Chapter 45

"Well?" Shunian's reaction was a little slow. He didn't quite understand what he said for a moment. He just followed his words and said, "OK, ok..."

This word falls, two people did not move.

But it's not embarrassing.

A narrow staircase.

Xie Ruhe is less than half a meter away from her. He stood on the lower stairs, but he still looked a quarter higher than her. The warm light cast on him, the halo of fine velvet, and there was a light shadow under his eyes.

His face was not as cold as it was in front of others, but a little more gentle.

Aware of the dullness of reading, Xie Ruhe droops his eyes and holds her wrist.

His fingertips are slightly cool, like a piece of ice on the skin suddenly, which makes the reader shrink subconsciously. Xie Ruhe's action, without adding gravity, gently rubbed her finger on her hand.

It's like a casual little action, and it's like a deliberate touch.

Then, Xie Ruhe put the key back into her hand.

"You open the door."

Shunian doesn't know why things are like this.

She went to the kitchen to wash two cups, and her mind was a little confused. Eyes floating to his wrist, just been touched by Xie Ruhe wrist as if with heat, burning hot, endless.

Shunian felt a little uncomfortable and dashed his wrist with cold water foolishly.

The living room is very quiet, from which you can hear the sound of the kettle boiling. There was nothing else. But she felt that his sense of existence was very obvious, as if she was watching her nearby.

It makes people feel stable and nervous, and they don't know where to put it.

Shunian adjusted his mood and returned to the living room with the cup.

Xie Ruhe is sitting on the sofa. At this time, he is reading a novel she put on the tea table. Seeing her coming back, he put down his things and took the cup from her hand.

Shunian hesitated to sit down beside him.

Watch him pick up the hot kettle, pour the boiling water into the cup, and then add some cold water.

Xie Ruhe put one of the cups in front of shunian.

He swept around and asked, "do you live alone?"

"Well." Shunian whispered, "my mother remarried. It happened that I I was sick during that time, so I moved here. I don't live with them. "

Xie Ruhe did not ask again.

Shunian didn't know what to say, waiting for his answer.

There was a long silence.

Like in a very serious consideration, Xie Ruhe has not opened his mouth.

This delayed answer, let the book read the mood inexplicable anxiety. She hung her head and played with her fingers. She couldn't help asking, "have you thought about it?"

Xie Ruhe's voice is lazy: "still thinking."

“……” Although she knew that he had his consideration, she offered it herself. But he thought about it for such a long time and didn't get the answer. Maybe it was really difficult.

The book reads stuffy way: "good, you think slowly."

The next second, Xie Ruhe suddenly burst out a sentence: "or you think about it."

"Ah?" Shunian opens his mouth blankly, "what am I thinking about..."

Xie Ruhe took back his eyes without expression, his eyes were not very natural: "consider whether to let me tell you now, or let me continue to chase you, until you agree."

His tone was especially serious, as if he was really consulting her seriously.

It's not a bit of a joke.

Shunian swallowed and looked timid: "you mean, don't you mind?"

"I want to mind something."

Smell speech, book read silent for a while, suddenly stood up, barefoot son, dada ran to the bookcase next to, took out several books. She went back and stuffed the book into Xie Ruhe's arms like a gift.

Confused by her sudden action, Xie Ruhe said, "what's this?"

Shunian opened one of them: "it's a book about PTSD, with writing symptoms." She turned to a certain place and read to him in a low voice: "there will be psychological reactions of depression, often manifested as despair, helplessness, guilt, loss of self-confidence and self-esteem, insecurity, etc., and even suicide attempts or behaviors in serious cases..."

She spoke faster, like a little anxious.

Xie Ruhe suddenly interrupted her and said seriously, "I'll go to study."

Shunian lowered his eyes and whispered, "I've been seeing a psychologist. I took the medicine for more than a year before, and then I stopped taking it at the doctor's suggestion. Now I haven't taken any medicine. "

“……”

"The doctor also said that I was in a good condition..." Shu Nian stressed without any confidence

"I know," Xie said

"That's it." Listening to his words, shunian's eyes were sour, and suddenly he wanted to cry, "I'm much better now. It's not so serious. I won't be as scary as the above..."

I want him to understand clearly.But he was worried that he would retreat after he understood.

There will always be something you want. If you want to find it, try your best to explain it. Try to make your defects smaller in his eyes, but you don't have the confidence to say it too full.

Xie Ruhe pursed his lips and said, "I don't mind."

The voice of shunian stopped for a few seconds, then quickly opened his mouth again, and his final voice trembled: "I think if you say this, you may not have so many worries..."

"Even if you don't say that." Xie Ruhe said calmly, "I don't have any worries."

In this moment.

All the worries and fears were gone, and only the joy of the rest of my life was left. The book read red eyes, immediately lowered his head, whimpered and said: "I want to wait until the disease is completely cured..."

But it doesn't have to wait until the perfect day.

It's hard to cure a mental illness completely. Shunian knows it.

"Do you want to wait?" Xie Ruhe leaned over, wiped away her tears with fingertips, and stared at her with drooping eyes. "Like you before, I also wanted to wait until my legs were completely OK before thinking about this matter."

“……”

"But now I feel it." Xie Ruhe's lips bent up, "it's really unnecessary."

Like a person, want to be with him, should not have preconditions. This is anyone's right, where there are so many rules and regulations, where there are so many unnecessary waiting.

Those who want to be better and more perfect are the driving force to make their feelings warm, not the obstacle to limit them. Because these things can be done with that person, and completed with that person's company.

Love is not only a gift, but also a gift.

The voice of the book also has a nasal voice: "this is not the same."

Xie Ruhe is very patient: "where is different."

"You're almost ready." Shunian said inferiorly, "but I'm not sure."

Xie Ruhe tilted his head and asked in a low voice, "can't I accompany you?"

Shunian said, "isn't that fair to you?"

If I knew that one day I would like him so much.

Shunian wanted to go back half a year ago, to the day when he met Xie Ruhe again. At that time, he told him that he liked him, and then accompanied him to get better.

She also wanted to spend that hard time with him.

"Then you are not fair to me."

“……” Because of his calm and unconcerned appearance, shunian's inner uneasiness became more and more intense. He couldn't help losing his temper. "You shouldn't do this. You have to think about it seriously."

Xie Ruhe was stunned: "what."

Shunian was depressed and felt nervous for such a long time. In his eyes, it was just a trivial matter: "you have to think about it carefully. It's a big event in life."

“……” Because of her last four words, Xie Ruhe pauses for several seconds and suddenly laughs.

Shu Nian's eyes were still red. He suddenly raised his head and said angrily, "why do you laugh at me?"

It's like a rabbit.

Xie Ruhe didn't speak, the corner of his mouth was still rising, and there was no half convergence.

Shunian didn't want to talk to him: "I'm not wrong."

"Well. I'm sorry Xie Ruhe said with a smile, "I shouldn't laugh."

He admitted his mistake quickly, but he didn't apologize at all.

Shunian was still angry and didn't say a word.

Xie Ruhe didn't speak any more. She stared at her quietly. Her eyes were deep and affectionate with crow feather eyelashes. His eyes seemed to be warm, focused and burning.

She instantly lost her temper, unnaturally don't open her eyes: "you don't look at me."

Xie Ruhe picked his eyebrows: "can't you see it?"

"It's not that I can't see..." I was so nervous that I couldn't breathe smoothly. My voice was soft and waxy. "Just don't read all the time. It makes me feel..."

"I don't think so."

Shunian doesn't know how to describe this mood.

She carefully raised her head and looked in the direction of Xie Ruhe. Seeing his peach blossom eyes and gorgeous lips, she could not help saying: "you seem to be seducing me."

The word "seduce" she said in a very low voice.

But Xie Ruhe heard it clearly. His face became stiff, and his appearance became very unnatural, as if he had been pierced by her.

He didn't know for a moment what to respond to.

All of a sudden, the topic was pulled away.

Shunian felt that what he had just said was not appropriate, and his brain was confused and blank. Afraid that he would be angry, she stumbled over the topic: "it seems very late..."

“……”

Shunian touched the water cup and said, "it's water-cooled. I'll boil some more water."

She picked up the kettle and went to the fountain to fill it.

Only the sound of water can be heard in the narrow room.

The sudden silence made the scene seem embarrassed.The book is struggling with what to say to him for a while.

Almost at the same time when she released the water machine button, Xie Ruhe's voice suddenly rang out behind her.

"Reading. I don't know if you know. The second time I saw you in the hospital, I threw my cell phone on purpose because I saw you with other men. "

Stop reading and look back at him.

"I'll tell you, it's going to take a while to wait for Fang Wencheng to drive over, but actually he's in the parking lot nearby. My hands are not uncomfortable. I just want to find a reason to stay with you. "

"In the audition later, I also deliberately asked Li Hong to find new actors to audition. Because I want to see you. "

"I called you on my birthday because I saw you talking to Xu Zeyuan when I was looking for you."

He spoke very slowly, as if in memory, and as if he was a little embarrassed because of his behavior. Can say these words of all time, Xie Ruhe's vision all put on her body, without a trace dodge.

Shunian looked at him and fell into his deep eyes.

"You said we had known each other for ten years, and time passed quickly." Xie Ruhe licked his lips and said in a hoarse voice, "but I didn't tell you that I like you for ten years."

“……”

"From the time we knew, to the time we separated, to the time we met again. I've never liked anyone, and I don't want to forget you and like other people. "

"It's not what you think. I like you because I've been with you for a long time. Because I like you, I will try my best to stay with you. "

"It's not that I didn't take your concerns seriously, it's that I don't think it's necessary. Other things are unnecessary to me, because I just want to be with you. "

"I want to be with you forever."

He is not a good speaker.

When he said these words, he seemed very nervous and his face turned red. Like a teenage boy, he doesn't know anything, just wants to dedicate his whole heart to the girl he likes.

I don't want to hide myself anymore.

Just want to tell her how much he likes her.

Let her be completely relieved.

Shunian stayed in the same place, his lips moved, but he didn't say anything.

With these words, Xie Ruhe looked very uncomfortable and stood up: "I like you. You can consider whether you want to be with me or not."

“……”

He added softly, "I'll be good to you."

Seeing that shunian didn't speak for a long time, Xie Ruhe didn't rush for an answer, but said, "you can wait and think about it before you tell me. It's late. I'll go back first. "

Shunian stares at him, looking a little at a loss.

Xie Ruhe touched his back neck: "you go to bed early."

He raised his foot to the direction of the entrance, just as he wanted to open the door.

Behind the sound of a hot kettle was put on the table of the collision, as well as the feet on the ground of the crisp sound. Accompanied by the sound of reading: "Xie Ruhe."

Xie Ruhe looks back.

Shunian's eyes are very bright. He seems very nervous. His cheeks are red and his breath is short. She came up to him, put her hand in his palm, lowered her eyes and said solemnly, "good."

“……”

"I'll be nice to you, too." She whispered.