I stared at Lin Ya in a daze, goosebumps all over me. What did Lin Ya mean by leaving?
I know that what she said today was absolutely different from what she used to mean.
Lin Ya took a bite of the bun and said calmly, "I've already said hello to Yin Shuai. He'll take me to the entertainment industry. We'll leave together tomorrow."
To the entertainment industry?
Leaving tomorrow?
Hearing Lin Ya's words, I could not help but tremble and my pupils suddenly contracted. This news was too sudden, too shocking, too unexpected, too unbelievable!
I swallowed the food in my mouth and said in horror, "Aren't you not interested in the entertainment industry? Why do you want to go to the entertainment industry now?"
Before, when Yin Shuai said she was willing to pay a hundred thousand yuan to make a video for her, Lin Ya didn't agree and simply refused. She was not interested in the entertainment industry, but now, she actually took the initiative to contact Yin Shuai?
However, when I asked the question, I felt stupid because there was no need to answer it.
Lin Ya left, went to the entertainment industry to develop, just to leave us, away from me and Ding Ge, she wanted to be so far away from us.
The only reason she did this was because she wanted Ding Ge to get back together with me.
"There's nothing wrong with going to the entertainment industry. Maybe I'll become a big star in the future and make a lot of money. Didn't Ding Ge say she wanted to start another life? I want to try it, too."
I find it hard to accept that even change should be made from the heart. Lin Ya made such a choice, but it was not from the heart.
"Don't go, okay? Let's go talk to ding ge again. There's always a way out of this." I said eagerly.
Lin Ya shook his head and said faintly, "I don't blame Ding Ge. It's my fault, and I shouldn't be wrong anymore."
"You're not wrong!" She just fell in love with someone she shouldn't.
"But I hurt Ding Ge!" Lin Ya looked miserable. She bit her lower lip and said firmly, "I have to leave! Only then will Ding Ge come back to you."
Lin Ya knew that she was the strongest obstacle between Ding Ge and me, and she didn't want to be the obstacle between us, so she chose to sacrifice and leave. She didn't want to hurt Ding Ge, and she always wanted us to be together, so she did.
When Ding Ge asked me never to meet Lin Ya, I didn't agree. I didn't expect that Lin Ya would take the initiative to leave, and still go to the entertainment industry that he didn't like. It was very uncomfortable to think about it.
Lin Ya is not leaving, he is saying goodbye!
She made up her mind never to see us again. Even if there was a chance to meet, it was only occasionally that she would stay away from our circle of life and not disturb us.
When I thought that I might not see Lin Ya in the future, my heart suddenly emptied. I said to Lin Ya reluctantly, "Can't you stay?"
I don't want Lin Ya to do things that he doesn't like just to help us!
Lin Ya chuckled and said to himself, "It's okay. Maybe you can see me on tv in the future."
Her eyes were filled with deep sorrow, which could not be concealed, as if all the peach blossoms in the peach garden had fallen.
"Are you really leaving?" I really couldn't bear to part with Lin Ya.
But I also know that I can't persuade her at all. She was just like Ding Ge, a person who was determined that things would not change. She was especially stubborn in her bones, and Lin Ya was naturally determined to make such a big decision.
The reason why lin ya wanted to go to the entertainment industry, I think, she not only wanted to stay away from us, but also wanted to be far away from us in life. So, I think she wants to be a star, so that she can never go back to her normal life. She was not afraid of failure, and for her, failure didn't matter.
She looked miserable and determined. Nodding his head, he took a deep breath and said in a trembling voice, "After I leave, I must get back together with Ding Ge! Can you send me a message then?"
I felt that the aroma of breakfast suddenly disappeared from my mouth, leaving only a bitter taste. It was so uncomfortable that my heart felt like it was stuffed with cotton.
I don't know how to answer Lin Ya, because I'm not sure if I can get back together with Ding Ge this time.
Before, Ding Ge did say that lin ya was the biggest obstacle between us, but after that, she said that she had changed, wanted to live a more free and unrestrained life, and hoped that I could fulfill her wishes.
"Promise me, will you?" Lin Ya's dark eyes sparkled with a pleading light.
I looked at her, at that beautiful and clean face, nodded, and a sharp sadness flowed through my heart.
"When are you leaving?"
"Tomorrow night."
This meal was so stuffy that I couldn't help but wonder how Ding Ge would feel if she knew that lin ya would leave like this.
Is this what she wants?
...
The next day, when I woke up, I heard that Lin Ya had left.
I couldn't help but feel a little annoyed that Lin Ya had not seen the last face before he left! She didn't say goodbye to me?
I should have guessed!
Du Ling told me that lin ya left in the light of the day. She left alone and didn't ask them to send her off. Du Ling also asked me what Lin Ya did?
It seemed that Lin Ya didn't tell anyone about her entering the entertainment industry.
I told Lin Ya to go out and relax. I knew Lin Ya would come back. After all, Lin Feng Tang Manya Du Ling and her family were still here.
I went to the house opposite. In Lin Ya's bedroom, her bedding was neatly folded, and there was a faint scent left in the room.
My eyes were moist, and Lin Ya left without saying goodbye.
All of a sudden, I felt a special sadness in my heart, a huge sadness, as if it was raining all over the world. The sound of the rain sounded so sad that it was even sadder than chopin's music.
I walked to the window and saw a layer of ice on the glass. It was very beautiful, just like Lin Ya, so beautiful, white, pure.
When I saw the crystal clear luster of the ice flower, I suddenly thought of Lin Ya's smile, so beautiful, so pure! The beautiful curve of the ice flower was like the corner of Lin Ya's mouth, which was slightly raised. It had a bit of personality, a bit of confidence, and a bit of natural and unrestrained.
However, under the sun, the beautiful ice flowers began to melt and blur.
There was a strong sense of loss in my heart again, and I felt a huge emptiness in my heart.
We rented the two opposite houses together, but now she's gone.
By this time, Lin Ya must have left Pucheng in his car.
Suddenly, I miss her so much!
I remembered the time we had fun together, our first time together at the photo shop, I bought Lin Ya milk tea to help her celebrate her birthday, I was sick and Lin Ya reluctantly took care of me, the scene we were fishing in the pond, making a big table of food for Lin Ya to apologize, and the anger of breaking up with her on a snowy night and throwing my quilt away from her house...
Sweet, sour, bitter, joyous, sad. All these years, we were in spring, summer, autumn, winter, in the snow, day and night, under the starlight moonlight, we cried, laughed, and went crazy together. Those times were like transparent crystal balls, shining with bright and pure light.
I took out my phone and tried to call her, but her phone was turned off. Maybe she didn't want to hear my voice right now. She wanted to get away from this place, not only to help me and Ding Ge, but also to get herself out of this long buried emotion.
I think it might be right for Lin Ya to leave! For so many years, it was because we had been together that Lin Ya's feelings for me had grown deeper and deeper. If we had only met a few times a year like some other friends, perhaps Lin Ya's feelings for me would slowly cool down and this feeling would gradually fade away.
Let's go!
After you leave, gradually look away from this emotion, you are so outstanding, you will meet very outstanding people.
I edited a wechat message for Lin Ya.
Why didn't you say goodbye?
Outside, be careful and take care of yourself.
You have to go to the hospital regularly to check on your illness, and you have to recover completely, okay? I hope you will always be happy!
Take care!
There were so many things to say to Lin Ya, but when the words were typed, only a few words were written!
If you feel wronged outside, don't hold on. You must tell us.
Come back when you're tired and want to come back!
No matter how far away we are, we are the closest people.
...
Lin Ya left just like that. I don't know when I'll see him again.
I can't help but wonder, in the future, will Lin Ya really become a big star? Just like the stars on tv, will we be the same again when we meet again? Will she alienate us because of her different status?
...
Ten days later.
I sat in a chair in the hospital, and Old Gao was lying on the bed next to me.
Old Gao's mother fell ill. She couldn't eat or sleep for a few days in a row. Her body was extremely haggard and her whole body was a little frightening. This time, she was really sad. Her body and mind were broken. Now, she could only rest at home.
Du Ling and I had nothing to do, so they took care of Old Gao in the hospital. Mother of Gao Old was relieved to know that I was taking care of Old Gao.
Now, Old Gao was out of danger, but he was still in a coma. Old Gao had suffered a serious brain injury before. The doctor said that if Old Gao hadn't woken up in two weeks, the chances of waking up would be slim.
Hearing this news, I felt as if a hand had torn my skin and held my heart. The cold and horror wrapped around me like a spider web.
I didn't expect this. I didn't expect this to happen. I thought, like last time, although the car accident was very serious, Old Gao's life was even harder. We would hear good news one after another. Old Gao would recover little by little and then be as lively as before.
However, I didn't expect Old Gao to become a vegetable!
At the thought of this, I was especially scared, afraid that Old Gao would never wake up again!
My blood seemed to tremble!
As time progressed, I was getting more and more tormented. Under extreme oppression, I was physically and mentally exhausted, and I felt that I could not bear it any longer.
These days, Old Gao showed no sign of waking up. He was lying in bed, unconscious and motionless. Du Ling and I talked to him and he didn't react at all.
I'm his best friend, Du Ling, the person he loves. We're here with him. Old Gao, doesn't he know?
Why hasn't he woken up yet?
Seeing Old Gao lying there so pitifully, my heart grew more and more angry with the hit-and-run driver, but until now, the police had not found any clues.
These days, I was almost in the hospital, and I didn't go to Ding Ge as lin ya told me. At this time, I really wasn't in the mood. I was exhausted, and now I just hope that Old Gao would wake up. I can't care about anything else.
At this time, only Old Gao and I were left in the ward. Du Ling went shopping.
I looked sadly at Old Gao in the hospital bed. He looked extremely miserable, unlike the plants in the movies and tv series who were lying on the hospital bed with ruddy faces.
He had been sleeping like this for so many days.
After sleeping for so long, haven't you slept enough?
How much I wanted to wake Old Gao up, how much I wanted to hear his voice again.
"Old Gao, why don't you wake up? You're sleeping all day now. We're here to take care of you. You don't get enough sleep every day, you know? When you wake up, you must serve me well! I'll take care of you for a few days, and you'll be my servant for a few days, okay? If you don't say anything, I'll take it as your acquiescence. You're welcome, buddy!"
Do you know who is taking care of you every day? Guess? I can't believe it, Du Ling! I think you still have a chance. Wake up quickly."
"After all these days of sleep, the world has changed drastically, you know? The girl left and went to the entertainment industry. I can't imagine. Maybe she became a big star when you woke up. We'll have a celebrity friend then. It'll be nice to talk about it."
"Ding Ge broke up with me. You wouldn't have thought of that."
"Wake up quickly, wake up, even if I beg you, okay? Now, all I have is you. They... They all..."
Speaking of this, I suddenly couldn't say any more, and my heart was filled with intense sadness like a tsunami!
In the past, the five people we had the best relationship with were me, Ding Ge, Lin Ya, Hu Zi, Old Gao...
At that time, we often got together to toast, drink, eat, and sing. At that time, Old Gao was still a rich second generation, unruly and unruly. Hu Zi had not had a hand with li xiaowei yet, especially love. Lin Ya and Ding Ge always held hands intimately. We were so happy together!
We spent the night hiding in a building on a stormy night, had a picnic with ding Green ya, played poker with them on a rainy day, urinated on the side of the road with Hu Zi Old Gao, opened a restaurant with Hu Zi Old Gao, paid off Old Gao, and fought together...
We can't finish our story in three days and three nights!
How good are we? Our relationship will not change even if the sky collapses!
But now, Ding Ge broke up with me, Lin Ya left the city, Hu Zi broke up with us, Old Gao lay unconscious in the hospital bed, and the reality was so cruel that I didn't want to face it!
In the past and now, the two time and space seemed to be entangled together. When I was under the collision of the two time and space, I was sad and happy, laughing and crying. I felt as if I was torn to pieces by the opposite emotion!
This is not what it used to be. Everything is different. It's like a different world.
For a moment, the emotions in her heart erupted like a volcano!
At this moment, I have never been lonely before. It filled my body, occupied my limbs and bones, and almost crushed me!
Those loneliness soaked into my blood and flowed through my veins.
It was so cold and cold that I felt as if I had fallen into an ice cave and I could hear the sound of my own freezing.
Then, all of a sudden, I burst into tears. I could no longer control my emotions, like a collapsed dam. The sad flood instantly flooded me.
Uncomfortable!
It's so damn uncomfortable!
I couldn't help it. An old man was crying in the hospital ward.
However, this is the hospital, I don't want people to hear my cry, so I put my right hand into my mouth and bit it. My throat made a whine, tears flowed down the back of my hand, and my body couldn't stop trembling.
So painful!
It hurts so much!