For a moment, hearing Lin Ya's words, I felt as if I had been drenched from head to toe by a bucket of ice water, as if there were countless electric currents running through my body, numbing, shivering, and chilling.
Deep fear gripped my heart tightly, gradually exerting force, as if a layer of frost had covered it!
I was panting heavily, my heart beating so fast that I couldn't sit down. I stood up, and a dizzy feeling suddenly struck me.
Although I was thinking about taking Lin Ya to the hospital when she came back, I couldn't accept the news that Lin Ya was depressed for a moment.
How is that possible?
Lin Ya has always been very optimistic and strong. She did have a lot of bad experiences in her life, but the most difficult time has passed. Now her life is much better than before. How could Lin Ya have depression at this time?
I pressed my head hard, but I could feel the cold coming out of my head.
A little confused!
Ji Ze also looked at Lin Ya in disbelief. His face could no longer remain calm, and complex emotions filled his face.
Lin ya looked at me and Ji Ze, but comforted us both, "Don't look at me with such horrible eyes. The doctor said that I'm suffering from mild depression. It's easy to cure."
"What did the doctor say?"
"He gave me the medicine and asked me to check on him once a week."
"Anything else?"
"It's nothing." Lin Ya added, "Don't take things so seriously. My condition is not as bad as you think. I will cooperate with the treatment very actively. You can observe me every day to see if I am getting better. I am confident that I will get better soon."
Lin Ya seemed to be really positive about it. Her attitude reassured me a lot, but she was still very worried.
I hope the medicine prescribed by the doctor will work.
"How are you feeling now?" Ji Ze asked.
"All right."
I said to Lin Ya, "Girl, take a break these days. Don't feel pressured. Relax. We're all here. You can ask ji ze to sell milk tea for you. He's a real unemployed bum now, or you can just stop. If you have any problems, you have to talk to us more. Don't keep everything in your mind, okay?"
Lin Ya nodded.
Then Lin Ya suddenly remembered something and told us, "By the way, only the three of us know about this. Please don't tell anyone else and keep it a secret for me, okay? I don't want everyone to worry about me."
Ji ze and I nodded.
Lin Ya reiterated to me, "Xing Yun, especially Ding Ge, don't tell her, okay?"
I frowned. Ding Ge was her best friend. Should she keep it a secret?
"Is she going to hide it too?" I always felt that I couldn't hide it from Ding Ge even if I wanted to.
Lin Ya said seriously, "Yes!"
"Okay." Since Lin Ya insisted, he could only listen to her.
"You swear!" Lin Ya didn't seem to believe me and said solemnly again.
"I swear."
Lin Ya's expression relaxed a little.
When lin ya left for a rest, I still couldn't believe it. I didn't expect Old Gao's words to come true!
It could be said that Lin Ya was the first confirmed depressive patient I saw in real life, but I never thought it would be Lin Ya!
That night, I didn't sleep well. I kept searching for information about depression with my cell phone. I saw the experiences of many patients with depression on the internet. It could be said that every patient with depression experienced unbearable suffering and torture, and this time might even be a few years. Thinking about it would make me feel creepy. No wonder some patients would collapse and commit suicide. In pain, who can bear it?
In comparison, Lin Ya was depressed for a short time. I was thinking about when Lin Ya was depressed.
I can't explain it clearly.
Lin Ya asked ji ze and I to keep it a secret for her. She was very determined and I didn't dare to tell Ding Ge about it.
However, later on, I regretted that I shouldn't have kept this from Ding Ge. I should have told her that if I told Ding Ge about depression, it might have affected a series of things that happened later, and the ending of this story would have changed.
...
Now that Lin Ya was diagnosed with depression, only Ji Ze and I and she knew about it. Old Gao was just suspicious, and we didn't even talk about Old Gao.
These days, Ji Ze and I have been keeping a close eye on Lin Ya's health. I really don't dare to be careless. After all, the more I know about depression, the more I understand how terrible it is.
Ji ze bought a lot of books about depression and almost became half an expert.
Especially since we all know that depression can make people suicidal, I tremble involuntarily when I see it. I'm really scared, and I don't even dare to think about it anymore.
Fortunately, Lin Ya did seem to be in a good condition. She would wake up and eat on time every day. She would also get up and run early. Ji Ze would accompany her. Sometimes I would get up and run. Lin Ya also said it worked.
Looking at Lin Ya's positive attitude, I also became a lot more optimistic. Maybe I was too worried, or maybe I didn't know enough about this disease so I was too afraid. Now that Lin Ya is like this, I think it won't take long for Lin Ya to get rid of depression.
One day, Lin Ya went to the hospital again. When she came back, we sat in the cake shop. I couldn't wait to ask her, "What did the doctor say?"
"Shh!" Lin ya looked behind her and whispered to me, "Let's talk about it at night."
"Nothing." I also lowered my voice and saw that Lin Feng and Tang Manya were not outside. I asked again, "They are behind us. I can't hear them. What did the doctor say? Is everything better?"
Lin Ya smiled bitterly and said, "I'm not in a hurry yet. Why are you in such a hurry? Depression is mostly a mental illness that happens over time. It can't be cured in a few days."
I asked again, "What did the doctor say?"
"The doctor just talked to me. He gave me some advice so that I wouldn't be stressed out."
Depression is a mental illness. It can't just rely on drugs. Even psychotherapy is more important than medication. I thought about it and asked, "Did the doctor say what caused your depression?"
Lin Ya frowned and thought for a while before saying, "Maybe it's just sentimentality. You like to think nonsense." As she said this, she gently pressed her fingers against the table, which made a slight noise, "Many times, the cause of depression is not specific, and it is impossible to find the cause."
Lin Ya looked at the table, and her mood suddenly fluctuated. I was just about to ask her what happened when Lin Ya said, "Xing Yun, I know you care about me, but you keep asking me that. Let me... Let me..."
Lin Ya didn't look very good, which made my heart tighten.
She seemed to be a little irritated. Her fingers were scratching the table harder and harder. The harsh voice gave me goosebumps all over my body. I softly called out "Girl," but she seemed not to hear it. She lowered her head, looked a little distracted, and said in a distressed tone, "You're making me especially uncomfortable and uncomfortable. You're making me... Stressed... I..."
It was the first time I saw Lin Ya like this. She had never been so impatient before. I panicked, panicked, and my body trembled. I knew that I had asked too much of Lin Ya and put a lot of pressure on her, so I quickly apologized, "I'm sorry, girl. I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Seeing Lin Ya in pain, I even wanted to share it with her. It was my fault for asking all the time.
But lin ya didn't seem to hear me. She frowned and looked painful. She continued to scratch the table with her hands and fingernails. That voice sounded even more uncomfortable than a cat scratch. It was especially uncomfortable.
I couldn't bear to see Lin Ya like this, and I was even more afraid of Lin Ya's finger getting hurt. I quickly pressed her hand, held it tightly, and comforted her again, "Girl, girl, it's okay. I won't ask, I won't ask anything. Don't be nervous, relax, relax..."
Lin Ya's breathing was a little short, and it took a while for her to calm down.
And I was so scared by her that I sweated.
I looked at Lin Ya guiltily. All I cared about was chaos. I shouldn't have done this. I should have been by her side, taking care of her, not putting pressure on her.
"Xing Yun."
At this moment, I suddenly heard a familiar voice.
I turned around and saw that it was Ding Ge.
At the same time, Lin Ya yanked his hand away from mine!
She stood up and said in a hurry, "I'm going back first."
After that, Lin Ya walked towards the door. When Ding Ge saw Lin Ya, he was slightly surprised, but his mouth was open as if he didn't know what to say.
Lin Ya walked up to Ding Ge.
The two girlfriends, who had not seen each other for many days, had not cheered or hugged in their imaginations, so the atmosphere suddenly became a little more subtle and strange.
"Uh..." Ding Ge said just now.
Lin Ya looked away and said quickly, "I'm leaving first."
With that, Lin Ya walked away. Ding Ge looked at lin ya's back in confusion and walked towards me after a while.
I looked at Ding Ge and thought, why is Ding Ge so early today? It's not time for school yet.
"Why is this point here?"
"School ends early this afternoon." Ding Ge replied absent-mindedly and asked me again, "What's wrong with the girl?"
"It's okay." Lin Ya specifically told me not to tell Ding Ge about her depression, so I had to lie. To change the subject, I asked again, "What's the matter?"
"Old Gao said you were here." Ding Ge said, "Well, Xiaojing and Xiao nan want to invite you to the bar tonight. They want to thank you for saving them last time."