As we chatted, the water for washing our feet gradually cooled down. The two of them sat on the sofa and stretched their legs out to dry under the moonlight from the window.
I couldn't help but think that it would be nice to open an ideal store with dinger.
However, it is really difficult to live like this. Such a life is destined not to be rich, and we are far from the noise and prosperity, but ultimately can not leave this society. When there is something urgent to use money, we will be foolish!
Hey, it's so tiring to be alive!
These days, I really feel very tired, but a lot of words can only be hidden in my heart.
Dinger looked at me. She gently punched my leg with her hand and asked, "Have you been too tired lately?"
It was true that nothing could be hidden from Ding Ge. Her mind was too delicate and her observation was too keen. She could see through my heart with one look and one sentence.
"No." I hugged Ding Ge, gently stroked her soft hair and said, "As long as you don't leave me, the sky will fall. I don't care."
Ding Ge lay quietly on my shoulder and did not speak.
After a while, she said, "Xing Yun, we really broke up. Will you really not get married for the rest of your life? If you meet another really nice girl, maybe she's the one you're destined to spend the rest of your life with."
"That girl is you!"
Ding Ge sat up straight and said to me seriously, "What if it wasn't me? No one was 100 % sure about this, because no one knew if they could spend the rest of their lives together. So you don't have to do this to please me. If there really is such a girl in the future, don't have any burden in your heart. Just love her well."
"...
Ding Ge's words left me speechless. I didn't know what to say.
"Do you know?" Ding Ge asked loudly again.
I really felt that this topic was too boring. I nodded perfunctorily and said, "Yes, yes, yes."
Ding ge looked at me for a while, wanting to say something but not saying anything, but her eyes were a little dim.
I always felt something was wrong with Ding Ge and couldn't help but ask, "Ding Ge, what's wrong with you? Is there something on your mind? We're getting married soon, shouldn't you be happy? Why are you so sad?"
A trace of fatigue appeared in Ding Ge's eyes. She sighed and then said leisurely, "Xing Yun, someone said that marriage is the grave of love. Do you think that's right?"
I looked at Ding Ge, my heart full of doubts, but still replied: "Some people hand in hand went to the white head, some people blushed and divorced, can't say this sentence is right or wrong, maybe for some people, it is right, but for some people, it is wrong, isn't it?"
Ding Ge nodded slightly and then asked me, "What do you think of us? What do you think will happen to us? Will we get divorced when we get married?"
I adjusted my body, lifted Ding Ge's cheek, and said with a little heartache, "Let's talk about divorce before we get married? Are you thinking too far?"
However, Ding Ge still looked at me stubbornly and asked, "Do you think so?"
I stared at Ding Ge and said firmly, "Of course not! We've gone through so much and overcome so many hardships. Do you think there's anything else that can defeat us?"
From the bottom of my heart, I really feel that my love for Ding Ge is as strong as a rock! There is no use in beating the wind and rain. Our hearts are connected, and we will never be separated again.
However, Ding Ge did not give me a definite answer without hesitation. She hesitated, and seeing her hesitation, I felt sad. Ding Ge actually had no confidence in our marriage?
I think it's too ironic!
"Don't you have confidence in our love?" I asked Ding Ge.
Ding Ge shook his head.
I don't know if Ding Ge's shake of his head was a denial of my question or a sign of lack of confidence in our love.
"What do you think, Ding Ge? Do you think we'll get a divorce?"
"I don't think so, but... I think marriage is too difficult. I suddenly have no confidence in marriage." Ding Ge lowered his head, his delicate body looking particularly pitiful.
"Why don't you have confidence?" We're going to get married soon. This is something to be happy about. I don't understand. Ding Ge was fine before. Why are you so worried about gain and loss now? Why did she feel this way all of a sudden?
"Xing Yun, I always think that you think too simply about marriage. You think that strong love can never change forever and always be so strong, but no matter how strong an athlete is, he won't always be at the peak. After the peak, he will fall. Love will be the same. Maybe one day he will suddenly get bored and stop loving. That's possible, right?"
I closed my eyes and didn't answer ding ge's words. I just breathed in silence.
"Have you thought about it? In fact, we have only been in love for a few years, compared to a lifetime, it is still very short. Marriage takes a lifetime! Marriage, I think most people who get married are very in love and very sweet, but not so many divorces every year? Why?"
Marriage is not the end of a heartfelt vow. It's not the end of passion and determination. It's not like that. Plain, is the biggest hidden danger of marriage. Two people who have been married for many years can't blush like their first love when they hold hands. They will have a feeling of being electrocuted. Marriage will definitely not be like this. This is inevitable. It is as if we are familiar with something and lose the initial freshness. This change is unstoppable. Day after day, day after day, day after day, as plain as water, maybe one day they get tired of it, and they don't like it. Perhaps, over time, the relationship between the two gradually went wrong, but they were like frogs in warm water, and no one noticed. They seem to be living a peaceful life, but they don't know that their marriage has been broken for a long time. Some people have made mistakes, some have not made any mistakes, and some have never quarreled or blushed. However, their feelings suddenly fade like ordinary days."
Ding Ge's eyes were filled with worry and loneliness, so I had to get closer to her and comfort her, "Ding Ge, I understand your worry, your fear. Yes, there are indeed many people who love each other who have divorced, some who have broken up peacefully, and some who have malicious words that have nothing to do with each other. There are all kinds of feelings. But, are we not getting married because of these worries and fears? No, because we love each other, we want to be together, we want to be together forever, we want to form a family, so we have to get married. And you're right, marriage isn't easy. Now we see a few news reports every day about divorces, affairs, mistresses, and so on. There are so many problems in marriage, but we can't escape it. Escaping is not the way. We have to find a way to solve it. For example, marriage is a rice field, and the problems and hidden dangers in marriage are like the pests in the fields, like the grass in the fields, like the birds in the sky who want to eat, then we will find a way to solve them. The grass that should be pulled out, the medicine that should be pulled out, the medicine that should be used to kill insects, the medicine that should be used to make the scarecrow man, we will go step by step to keep it healthy. I believe that we can maintain our marriage very well, right?"
Ding Ge sighed and said, "If only marriage was so easy."
"That's what we said! Marriage is hard, but how do we know if we don't go? Everyone's path to marriage is different, so let's just try our best to follow our path. What we need most now is not fear and retreat, but courage to go hand in hand! And besides those worries, don't you have any expectations in your heart? Think about it. Our house has been renovated and our car has been bought. By then, the house will be filled with new furniture and items. That will be our home, our world of two."
Ding Ge's eyes rolled with love. She nodded, took a deep breath, and said, "Xing Yun, there's something I didn't tell you."
"What is it?" I asked.
Ding ge looked into my eyes. Her eyes seemed especially serious, which made my heart skip a beat. What was she going to say?
Ding Ge's eyes were filled with sadness. She said to me, "The other day when I was at home, my aunt went to my house. She just got divorced, you know? This news touched me too much. My aunt and uncle had been married for more than ten years, and their children were in junior high school. Now they divorced suddenly! My aunt is almost forty years old. I always think that she and my uncle have a good relationship. Back then, she and my uncle talked to themselves. My uncle's family conditions were not good, and my grandmother didn't agree with them. But my aunt still insisted on marrying my uncle. Now they are living well, and they have quite a lot of money."
After hearing what Ding Ge said, I realized that no wonder Ding Ge suddenly had no confidence in marriage. It must have been because her aunt's divorce had stimulated her. I had never seen Ding Ge's aunt, but I had heard her say it.
Ding Ge said sadly, "It's been more than ten years. The children are so old. How can they be separated?"
After all, a couple is a private matter between two people. Only they know why Ding Ge's aunt and her uncle divorced. In this age of the internet, such news is not surprising.
"There must be a reason for their divorce. After all, after more than a decade, divorce is definitely not an impulse, but a result of careful consideration. It's just the poor kid." But if you really can't go on, leaving is the best way. "Sometimes it's better to leave than to settle down for the rest of your life.
Ding Ge was sad, and we chatted for a while. It took a long time for Ding Ge to feel better, and the fear of marriage gradually subsided.