao's mouth was slightly bitter. He said, "I hated Mengmeng for so long. In the end, I found out that she had her own difficulties, and the source was me."

I added with a bitter smile, "I'm sorry."

Old Gao waved at me and said, "You've helped me so much. Can't I lend you money at such a critical time? Back then, you were stupid, too. It was better to blame my parents than you."

I looked at Old Gao, not knowing what he meant by mentioning king Mengmeng after such a long time. He said calmly, "I just want to say that in these two tragedies, there may be fault with anyone, but we can't blame anyone, but we can't pretend that nothing happened, so that's why Wang Mengmeng and I have to separate."

I didn't say anything, just unscrewed the cap and drank some water.

Old Gao pondered for a moment and then said to me, "Xing Yun, maybe a lot of things are really predestined by god, clearly in love, but not together."

I looked at Old Gao, as if I understood his intentions. I asked faintly, "Are you trying to persuade me to give up?"

Old Gao shook his head and said, "I saw it a long time ago, you and Guzheng..." Speaking of this, Old Gao suddenly stopped. I don't know what he wanted to say. He smiled and shook his head, and then said, "There's no use trying to persuade you."

I looked at Old Gao. He was right. No one could shake my resolve.

Old Gao squinted his eyes in the wind. He sighed and said, "Actually, I just want to say that if Ding Ge gives up, don't blame her. It's not her fault!"

I took a deep breath and said, "I won't blame her."

"It's been almost a month, hasn't it?" Old Gao added, "I was once imprisoned by my parents for a month. I know what it feels like. It's too damn uncomfortable. I was young at that time, and I had such a bad temper, but staying in the same room was so suffocating that I had to admit defeat before they let me go."

I understand what Old Gao said. He was asking me not to hold too high expectations. The higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. But I felt that even if I didn't expect it, I was waiting with the thought that dinger would give up, but when I really got the news, my emotions wouldn't make any difference.

Old Gao didn't say much. After a while, he stood up. I looked at the water and let go of my emotions, leaving myself in a trance.

After some time, my phone rang. When I took it out, my hand trembled. It was a long time ago call from Shang Hongyu.