Chapter 446 I Don't Want to Be A Mistress

After the intensity, the rain gradually calmed down.

Like a magic trick, the clear and beautiful night outside the window had turned into a blur of light. Gradually, the light had become lighter and lighter. In the end, the window had turned into a bleak hue, as if the sky was not raining, but cold paint.

There was nothing concrete outside the window, only me and Ding Ge.

Ding Ge's beautiful hair shawl, she gently rolled up a strand of hair with one hand, playing in that boring, her thoughts, I don't know where to drift, looking at her dazed look I sincerely sigh, the beautiful smile is very beautiful, the beautiful daze is also very quiet and beautiful.

At this moment, she suddenly looked at me again, blinked, and softly called my name: "Xing Yun."

I looked at her as if I could feel her thoughts. I seemed to know what she was trying to say to me, so I answered softly.

I don't know if it's raining or not, but it feels a little cold.

She opened her mouth on a more relaxed topic and asked me, "How did you guess the letter I gave you?"

"Then you folded a paper crane." I smiled bitterly and said, "I didn't think much at first. I just opened the letter and started reading it. After reading it, I was very sad. I was sad for two days. Then his mind flashed, as if he had been struck by lightning."

With a chuckle, I continued, "I immediately thought of what you said when we watched prison break. I was wondering if it was possible that you folded the paper crane to pass me some information instead of the letter. I felt that the paper crane you folded must be meaningful. So I looked at it again, but I couldn't find the information you were hiding. How exactly did you write that letter? Come on? Lin Ya Hu Zi and I both read the letter, and no one could guess. I happened to look out of the window, and that was why I suddenly thought of this possibility."

Ding Ge smiled, but there was a tinge of bitterness in her smile. She said, "You know how difficult it is to write that letter. When I wrote the first letter, I thought about what to write and what to hide in the second letter. But it's too difficult to write it. I changed it many times, afraid that you wouldn't be able to see what I was hiding, and more afraid that you wouldn't even remember the meaning of the paper crane. As for me, I have to write with sincerity and sadness, so that they all think I really gave up, not pretend to give up, but the hidden information is not obvious, because they can see it clearly, they can see that it is a failure again, and I am about to break down writing that letter."

"Fortunately, we succeeded!" At this moment, thinking of the many feelings that Ding Ge's two letters brought to me, my heart was filled with emotion. If one of them went wrong, then I couldn't push the next link.

Ding Ge nodded slowly.

I glanced at her and asked, pretending to be calm, "Ding Ge, how did you get here in those days?"

I could tell that Ding Ge wanted to talk about things he didn't want to talk about before.

Ding Ge's eyes gradually became blurred, and only after a moment did he reply melancholically, "It's not that difficult, just that there is no freedom. Sometimes the mood will become very bad, and I like to lose my temper. I still think in my heart, when the temper becomes so strong, will anyone dare to take it? It was like the darkness in front of me, you understand? You can see everything with your eyes open, but you can't seem to see anything. You don't know where to go. But in my mind, it's like a compass. It tells me that it's right to walk like that. Just keep going. Keep going."

Ding Ge's words touched me deeply. She was right. It was such a terrible feeling that they couldn't get in touch with each other. It was as if they suddenly had no idea where they were or any news.

I breathed deeply. Fortunately, we both persevered.

Ding Ge smiled again and asked, "How did you come up with that idea on valentine's day?"

"Maybe you don't believe it. It was Lin Ya's brother, Lin Feng's girlfriend, Tang Manya. She thought of it. She said it would be easier for you to find us than to keep watch over the malls and look for you in the crowd, so she had a promotional plan for the elegant style bakery. Those people with hats were all students. Lin Feng and the two of them were looking for them, thanks to them." The thought of that day was still heartbreaking.

I think we're very lucky if we didn't steal Ding Ge that day. I really don't know when we'll see her again after Ding Ge's parents take better precautions.

As we talked about the past few days, our mood became somewhat indescribably sad.

I narrowed my eyes and wanted to ask ding ge something, but I didn't know how to say it. I hesitated for a moment, then said, "Ding Ge, that day..."

However, as soon as I opened my mouth, Ding Ge seemed to know what I wanted to say. "There are some things I just wish I could forget forever, as if it never happened."

I nodded and felt an inexplicable sting in my heart.

In the room, it was quiet again, and the cool air in the silence seemed to thicken. The rain outside continued to fall, like a sad and depressing song.

I think back to these two years, my heart was like a drifting rain, and my chest was filled with something.

At this moment, Ding Ge seemed to have fallen into the memories, and my heart inexplicably tightened. I always felt that Ding Ge in front of me was suddenly very far away from me. Even if she put her foot on me, I still felt powerless to hold her.

Ding Ge clenched one hand into a fist, placed it at the corner of his mouth, and said softly, "I used to think that the breakup two years... Two years ago would be the most painful thing in my life!"

Ding ge seemed to know what I wanted to say, and she quickly said, "You don't have to apologize. In fact, I thought about it carefully later. If I were you, I might have made that choice."

Ding Ge's words stunned me. I didn't expect Ding Ge to say that.

"After that, every day I remember that night very clearly, and every time I think about it, I feel the same pain of being killed. But I don't know why, Xing Yun, I just can't hate you, especially when I think I will do the same thing, I can't hate it. I can only bear the pain. When you reconnected with me, I was actually a little overjoyed. I thought this was an opportunity for us to get back together, but I never thought that you would tell me you were planning a blind date. Do you know how sad it was when I heard that?" Ding Ge looked at me resentfully.

I was so ashamed that I didn't know what to say to comfort Ding Ge.

"Then you lied to the girl that you have a girlfriend. Well, you have a girlfriend. Although I know it's fake, I still have an indescribable feeling in my heart. I can't describe it. I can't breathe. I always feel that you are getting farther and farther away from me. Then I saw Guzheng. Well, I really don't know where to stand and talk to Guzheng." Dinger stroked her hair on her forehead and said, "It feels weird! And there was an emotion in my heart that I didn't know how to express. It was like a thorn stuck in my throat, which made me feel especially dangerous, an unsolvable crisis! Later, you told everyone that you were really together."

I can still remember the day when dinger found out that Guzheng and I were' together', just like now, it was raining outside, the cold was very heavy, the sound of the rain and Ding Ge's blessing patted my heart.

Ding Ge smiled bitterly and said, "That day, my heart was so cold!"

"I don't know what to say. When you were with Guzheng, I knew that no matter what, we would never be able to go back to the way we were before. We would never be able to go back to the way we were before." Ding Ge's mood fluctuated. She looked out the window at the rain and covered her mouth with her hands. There was some damp liquid in her eyes.

I could only remain silent in pain. I really felt ashamed to say anything!

Ding Ge was right. We can never go back to the past. Even if we start over again, we will still feel pain with those souls that were torn apart.

"At that time, maybe missing became a habit. Even if you moved back home to live with your parents, you still couldn't change that habit. It was too difficult! It was winter, and it was especially cold, like the coldest winter ever since I was a child, when the wind blew into my bones. Then," dinger paused and rubbed her other arm with one hand. With a slight curl of her mouth, she added, "Guzheng told me about you for some reason."

Ding Ge couldn't help but smile again. However, her smile was especially distressing. The light in her eyes brightened up a little. It took her more than a minute to recover before she continued, "At that time, I knew the truth. Then, I... Suddenly... Felt... Like I was alive again."

Listening to Ding Ge's words, I couldn't say how I felt. I just felt that the memories that I had heard her words had passed through my mind. Countless memories were intertwined, and I had mixed feelings. I couldn't tell what I was feeling.

I gritted my teeth and the muscles on my face twitched uncontrollably.

In the quiet room, Ding Ge continued, "I was just waiting for the end of your agreement, and I was still saving up with great expectations. Later, I had an unexpected collaboration with Guzheng, and she already knew that I was saving money for you. She also said she wanted to help me. I always thought... Guzheng was a good girl, so I trusted her for our cooperation. This project will give me a very optimistic bonus. I think that by ending this project, I might have saved enough money so that we can... Just, I never thought..."

I had a terrible cold war, and my arms were covered with goosebumps. At the same time, the sound of raindrops hitting the window became louder, and my heart trembled.

"I never thought that Guzheng would help me, but in the end he deliberately framed me!" Ding Ge's voice trembled slightly.

Shang Hongyu had told me before that Ding Ge had told her that Guzheng had framed her, but now he was still shocked to hear Ding Ge say that.

At this moment, Ding Ge looked at me again. I could not see her eyes clearly. At this time, her eyes were like the dark night outside, as deep as ink.

She suddenly moved and slowly lifted her feet away from my legs. Then she put her feet on her seat and curled up, hugging her legs a little lonely.

She raised her head slightly to look at me, then looked at her and said, "In the past, I always thought that the breakup would be the biggest knot in our reunion, but I never thought that there would be another woman between us, and she almost made me feel a knot in my heart."

Ding Ge's words gave me a creepy panic. I quickly explained, "Ding Ge, it's not what you think. I've always treated Guzheng as a friend."

Ding Ge's face suddenly became tired. She sighed and said, "You don't have to explain Xing Yun. I know, but I just can't get over it. Especially when I think that Guzheng framed me, I..."

Ding ge seemed unable to think of a suitable word. She sighed again, which was very depressing.

"I know about you, but what about the others? Do they know? They thought that you broke up, that you were really in love and in love, so, what am I? You guys broke up so quickly, and we got back together. What would people say about me, you know? They would say that I was a mistress, that I was involved in your relationship, and that it led to your breakup. That's why she framed me, because she hated me. There was no need to make up a story. Everyone would guess that. Everyone would think that. Our relationship is no longer crystal clear, but imperfect, flawed. People talk behind our backs and gossip about us. I'm not that fragile, but I still care about what others think, so that's why I don't want to be your girlfriend. Because I don't want to be a mistress."